Research Paper

How are Voices Viewed

11-21-24

Introduction

The experience of voices is still a phenomenon that science has not quite yet explained or defined or coming to mean that there is something wrong with you, by reporting the voices you do hear, is unclear the reason or the cause for why voices occur, and still a reportable experience, Im sure difficult for anyone to endure, with an emphasis on it not being anyones fault, and to consider the experience of voices to come to mean either you are experiencing something that means you are sick, or is your fault, that you are not doing well as a result of something that you have done wrong, and what’s studied in the end is what is decided to be your fault. There is very little solution I agree with defining this delusion or occurrence as unreal a product of stimulants or drugs or alcoholism, with concern for whether or not having voices, means you are guilty or that something is being siad true about you, to decide for you a diagnosis, doesn’t mean do not disclose what is troubling you or hurting you, you don’t have to change or worry about how you sound or what you tell a medical professional they can tell whether you are suffering from something that requires a psychiatric hold, and can also decide whether alternate types of holds like arrest, or lawsuit are necessary to either prevent you from harming yourself, or mean preventing you from being in contact with anyone, assume lawsuit means you have hurt another and is how mental health is viewed as being your fault, making no diagnosis limiting or relieving the distress occurring due to illness and what impact it has on family, close friends, or loved ones, or connections for that matter to experience the loss of a person, ever okay to punish a person for a condition that is not their fault, or assume to be untrue or a manifestation of something mentally ill or wrong with them, associated to anyone they know or have been in contact with, has yet to be revisited the power of dislike or rejection, or the probability of losing your mind due to sex or alcohol are all sudden reasons to stay home, and experiences in life, that remind you to stay home and not drink, and to also not be harmed, try to figure out a harm or loss on your own without reporting to the police or courts what you are studying thinking about, and to not allow the shame and discomfort associated with misunderstanding photos or stages of self harm to be bad recordings or things shown shocking replicable elsewhere an issue faced that tells anyone or medicine that this person has done wrong and as a result of what they have done wrong, have lost opportunities in life, and make sex the excuse of what is going wrong for you, will always be an age old question at what point can you not entertain advances or not allowed to be social or be in loving relationships, once it becomes not about you, that means mental health is why you are being rejected, voices are representative of what is believed to be wrong with you, and furthermore voices are viewed to be a reflection of whats withing, while questioning speaking and writing and being helped, the issue constantly focused on thereforward is whats wrong with you, why do people give up on you, how do you handle rejection connection or disconnect, if your not able to date what is so difficult, wrong, or needs to be changed about you, in support of court, or any belief, and how many times must you be punished or asked to leave, or disallowed to be in communication with others, before a point is made or fact about about proven to be a risk of harm to self or others the focus being on your own limitations or reasons why you cannot work or help others, how do voices change the designation or diagnosis from viewing you as honest and in control of yourself able to keep up with life, and how many times are you put to rest, forced to be off meds, not able to work and expected to function off day meds, ever about being at any stage of wellness false or offensive, I think you do your best, and help is a privilege, and I think its clear that once you don’t belong you will not be able to be helped, and that is how being dropped as a patient becomes your fault and makes you look bad, let alone the voices or number or times you have self harmed, improved presentable, able to reflect and feel good about your progress, make it about others, is the point at which there is something wrong with you, that anyone would accuse of you failing to disclose that makes you unit to help others, when the focus is on sex offenses, its about why you cannot date, how have voices changed your life, to make the timing and match improper or force more focus on the specific words  or changes in care whether that’s a career coach or therapy, ever about there being a difference in improvement depending on who is helping me, mean I am critical of others, I think the point at which you are ignored and cannot be helped and to allow for you to be accused, or accused of misleading or misspeaking or capable of harming another requiring you to withstand punishments in life, for the many ways any diagnosis can be openly shared about allow to let happen upsets or argument concerning mental health or appropriateness for sex or dating. If the loss is Kobe Bryant, and the company name is No Name Ventures, knowing me or hearing my outlook in life, of questioning whether a leadership is occurring that anyone decides to punish me for is the solution to allow for leadership to be directed by someone opposite to what they sound like in private, a solution for a trauma or loss, viewed as preventable or continue to make sex and sex offense the focus. In determining what meds you are given in life, many will not prescribe you if you have co-occurring disorders