cc: I got a job and worked for about 8 days, until I was let go, and have learned a lot from that experience the first time I was going through a lot destabilized over home finances punching my head before work started, struggling to stay sober, having many positive moments and experiences and interactions at work, then as a contrast got voices with a very nice job at a very nice office that works very professionally a big firm, and instead of voices being proud of me, and stopping, it continued, in addition to the fan site given a hard time, and I feel like when people complain thats to make me feel bad, to accuse me of being up or knowing what up is, disregard my disability, or bring me down in life, to make others feel better (voices) and to me thats not a fair punishment or use of sport that I need to learn a lesson from about where I belong or try to tell me that I cant work anymore after doing my best to learn more than 20 tasks and duties that need to occur and be known to me, accuse me of not working full time the 8 hours, and not deserving of voices, I think when people are not proud of you their motivation to make you feel wrong or that theres something wrong with you there think that mistakes in writing or life you have lived is a secret even with everything online, or convince you “they have something on you” I think when people decide to play life as a game of “having something on me” they are supporting threats and intimidation to my health, they allow for others to come down hard on me, the issues reported (voices) misrepresent me and make me sound sick, there is lack of clarity comparing my face, to what caused me to drink, to have a great day of work work until 5 straight finally not tired by 3 or 4, makes no sense to me, and I think if Im getting voices as punishment, by people pretending to be the CIA or know me or love me, they are not helping me if they are hurting me, and as a consequence of hurting me they fail to see the life that I had or who I was, in seeking to turn or change me to something ugly or disliked, or give permission to everyone to hate me or turn against me, I dont think that a system of prevention will work based on a theory of making fun of me disrespecting me being unappreciative of me giving me voices, or accusing me of sickness, if for every allegation I need to sue who is spreading rumor to entitle voices, then I can sue everyone who hurt me including lawsuits, and if not offered explanation is good enough I can also take those emails and sue those people who sought to intimidate me or convince me Im missing something or have memory problems or have done something wrong. The issue today is crimes against women, and I dont see how calling me pervert is going to solve crimes against women, or why I should provide analysis of my pen name mymollydoll, to accuse me of representing a girl type that anyone seeks to excommunicate or separate from genders race and who I am online or by standing, I think the bottom line is that fires are not my fault, so being in the valley should not cause me voices or haunt me or be a reminder of something you believe occurred wrong by location, in addition, handling cases and given a Ybarra last name, with an Ibarra person in court for a recent killing of a young female, in the news, I think is an unnecessary play on my genotype or alert system, to accuse me of having guilt or being in a job, make fun of what I disclosed or what has not been said clearly or good enough, I think in short people will not be appeased by what you have to say when you are fighting, but if something is not my fault, and my temperament, and meds, dont demonstrate that Im psychotic, if I run everyday, I would not hit my head or hurt my hand if Im a writer and thats is my gift, means whats controlling, and if what people think controls, or if what I remember controls, untimately the code has to do not with stories you pull from my life to try to tell me that anything is about me or accuse me of being too stupid to represent myself, its about what entitles anyone to mistreat me as though I dont have an official and adult comprehension of life.

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This is an example of saying something that makes people not care about you think you have zero class are trashy destructive a homewrecker joke or fan site joke or voices or pervert pedophile sex offender rape joke “no means no” (to bring up a company name No Name Ventures to bring up lawsuit and bring up a Black Lives Matters poster over the Brentwood sign that said “tell us their names” or walking away from a jail story discussing which type of offenders are beaten up in jail accuse me of being one) is clear I’m not winning based on my timeline or any photos therefore because I get voices it’s now clear to not date it’s okay I lost my job at least I was honest and credit disturbance is not due to not blogging a need or demand or discontinued effort or job going to make things better instead of me writing online is clear the solution for voices was not found with me working full time and follower changes or losses were blamed on my content being poor or attitude mistaken or a turn off accuse me of cutting loose a loud mouth obnoxious misrepresent Judaism or unwanted presence places beneath others a joke in the room I consider if I’m the joke that’s something I’ll have to adapt to that belief system that prefers to not take me seriously not be impressed call me old compare me or accuse me of jealously saying something wrong here that sounds ghetto or street is accuse me of not wearing hats and not being fit and cool accuse me of being a hoodlum unwanted or accuse me of stealing. It’s unfair to be called terms after being give shots put to sleep so I can’t work accuse me dysfunction or difficulty tantrum make that about sex if something’s wrong with me I will never know why nor deserve to be punished like I got raped or am not loved rejected from establishments that I cannot fix it’s not heartwarming to know my story watch my pictures and accuse me of being a reject meaning not attractive like the wrong people or not hot or like politicians or older guys or accuse me of having a type in the end you didn’t value what was world peace about me when the concern was “drinking and not fighting voices” resulted in drinking and fighting voices and I stated fighting voices is not the solution therefore in order for no one to be hurt bothered by me I don’t need to say things wrong to be ignored not attractive stupid or wrong if that’s the interpretation then saying things like I’m not alive for you seek to empower myself is about good things happening for me because I said “what happens to me happens to others” (what makes a role model good things happen for you) stated “if I’m hurt that hurts others” I think if the solution it’s turning into something ugly then I won’t have a life or be able to take meds work or get to be alive and jail is not proper based on any medical condition or lawsuit preventable I think I’ve made it clear when punished no one is on your side you don’t make sense everythings too much taken the wrong way ignored your emergency or timing doesn’t matter and you go by what others say becomes the solution or side voices relate to and that’s how you become watched and unsupported.

