I’ve been blogging for 6 years continuous now, and have built two blogs, and for the first time in my life, I have been presented with problems in life, so severe, and so serious, that no investigator, report, openness, subject, or blog post can solve, and maybe that’s a fact about life, I was lucky enough to be well liked, performing under pressures, and immune from punishments or blame, which now Im not in denial of a website hurtful, breaking a law, while prosecuting me in public in a very mean and destructive way, that should not be spread and made public, but because a belief that I am terrible things or have done terrible things is a deadly pressure to me, and can result in deadly consequences to me, mental health wise, or cause me suicide, which is what calling a hotline is for, its not me giving up or, leaving to work a job, not overcoming challenge or difficulty, as it presents itself, but doing my best to figure out what is the purpose in me not being well anywhere, what is the purpose of making me give up, what is the purpose in blaming me or prosecuting me, what is the purpose for being in court and what does that mean to others, and what type of future harms does that subject me to in life, when considering how and why to stay well, it’s not obtuse for me to consider myself in danger or being targeted as a result of what rumors or things are being said about me, to target me or threaten me harm in the form of rejection or direct anger or upsets toward me, is hurtful and a deadly consequence of anyone having a problem with you trying to make everyone hate you and think poorly of you, is not the kind of life Ive envisioned for myself. So taking a step back and not engaging in fighting or “mental illness” talking about life or what I think, is only being used to attack me, dislike me, hate me, cause me voices, threaten me, use his website to hurt me, stalk me, be hard on me, come down hard on me, ruin my life, take away privilege, force me to end up in the hospital, make life not work out for me, make me sound sick, try to make me go nuts, hit my head, be made fun of for things said about me, and Im telling you Im doing my best and with much challenge continuing to write online and can continue to blog even with a job or participate on Instagram, if I had a solution for saving my own peace and making sure there are no losses, then I would do my best to speak to life in a way, I don’t get sick, humiliated, blamed, prosecuted, sued, or ridiculed for sharing examples of ways to care without turning things around and endangering my own life, threatened, or made sick, based on whats being said about me make others sick about me, or think sick of me, or be sickened by me, and maybe how Im being hurt is not justified. But please don’t misunderstand the topic of who I am, broadening the subject to all losses, and deciding I should suffer or get mental illness, or commit suicide and be blamed, as though that’s serving a justice to who has been lost, not consider me alive and well and able on good merits.