are not known, terms are repeated with no improvement, ways to accuse me of being rejected medication and allow for confrontation to occur by people who are paid to evaluate me, come to mean that because of who I am or because of cocaine, be accused of having a disability I did not have upon starting law school or working jobs, it’s clear that what has changed is being hospitalized 9 more times, and not misunderstand solution as reflective of famous offenders you would accuse a hospital UCLA which Ive been sent to, about being loved or not loved or wrongfully accused the solution to blame me as a poor provider of direction or the cause for misguidance, is however a writer is found meaningful and helpful to another or accuse me of being harmed by someone who is helped by me, or accuse me of changing my writing, or not speaking honestly or naturally, avoidant, particular in making arguments either for myself or if not for others, only thinking about myself, in life you are given chances to improve, and improvement is not guaranteed, and disability is a life long journey that is sometimes a decision that is made for you, you have to consider as protecting you from harm or the experience of mental illness, you are never missing out in life working on yourself, there will always be time and moments in the future to share progress and talk to others, and by my experiences its clear that voices takes me away from people, and becomes something wrong with me I cannot fix, that is too hard to explain to anyone, about exposure or how my story is told, or in what ways should me losing or face disability view diagnosis or anyones take in life as providing for a better solution, either I cannot see, or keep track of whats been read, about me being preferential or naïve in providing help to others, misinform, or making up moments of creating for opportunities to help by doing something that Im presently capable of have the time for. In life you are either experiencing symptoms apart of the problem, or in denial of diagnosis or what you look like concerned with aging or change, or accepting and loving of self and others, sometimes the most heroic way to care is to focus on moments when there was something wrong with you, tell your story anyways and hope for the best, either you have to improve and change to accommodate concerns, or figure out life for yourself instead of being defensive to criticism, sometimes a better way of focusing on losses, or integrating your life among others, able to keep going is a daily reason to work hard to deserve to speak the next day, not take too long, not make mistakes, not be found in the wrong. The issuer of sexuality and body type is relevant as to what is found to be wrong or sick about my pen name, or accuse my focus on feminity something I later clearly am not, represent who is protected or designated strong enough to handle blames in life, no one if not me, and who is responsible for misdirecting others or being disruptive or progress, those who cannot assimilate who instead of remembering who they are, have decided to focus on business cards, or company names, award applications, punishment, arrest, sobriety, investing in the privilege to be officially recognized including hashtags and have notifed at all times organization of how your doing whats wrong with you, clear on all issues nothing Im performing fixed, or suddenly broken about me, or come to mean my focus is wrong, I think the issue is once you think a person is guilty or has committed an act or has a condition harmful to the health of others, makes you underserving of living indepdently not to mention, to make jokes about family jobs, company names, allow as assessment of the OJ Simpson Case, to be viewed as unnecessary or easy or accuse me of experiencing difficulty that does not respect the stages of discussion allow for acceptance of what sickness has tauight me, or respected me for discontinuing dating for many years, whats clear is that lawsuit has become a way for me to be wrong, it’s a way in which Im punished should I match, and how Im treated aggressively as having done something wrong I should be scolded for and that’s how you go from being respected and supported to being off adderrall with a job, allow what happens in a job, or work experience or support of Kobe Bryant a poster on my Bosses wall, come to mean something has gone wrong I should know better such as making an excel sheet, mean Brady is fighting any battle for me I think it would be abusive to hear my story and use facts and details as things to collect I cant keep track of or forget, decide to make fun of my mental health or life experiences or timeliness of recovery. I think discussing the permanency of discussing the word heard “pervert” “sick a$$ pervert” has become things Ive said that then motivates for a sense of permanency to take place which prevents me from moving forward, which cannot be reversed or taken back, which justifies loss of love or how quickly you can go from being deserving of privilege to losing everything, and if the lesson is voices and making a permanent issue the word “pervert” its not about how long I have lived or why my story works or is of value, its not about how when Im hurt that hurts others, its not about me being offensive, or getting away with mistakes or able to handle confrontation in life, I think when you are easily not supported in every way you represented someone who was proud of themselves is in every way an idea of blurring you space or memory or presence becomes about you not accepting yourself or liking yourself, decide that calling me “pervert” is ever justified to explain any happening that life would allow to occur to which no figure political or success can fix or help me, or communication