I should start spray painting law firms (I’m just kidding (this is how you say something wrong lose respect justify voices fail to explain voice changes misidentify the issues to accuse me of not working hard or complaining or going through a lot not make a big deal of hospitalizations) (and bullying is to bring up student protests in Florida with a job in film and award received for a movie about a rape victim and accuse me of thinking anything is about me a bad reflection in life (involve Pulitzer as the point of contact or telephone conversation the deciding factor in perpetrating violence toward me by voices). I think I worked hard to belong not bother anyone I don’t think anyone can comprehend what would cause me to hit my head and fracture my hand or decide that if I’m bullied it’s my fault or accuse me of not having compassion for others affected in a good way meaning not handling being shouted at well as mentioned and for that to be used as a source of focus to an Eminem song you accuse as being about me memorializing road rage toward me misidentify me as upsetting or needing me to lose everything (make fun of my car and changing my car to not get bullied attacked) not belong not make it accuse me of experiencing life not waiting as though I’m in a rush or haven’t worked hard to be well, the issue dear Judge is calling me an offender and explain to everyone it’s not okay to sue me for money I don’t have or an attorney I don’t have make fun what court is like punish me as not showing up coming to mean automatically putting me in jail). I have a positive head on my shoulders I get interviews now for paid positions which was my goal to graduate). I have every Craigslist application since 2008 before and during the recession. My story is not for your personal use you will never know code perfectly trust the FBI. I started messaging US Navy I applied (2009). I refuse to put up with voices refuse to be discriminated from jobs because of disability or OJ if you have a question ask, if you have a concern ask, if your not sure ask, if you don’t appreciate my leadership and good luck, it’s not me who destroyed anything in the name of California I’m a California approved corporation with a stamped document in the State of California and the California Supreme Court read my entire history stamped and returned 2013, therefore I’m not the person who dropped any balls in life, I don’t forget a darn thing in life, and if you want to fight me you can fight me in DC in front of the US Supreme Court I’m insured by Blue Cross PPO and they refused to finance rehabs or continued stay in programs know me! It’s not a big deal if things are good enough to step aside and work I assume when things are not good it won’t matter where I am or what I’m doing or if I get voices I have to assume to help if it’s something that I appear to need help or representation would make or inappropriate to work if, the issue is saying things wrong I’m assuming to be punished in combination to anything being used to disfavor me over another would make it inappropriate to date or share photos.

When going out is not accepted when the issue is who I am my behavior or why I’m in law school never forget who worked hard studied in the library for 5 hrs everyday instead of bullying me or calling me a drug addict or alcoholic I don’t need to be treated like OJ punished for the rest of my life it be blamed accuse me of mental illness or offensive it’s clear based on voices which can be for many reasons related to sexuality or communications I think connection to me is not valued so connection to celebrity doesn’t matter as having existed it’s clear the world works to make everyone feel good and feel smart and it’s clear the world was made for everyone except me and that’s how I feel after working hard being punished twice I’m not full of myself or full of bad ideas or full of shit or unhelpful to Cochran Shapiro Kardashians or the legal community I belong that’s where my heart is work I enjoy doing can keep going don’t feel sick doing that kind of work. Able. So when I say things like (1) never talk to anyone for the rest of my life (2) stay away from women and girls accuse me of having problems I don’t have (3) continue to never have sex for the rest of my life am not responsible for feeling loved or given acceptance and attention in spite of noticeable disability and conflict mentally (4) prove I’m not racist keep writing to BLM and assert who I am not a news joke or recreation or unoriginal or acting or in my mind mentally controlling anyone or have inappropriate thoughts I’m not teaching sexuality I’m a role model I am sensitive to the deaths of celebrities I got to hear Paris Jackson speak and was allowed to visit Neverland several times and if those experiences don’t make me special or make relevant ask why is the term pedophile or “schizophrenic UCLA teacher” being used to put me to sleep and why everyone can’t help me sees the website as not a big deal that means people don’t care if there is low regard for me and whatever the direction is content created assimilated influential or accuse me of being offended by anyone’s content I don’t deserve to be treated as stupid it’s not the solution to allow for people to make pedophile jokes pervert cuspid lesbian jokes and say “that’s not a big deal he’s an a$$hole.” Maybe I will never get to be human connect on a normal level with others maybe the difficulty in stats is not because of me or what I say there being a standard of poise or solution globally I’ve not provided or helped make things easy not complicated of I cared to speak to content suggestive of calling me an unwanted exposure or accuse me of exposing myself in public that’s unwanted based on who I am and whatever the reasons were or whatever place this persons in now if we can’t connect on a level that either is appreciated unharmed I’m not someone reporting someone everyone forgives and sees support and love as indicating that this person is nice ignore the fact I got voices because of websites that couldn’t be taken down. I’m never having sex for the rest of my life it’s clear my mental health is controversial so is death offense and high profile