I get that as a reader of my blog, there is an expectation for quotes, wisdom, articles, self-help, mental health subjects, and a sense of hope of things working out or going to be okay. That being said, it’s hard to address crisis, or emergencies on the blog, in a way that doesn’t cause worry or overwhelm. Being online, it’s basically your job to be reassuring, to give people a sense of something going on for you or for everyone and life and general, articulated as problems, to be worked on, or given space to improve or figure out life in a way that is satisfying and beneficial to one’s health. Therefore it’s been really hard for me to have been hurt online, and for that to have been affecting how I feel and how I write, not to mention affect my struggles with voices, or mental health (physical and mental health), but I assure you that I am doing my best. Even if Im about to shift gears here this week and start a new job, that doesn’t change with great difficulty it has been for me lately, to write, and stay well which is very unusual for me. I had therapy today, which went better than therapy last week, and working on the resulting “psychosis” or illness resulting from being hurt, or in the face of any unwanted and unnecessary fighting imagined directed toward me, occurring in the form of voices, or unwanted pressures in life. Just in case its unclear the purpose for submitting reports, it’s to share a problem Im having that I need help with, and probably not a problem that you are having or need help with, so in case it’s unclear the purpose for sharing, it’s being in a state of mind in which things are unclear, and to address what is not clear or what Im going through mentally as it relates to a concern that someone who is well like the government or an organization that you submit a report to, can determine how you’ve been hurt, or make sure that others are not hurt, so that’s the point for reporting, and maybe doesn’t show or explain what Im going through, or able to create an ending or explanation or state of mind, that should make things go well here forward, and that Im figuring out on my own and through therapy, what is causing me sickness, how I feel in times of sickness, how I communicate in times of sickness, what is causing me sickness or hurting me, how do I feel victimize and hurt by someone, and what can I do to stay well and not be hurt by this person, or by any stranger online, or unwanted view or unsupporting lens toward me, directed hate or illness toward me, it’s a lot to think about, only recently have been experiencing illness associated with writing and sharing online, which is very unusual for me. If I could figure out whats causing me sickness, then Im sure I would do everything in my power to figure out whats causing me sickness, or figure out the science behind how someone could cause me sickness by reading or hurting me online, and maybe that’s not in my power to explain. And maybe that’s not in the power of anyone Ive reported to to figure out and determine how to protect me from being harmed, by unwanted pressures or looks, or negative judgments in life. I just want everyone to know, that I was not feeling well, Im in therapy and will probably spend a year or more in therapy to figure out voices, or mental health issues, as they have been affecting me recently, and will probably have to talk to an investigator should I be hurt, and figure out whats causing that hrut, and do everything I can to get well. Right now, spending less time online has been advised by several medical providers and not helping me, but hurting my physical and mental health, so do my best to stay well and get prepared for work this week, and make this transition to having a job, and also continue going to therapy for however long it takes to figure out my own condition, and whats been coming up for me, and get help in private, and hopefully things will improve on the blog, as I improve and shift my focus, and be better able to help out online, as I get help fixing my life, and staying protected from harm. It’s not easy, no standing, coming from no story, isn’t, an instant win, or equal a world wide audience and popularity, and no health risk, or mental health issue, is anything Im enduing new, that Ive not done my best to inform everyone, that Im being hurt. So Im sorry for the difficulty Im experiencing blogging, while being hurt, and having mental health issues, being faced with unwanted looks, and opinions, and negative judgments on me, as a result of any expression of hate toward me. It burns my head, and causes me physical pain and suffering.