valued, its clear once your writing is used against you, that’s how you lose, once your direction is not trusted, that’s how you are blamed, once an idea is suggestive of guilt or accuse me of not being able to identify “voices” or who OJ is, or not able to fix or unaccepting of anyway that anyone elses life or publication is about me being not worth loving, is testing for what is the solution, and so long as I am harmed, as long as Im not bothering anyone working hard, do my best to be sober, the lesson is that you cannot fix disappointment, let downs, you cant fix defamation or losses, you can’t explain how any leadership determines for any act to occur not peaceable or with consideration for all, or any organizations assessment or possession of effort about sending a box of documents that means something is my fault, in every way I described life and how you are able to help, is probably every way, its occurring that Im not special, left looking worse than I was, forced to accept change and dysmorphia, and to allow for continued acceptance of being exposed for self harm, and mistaking life or how things turn out a product or replication of there being something wrong with my presence, are things in life I cant control, what I say and how its decided that anything should be my fault, means that there is no possible cover up or solution, or requirement for anyone to figure out voices, or find meaning in the words “ghosting” or “sell-out” decide I am not beautiful on the inside, that disfigurement hard to look at is to accept a new identity which is shocking or disturbs others or becomes a way in which self harm becomes not something you are recognized for overcoming or going to the ER for, or describing how I feel or what voices are prevented come to mean I am not able to handle life as I have lived it or described, and instead of allowing facts or thoughts to be accepted, I think the timeliness and emergency and instability not being ready or wanted on a day you are focused predictable ways in which a person who loves you can be disappointed and if you are not empathized with or undeserving of attentions, to focus on when voices have occurred and continue to fix an issue yourself no matter what a definition online has told you, no matter what a term means for there to be some indefinite future that anyone else would be responsible for misleading or being in control of what happens to me, is always something that I have to figure out, and continue to focus on how to help, without fear of being blamed, its clear the more I focus on myself do my best to keep separate, the more Im accused of not focusing on everyone, the more companionship is used to confuse who represents me or whats true or wrong about me, become ways or difficulties in life not recoverable ways in which mental health issues or disability prevents you from dating or working. You don’t need to get voices, declared as your fault, later defined as a disease with no cure that shorten your life, a way in which fear is instilled upon me to bring awareness to a condition that would require recovery and ability to explain and help prevent any way in which I would ever describe my suffering as beneficial or describe anyone as intentional, there is always more to learn about life, the best way to live life and not be put in jail or survive court or voices, is to do your best to continue to demonstrate how and why you did not photograph a poster you believed was speaking to you, mean anything is not my fault or people have been affected that anyone would decide that discussion of lawsuit, or “precedent” or email address means mental health is someones fault, or that a major loss or devastation in a general way did not put forth effort to prevent terrorism or ignore application to a counter-terrorism job, mean that Human Rights Watch being in possession of all my documents was a bad choice, there will always be time to look back, all I can do is accept that so long as I am working hard trying to figure out whats wrong without offending anyone, than I am moving towards solution in a way that no major devastation is forgotten and for not social media presence or witnessing of my story entrust value in the wrong hands, or the cause or reason for a catastrophic loss, representative of why I was diagnosed with schizophrenia instead of changing my diagnosis continuing to focus on things Ive said is probably about figuring out something that does not require talking to the DA or police, which speaking in public can solve, being on my own is the solution, amd really focus on what doesn’t make me a hero, or a paranoid offender who thinks everything is about me, or a person who triggers another to suggest or hand a garment that you assume to be a poor communication coming from me, misidentify self-harm to be the issue, and continue to focus on not contacting anyone, until a solution is reached for what is wrong with my story, or forgetful, or related to COVID or any major trauma, how does life look and am I someone who is living in denial or at fault, or have sex problems or used up or disabled by having too much sex, an observance of me as a person, told to lose weight mean life is hard on me or doesn’t care about me, I think once its decided that something is your fault, or once you are going through something as described to court, Im sure being on my own is less about a world wise audience or removing posts winning or losing or getting over an issue, or reversing a condition, or requiring meds for, I think the best way to stay alive and not bother anyone, is to really focus on what Ive said wrong, really focus on my post-assassination blog posts and following loss, and really focus on why or what is the reason for changing all my work from peaceful and thoughtful to “epithets” or words being used to accuse me of having prejudice toward others or not trusting or blaming anyone, I think whatever happened to me is to accuse me of story telling openly or capable of companionships or looking well and being at peace or losing my peace come to mean Im not special or teaching me how a woman is hurt or in what ways I should suffer emergencies or illness that requires me to need crisis counseling means what about my resume, the more mental health issues I acquire the less it is believed that I was well, and the more its decided that Im inappropriate or drawn to things or accepted by institutions that one does not think I belong, based on “focusing on errors” or with concern for not knowing whos hurting me, whatever is the worst case scenario does not mean my statements or outlook in life is a poor prediction or cause of circumstance or not able to handle voices or diagnosis or accuse me of being non accepting or underserving of being known or publishing book, based on misidentifying me then excluding me, then using examples of hateful terms in regards to sexuality, or sex types, to suggest I don’t like myself, or unrelatable or hurtful, don’t know my own story unable to reverse or recover about shining light on something Ive said helpful which anyone would suggest I now don’t represent, ways in which you can be viewed as helping everyone, to ways in which you are told to stay away from everyone, doesn’t make being in court an easy disclosure or have failed to share stages on my Instagram, all I have to do is focus on why a DA is being used to punish me on a level that would require for there to be something so wrong with me no state of wellness sobriety or job type demonstrates fitness to live life, about something being wrong with me supported through, given chances to live life again, losing to voices in a way that communicates for me to have been harmed which has not been constructed by the government, that in every way Im confronted or accused, are the many ways Im expected to discuss a lawsuit, drawing attention to the absence of discussion is requiring me to solve and explain how voices happen or in what order does self harm occur, ever an improper discussion of assessment of suicide, or not knowing who I am or blaming me for being at fault, or accuse me of being suicidal and continue to confront me with voices, expect that being called terms is instead of worse circumstances, are all the ways in which I lived life well and had a meaningful recovery and solid effort to obtaining a paid position, mean my website or names or jobs or sense of direction or story is offensive to survivors or to the Simpson Family, and decide that any photograph that does not shine light on there being something wrong with me, I something maybe I will never figure out what others think, who knows me, able to be represented, able to talk to others, get well and move forward a simple choice to attend court or attend AA, something simple that I need to do to have my case be dismissed, that in the alternate my freedoms and upon observation of me decide that accusing me of sickness or not attending more treatment means I have yet to become aware of there being something wrong with me, that means being in a job or being made to wait on results is how I should be confronted with very serious news concerning my future in which everyone is nice to me, and court continues make a big deal about what my insurance will cover accuse me of disappointment, focus on “why I would be kicked out of my home on what level has there ever been something so wrong with me, that I cnat live alone or live home, or upon graduating be accused of being so stupid or sick, that talking to a stranger is how everyone became disappointed in me, a harm that I cant fix who is offended by me, or able to fix what about me was found to be offensive, and continue to focus on my own memory, what Im accused of, refer to instances I ever made decisions to not bother or publish recordings of any riots or protests something I should be aware is not working out that anyone would accuse me of being at fault or providing an insight unhelpful or not protective or respectful of anyone elses expression, I think if it involves everyone, or becomes about teaching you lessons on being hurt or what cant be fixed or “what errors to focus on” or lose your own life to every way it was found to be imperitave that I should lose jobs, which cannot be replaced, that I should be sent to more treatment, sober or off meds, about appearance or acceptance or error on anyones behalf, I think in every way I ever cared, Im sure that what was said wrong or an offensive take on what is my fault and do a better job, or working towards earning the right to be alive, discuss issues until solution is found and no one is affected, and continue to take responsibility for my own life my own image what is said how Im treated helped or changes in care occur continue to reflect on what happened to me so stupid unforgiveable that describing choices or circumstances or errors any way I am expected to live life, accuse me of poor presence or mentally disturbed, or not mixing well, or not good enough, or responsible, make fun of what is provided online “sufficient” or to a standard good enough to prevent a crime from occurring, and continue to focus on how chances are lost to live life again, attend meetings, have friends, be supported, in denial of my own presence accuse me of ebing an unwanted presence or threat or a danger to my own neighborhood someone who is using anything or in control of how things appear using anyone, or neglecting choices in life to be loved, that I should be accused of being so sick that I belong nowhere and that rejection of me is a way in which a “bridge