offenders and clearly no story or contribution to a neutral and detached body of oversight US Supreme Court was appreciated. It’s not without mention when I’m called “sick a$$ pervert” not only do you not care who I am why I’m alive what a job means who I date or how I feel or when I used to punch my head all that matters is whoever is calling me that does not like me means to stay away from everyone for the rest of my life instead of punishing me question why I get attacked when accuse me of having a bad image or energy or not representing women well enough to prevent homocide clearly then it’s inappropriate to be gay or to have sex period with women let alone anyone younger is not a characteristic of me accuse me of illness or poor connection foreign or misrepresentative or beneath celebrity or book privileges in life I’m not a nobody or a has been and whatever is being said is about voices who don’t see the purpose in prevention or responsibility because they’re too secure with denominating me calling me gay accuse me obesity or bad pictures or accuse me of fraud or having stupid ideas or reflections in life I think doing less in life isn’t a big deal I see life as telling a story on a bigger level on what is done to me is telling me and others to be aware of issues you accuse me of having problems “bitch” or a sex offender deserving of being beaten to death or put in jail or punished by voices isn’t a fight I can win not discussing or refuse to fight drink not write it punch my head in the end what exists is a product of what you think I’ve done wrong forget or using news story bigger than me to accuse me of being offensive or a pig or wanting more or dissatisfaction or addiction or abuse it’s clear I’m too late to work for a generation I admire my condition of having no privacy bullied makes it a risk to connect to anyone is trying to accuse me of not being cool or lost or not good enough to live in a community I later met regard as cool life isn’t an experiment of pretending to fit in that’s not what work is about losing my job is about voices who don’t see the justice in me earning a living and believe punishing me calling me pervert is what everyone should know and accuse me not being allowed to protect myself from harm don’t see the issue with privacy or writing of blog or stats in the end if you want to know why there was a school shooting or mass shooting or gang violence or crime local to me please don’t accuse me of having a fake membership doing nothing or not solving anything I think if the issue is a word I don’t say then think of all the ways that we can prevent anything bad from happening let’s accept voices feel their opinion or exposure in life is more important than me serving of peace getting to improve take meds, the issue is not staying well rare to have a good day, unclear of what I’ve said or what is known accuse me of thinking stuff is related to me to accuse me of being drawn to things that are or are not solvable by what is accuse me of being too late not preventative I think being alone for the next 10 years and focusing on writing is the solution there was never a day in my life it was every easy and fun to blog a piece of cake I think difficulty is a challenge and voices is a punishment to accuse me of not being victim accuse me of having victims not see me as innocent or accuse me of “making things up or lying bring up the issue of rape then tell me based on my past you think I’ve falsely reported or responsible for my mental health or why I’m punished” is how voices work to support who prosecuted me and voices don’t stop because they consider their experiment on me without limits is a drunk driver DUI joke, to accuse me of being fucked up in the head or offensive or given bad drinks or asked to leave doesn’t mix well with others noticeably don’t belong us to further a belief that I don’t belong or am asked to leave or hit my head because you do not consider my stability for me or being gifted to someone else accuse me of not having any gifts in life and that’s what makes sex inappropriate. In addition being hurt means when I’m hurt that’s to hurt others to see people age or experience difficulty is not seeing my family as smart or beautiful to accuse me speaking wrong or saying stuff like I know stuff and have a condition announced to the whole world 8 million people not a big deal or an issue taken care of I think what was taken care of was putting me to sleep disabling me and continuing to push me off meds and worsen or improve or work still not the solution still not well enough to leave treatment and whether the joke is about what I have everyone is entitled to their own opinion and views in life life is for everyone not a code not a system of trust guarantees numbers or respect I think once you call me racist and I lose following it’s not about accusing me of illness it’s about why should I be exposed accuse me of looking stupid a bad image or foggy feature or presence is trying to say something’s wrong contributed by my existence that removing me from places and exchanging sex is not hurtful I think no moment of instability or disclosure required support that can be taken in the end it’s not me who speaks poorly or says things wrong I don’t think it’s okay to accuse me of being an alcoholic accuse me mental illness associated to alcohol or substances is not the solution to punish me no matter what my pen name is the issue is not who I am or who I was the issue is why should I be disabled taken care of by younger people how is that reflective of some truth about me you consider happening as though I chose disability or need to be taken care of I don’t need to be alive if this is how you treat people who work hard or suffer is not how you punish determine what’s connected my fault or make me sick disconnected a justice to anyone a low respect and obesity is not prevention it causes voices and bad pictures on Apple lenses.  

And if you want to learn my system for free my system is with SCOTUS until the day I die! Don’t worry I’ve been writing for 12 years online and given permission to blog is not what any Judge is punishing me for. I’m just not allowed to contact message anyone.