At my magazine job at Level 21 writing articles with experience blogging was told that I’m someone who gets it. And I guess that’s what’s being tested in the event everyone is nice to me supportive work is manageable I’m in therapy going to AA working full time doing my best to deal with and figure out voices and maybe that’s not due to blogging or anything the government or tech can regulate prove or disprove in the end I’m online connected to 300k and doing my best to be alive and help others. When I hear voices of disagreement, dissatisfaction, combative toward me, distrusting, dislike humor or difficulties, disrespectful of mental health and recovery time, continue to use terms or hate or any headline of issues I’ve addressed online by creating a website I see that as the voice of someone who feels good when I fail or F up or lose everything I see that as the voice who doesn’t believe in me thinks I’m selling something or someone or an idea anyone has to buy into to be successful I think based on what voices I get whether occurring in reality, by hate website made, these are words representative of existing issues I either do or do not represent as a human being or by resume and in the end it’s about what’s justified what harms to me are not serious or regarded as serious forms of threat what types of disclosures are admirable what kinds of nervous breakdowns crying are unreal. (fired in my face 3 times instead of pushing my start date started work not sober punching my head disfigured my neck). It seems when I get voices the expectations are unreasonable and maybe because I worked hard voices felt that was the proper system for improvement to not believe me as Jewish to not respect me as modeling to not take me seriously as loving or by body type and in the end it’s about who’s hurting who and what kind of information or honesty you value. I think when voices get it in their head to hold people to negative reviews or lawsuits I think you neglect to vouche for my own ability organization and intelligence which has made it clear to me to not share my story in a way that my struggle is anything the public needs to understand. I think voices persistent are intending to prove schizophrenia, I think sobriety and punching my head shows that sobriety and being nice wasn’t believable. In the end if I’m getting voices the issue is rape who is a sex offender who is not who’s love is wanted (calling my heart and writing unwanted makes me not want to blog), disrespecting my address of losses and ignoring my public presence as positive consumes with prevention neglects to find solution in blaming me and that’s what leads me to make suicide arguments based on voices that’s if you think I’m schizophrenic or offensive and if you don’t think I’m smart or have lived an important life if anyone is making a joke out of who I am or how hard I’ve work it’s fair for me to say I don’t have to be alive punished I don’t have to work or blog or be sued or attend court if you have figured out life in a way that I shouldn’t be alive then I don’t have to be alive so life works out.

Don’t clown on who I love or liking older in the end you didn’t fucking appreciate me and called me pervert and expect too much fucking content and writing still hurting me and finally don’t ignore the fact we are losing good men with an unhappy ending is fucked up for them to see. — Let me watch forensic files I’m tired of being so fucking positive online I’m not scaring anyone I’m handling 500% of life on my own lived alone since (2004)! I do well in academics straight As! Straight As at CU, UWLA, and Thomas Jefferson. I fucking hate voices I give up you scared me and my entire job if you make me sick and my entire job then I’m saying right here and right now I give up on voices ask the definition of schizophrenia to give you a solution for a condition you accuse me of having and use to allow for derogatory terminology to occur towards me. So you know why I’m fucking crying hysterically because I’m on my own and I have to help others and voices fucking attack me like any human being represents me and that’s fucking insulting to be called negative terms. I don’t need your sympathy or compassion you have life so figured out voices that you don’t fucking care if working blogging modeling living or dying everything’s a fucking joke and you know what I don’t have to fucking stay sober or talk about voices or be accused of things in life non existing bc if not reported or stated in court means I have no fucking team in life is why I’m complaining to the CIA bc I’m being given a hard life where I don’t have to be alone called offensive terms so what’s permanent and real is rumor and what’s the justice in causing me suicide which loss do you dislike my effort and response the call the fucking police and tell them you don’t like me or my blog why the fuck hack and pretend to be the government not an AI if you don’t like my information call me terms then I don’t fucking have to be alive! Ask Kim Kardashian to make up an Instagram of quotes and issues instead of fucking accusing me of being sick I’m on meds voices will never find justice in me well voices think me sick proves them right job loss financial pressure is being used to defend and accuse me of being sick and in the end I can call whoever I want to complain about voices I shouldn’t get voices and no one should influenced by me on my team in support of me I don’t disappoint I fucking work hard I’m successful and if you think I’m cocky want to take my job away then that’s your choice and I don’t fucking have to be alive or blog blamed.

I don’t deserve to be hurt get voices,

I don’t have to talk to anyone for the rest of my life I don’t have to have sex for the rest of my life stop accusing me of being sick, take it to court. Either I’m in court or you call the police or read expose or dislike me prosecute me but let’s not pretend voices represent the CIA they would never hurt me or the government.

I’m talking to an investigator tomorrow please stop making things about school shootings and mass shootings I can explain my analysis concerns address causes and prevent on my own on my own time by my own effort granted permissions by states to help as a blogger. Not arrested, so instead of making light of someone as a person who loves me to relate to or connect with not see as bad please comprehend I’m 39 have a heart condition now don’t want to have sex or model for someone calling me hateful terms and please respect 2 yrs of treatment for voices disabled in bed and ask the definition of schizophrenia what causes mean voices angry voices and not accuse me of having anger or frustration period about anything in life. End of discussion.