tag is found meaningful” “PLZ” how voices can be pleased and I can lose, how errors can occur in reflection of statements submitted, how chances in life are prevented, how sickness and voices have been used to challenge what causes me to end up in the hospital, and make fun of voices prevention or speech impediments, not talking to men, working with women, being sued, following directions, not recognize sharing my story I continue to be punished and sued, mean Im ignorant of what makes everyone special too concerned about what I look like or accuse me of openly sharing a story loosely saying the word “OJ” or suffering a suicide attempt that means I have failed to recognize how hurting myself affects everyone, unaccepting of that being something that has occurred anyone would accuse me of not having survived or to have told my story in a way that anyone is to blame. I think whatever happens to you in life and whatever voices you get or diagnosis are ways in which you are helped, ways in which things work out or become complicated force disclosure or discontinue working mean Im in denial or have done something wrong living in a home with other women, working hard to deserve to go home, suddenly about my sexuality what the Judge has said descriptions of voices and solution provided a way in which life can flip from one extreme to the next wrongfully accuse me of misrepresenting concerns making light of how much energy is required to protest unfamiliar with types of losses, anyone would accuse of being my fault, underground, known, inspiring, street, respected, communicated, about nothing I have done right being remembered and for a decision to have been made to focus on solely on what I have done wrong or said wrong, is how my life is shortened, how I am told to give up, how I become too late, how I lose chances, how I am made to fuck up and be punished for alcohol or emails wrongfully accusing me of guilt, or while under the influence of a huge bottle of jager demoralized saying things that so wrong or any short way of disclosing the condition of voices, a secret not stated or spent time addressing online, making anything about me. In every way you can help you matter, once you don’t matter and the “N” word or “sexuality” or story is used against you, it matters less to bother others unable to comply with judges orders a punishment that would require multiple years of being assessed something Im going through that affects my stability, that becomes something that I don’t matter because of not believed to have worked honestly. In the end its not the avoidance or the advice making sense or not making sense reviewed or helpful or suddenly wrong, mean I don’t care or I am hurtful at this point it should not matter the threat or extreme to which I was disabled or treated not recognized as getting help for something wrong with me self harm voices, that I should be accused of communicating to a doctor that means Im too late, I cant get anything right, I have done something wrong, decide that calling me homeless or blaming me using meds or sobriety or alcohol in avoidance of being helpful not working hard for acceptances I think in every way the National Guard stood at Vicente Foods, and they did not riot in Brentwood, has become less and less about me, and my 4^th step or acknowledgment of how influence or life works, defensive or pretending to write articles, or accuse writing in public and not emailing anyone, a better solution is not giving work or problems to anyone, mean I need to change my story or what other people think, it’s a free country, people are human, whatever is not liked about you, makes you not important, whatever makes you well known is up until the point you have said something “insensitive” in relation to anyones death, or not able to be trusted, misinterpreting life or things that people say, mean I have failed to recognize whats wrong with me, if the proper way to live life and continue to accept everyone helping eachother, and taking everything away from me, are not all the ways my story is used as code apart of or failing in denial misunderstood blamed or trying to control anyones expression its become clear a “hostile animous” is sought a prejudice or error that justifies a punishment you would accuse me of dying because I cant handle voices on any level that not description positive or honest has been accepted as preventative or voices, if its about belief “and using race or judaisim court or money or people type or language mean whats wrong with me is an issue unrelated to what was respected about me” mean that I don’t mix or have issues with people, or bad reactions, or misidentify issues or insult, or insistent that I should not be allowed to talk to anyone, use sobriety off day meds, isolating or tired difficulty making friends privileges or improvements made and chances in life, or system of voices identify how tech is being used to punish to accuse courts of not being able to find solution or be protected by me, about me not knowing who I am, or mean voices mean I am nobody or cant solve voices, a way in which the people are being told I am sick, to reason to not be in any location, and to use the words “pervert” and “sick a$$ pervert” as form of punishment not reflective of the courts, or of any issue or failure on my part or offense committed that would suggest that prolonging my time in court, or accusing me of allowing too much time to pass, forgetful of who is important or respected in the community, mean there is something wrong with me, or going well for me others can tell, to make fun of an IMDb membership which you accuse me of being responsible for Laguna Woods and continue to accuse me of being places I don’t belong, or unaccepting of others, seeking to be matched with a specific age or class of individuals Im unfit to communicate with or recognize discontinued contact and deletion of messages respectful of the privacy of others, suffering a harm secret or suggestive anything is happening for others wrong or roles in life representing caretakers in life, or success, become ways in which Im accused of not being special or hurtful or not belonging, or loved and not loved, mean that it’s a game to take away every moment of accomplishment or any dedicated effort positive “insufficient” or unaware of issues affecting men or women, make it a joke that I should not get along with women, to accuse eyebrows as influenced by me, to accuse me of not seeing the beauty in the world, or being in such a bad place in life, or should be so regretful or fuck up so bad, that I cannot work and no one can help me, ways that “voices” cannot be proven, lens jokes live pictures video attire or face changes don’t make me special figure out why does making voices known in a permanent way serve to protect others, figure out why I look bad, and no one support me, or sees my side or views my wellness as good enough, really focus on whats in common to me or should be found wrong to assemble a believe Im unlucky or overshare put myself at risk of harm or others, not a neighborhood or location or running at night system considerate of the peace of others, a source of disturbance, I think life is tough for everyone, everyone is going through a lot, if Im getting voices or say something wrong or get voices easily I wont be able to work, is anyone thinks anything is my fault or alcohol or time passing or accuse me of taking too long or unable to handle delays letting anyone down, isn’t about me working hard in private or doing work that was good enough then and cant explain for disability or delays now or sloppiness typos or Instagram improvements I put a lot of love into everything I do considerate respectful of people do not have sex problems or causing sex at work, delusional or hurtful or dishonest or say things black out drunk to prove or disprove whether Im racist and how “causing me to fuck up” and sound mentally ill is about “why meds are taken away” accuse me of complicating my own life, use therapy or statements made in therapy as ways in which I should be accused of being in denial or reluctant of being helped going against medical advice or headed for some place worse that proves me wrong or fighting a fight I cannot win, about use of the word “hope” or timing of address in error, I was very clear on putting forward an effort into explaining and addressing the loss of a Brentwood student and not regretful of restating her words of sensing there to be something wrong, making fun of whats said or whats connected to me, or how neon lights were addressed or schools represented mean I either can or cant keep track am not being used causing or consider destruction of my work ways to punish me you accuse the government or 911 or any experience as learning how to stay well and belong unlcear of my own issues, or taking advantage of being known or anyone else hearts attention and care or silence or responsible for harms not able to prevent disorder and disease and disability, to keep accusing me of being met and accuse me of speaking in a way offensive to anyone, mean that making rejection apart of my story, or taking things away, is “memorializing” things or ways in which people were helped, that you accuse me of being something so wrong and fucked up that being hurt was my fault then by accusing me of not mixing well or unable to speak or figure out whats wrong, becomes more and more about what court is about or what lines are called or making fun of the difference between being help or not able to be helped, think that sounding strong or limited or tired or cant type or describing the problems I have mean Im not a hero or jealous that someone else is doing okay or reporting something not occurring mean Im doing anything wrong, I think in every way you highlighted meeting with a UCLA director who heard my story and made a decision to take me off meds, based on self harm or feeling suicidal is probably a loss or change in care as represented by the ex pen pal’s new pen name, represents for there to be something relevant and wrong with me, mean I have bad faith or poor vision or instincts or sense of direction or that figuring out issue in public is a way to be accused of not sticking to a standard digestible to most or age appropriate, and to accuse research writing or standards improving do more professional writing ways to make fun of saying things are easy for me a Lance Armstrong jokes, viewing moments of acceptance as ways in which I have been able to function, but because of sickness or disclosure lose opportunity. The point at which I am known and my story is known as a way that has come to mean that old age, improvements, identification of issues, compliments, successes, or ways of helping not being good enough, is to accept everyones interpretation and to stay in court and attend court and to focus on why my life is worse what have I thought what type of belief did I have in myself, what kinds of solution have I described, what are ways in which I have choked, how does everyone know me helpful uplifting codey and positive descriptions of noticing things not be accused of publishing or removing or make fun of “hesitation” as the two words I suggested as relevant to prevention “sufficiency” and “hesitation” knowing myself questioning others or who voices are accuse the government or tech, or any justified system of studying me mean I cannot help people that if I identified that someone was talking to everyone, and lucky to improve after a bad website was made, is not about me or singing or inspiring or reflective of music, or necessary to listen to music or watch TV the kind of person who has to do everything right to stay well, suddenly decide to drink or be punished for voices or changes in care mean Im not well or unfit to help others, or not age appropriate or examples of being unsupported or told Im too late, ways in which not taking a med and doing nothing and being stuck at home taking it easy, in a rush, or breaks in life unfamiliar after describing my only experience working full time, working through sickness, then working full time and doing well, become the solution for voices to win and for no one to care about me, and to make fun of my emails, and accuse me of drinking alcohol and not feeling well taking a drink and losing my sobriety date or months of instability an avoidance or risk or experimentation with losing respect or discontinuing writing online or emailing, a risk I took that justifies voices, that makes earning a really nice job, interrupted by voices, and for no life and nor years of life to be “good enough” for no advice or moment of togetherness representative of a type of discrimination that I would accuse anyone of being on any teams or feeling good by any result mean that Im sick or have expressed how something could be connected to me, then punished once I don’t have the time and energy or risk to be punished for continued discussion you discredit by a clear observation of me not being sophisticated professional loved, deserving, don’t know how to work in a job, expect everyone to be nice to me, overreacting, is not always about the time and energy spent to help others, its clear when life isn’t about me, the more you connect to me or use my work against me, the more life isn’t about me, and its more about people going through a lot, and to not call for attention, or accuse speaking online a position or improvement easily lost, mean I take anything for granted, or am something in reality worse than I look an observation or reason for exposure that no condition is being used to bother anyone, that Ive never refused or blocked anyone, who has made a decision to hurt me so bad, Im not forgiven or frozen for a year, is not how to make fun of reports or how Im helped accuse me of trying to outsmart or belong in any system official or police oriented on the wrong team in life, or having expressed concerns in life, or ways to use form of prayer or my childhood or news story as failing to protect and represent my family, accuse me of providing no solution or being an “embarrassment” accuse me of taking risks, accuse me of challenging solutions found and everything that wasn’t a big deal to anyone, mean I am not covering for or simplifying or presenting a version of life in light of many losses deserving of work or a job, need an attorney or be made fun of for emails or be hacked and emails deleted and photos deleted or albums deleted mean its okay to accuse me of not being Hillary Clinton, or not respectful of history or political work, protective, sometimes I feel like for everything I do or say wrong, is something I have to live with for the rest of my life ways in which I should change discuss life in a way or write quotes helpful to me, someone with a life or at peace youthful who lost everything or gets blamed and the use of gambling with everyone knowing me or not knowing me or purpose for court, or experience with a website hateful mean Im trying for things I don’t deserve or not staying well or changing me or accusing me of being an offender or getting voices is something I should deal with painful that hurts me, that tells me to never talk to anyone for the rest of my life, mean I need to continue to try or apply or date or live life after being told no or stay away see a viable solution or unwated closeness between me or unknown people make me not famous or unfit or not able to handle being known or reading a book that suggests that Im too sick or have an illness so obvious and for there to be something so wrong or disappointing with me, that you accuse me of not being well adjusted or “perverted” or unwanted or “offended” or defensive suddenly known or not known suddenly study be close to or not know mean Im not presentable or a story so stupid or painful that anyone would die or any loss is obviously my fault, and to use my words “living with mistakes” as not evidence of having lived a good life, Im assuming I am making mistakes and losing everything, not because of court or voices or something I need, but losing to accusation, and in every way I tried to help and to be proven unscientific or not knowing myself or not able to save my own life or not belonging among any group of people less than everyone, is probably how Im being punished by court, and whoever is causing voices, is nothing Im not focusing on have problems or issues or being accused of things I cant defend myself against or need an attorney or special help or treatment in life not attended to a pattern of accusing me of misdemeanor and view instability or observing me in a feeling of being too late or there being something wrong connected to me that a bad email should reflect that Im inappropriate or concerning or a music joke, doesn’t mean life is making fun of me, or Im not working hard to belong its almost impossible to talk to anyone past the point of being too late, or cant reverse, mean Im in denial of any system suggestive or fun for others, that anyone would wish for me to not feel good as solution accuse me being nowhere or being too sick to talk to anyone, continue to use voices to accuse me of being a “loser” a location or hate website joke, a focus points, or stated solution mean the word “pervert” means I fail to see the beauty and purpose in my own life proud of myself and keeping everything.