Fighting is the quickest route to absolute insanity, to me fighting is mental illness, can’t tell which way is up or down, as though you are drowning and running out of time, saving your own life, due to some unforeseen series of events keeping you down in life. To me that’s a fan website, I checked and took a look yesterday and went absolutely nuts. You cant just do that to people, woman, man, that’s not how you deal with life, or answer the problems of others, persuading others to hate someone, if that’s how he really feels about life and death and who I am as a human being, I can’t solve a negative viewpoint of me, misinterpreting my life and existence as coming to mean something negative, these are preventable ways from being hurt in life. To me a hate website, makes everyone think I said or did something wrong that triggered this person to do this to me, and life isn’t that cut and dry simple, you can’t just take a public figure, and destroy my life and reputation, with consequences and discomfort to me, and think that’s some reversible joke, its not reversible, it’s causing voices, and it’s convincing people to disrespect me, not like me, or have anger toward me, and I can’t afford to be attacked in life, Im a woman, I don’t have protection, Im not strong enough to withstand a fight in which you convince people I don’t matter or am this person who is dead who doesn’t belong in life, out of everything I have done to make people feel apart of and belong, I ask why is this being done to me, and why is he causing me mental illness, or relapse, what is it about this fan site that is making me suicidal or feel like punching my head, how badly am I being hurt in life, and how does being hurt in life, affect my work product, career advancement, and my life in general, how am I supposed to date move on or love others, when this is how Im treated. I consider myself a good person, I don’t think it’s okay to justify a fan site, it is a big deal, its wrong, its inappropriate, its completely illegal, it’s not a peaceable assembly, the intent is to put a hit out on me to get me killed, or be attacked, and that’s not okay to put me down, to lift anyone else up, that’s not what Im alive for making me feel bad about myself, who are you doing this for, who are you killing me for, who are you ruining my life for, who do you think is being helped hating me in public, and I would ask why is this being done to me, why is this being allowed, and why should I be given a hard time for reporting this person, isn’t anyones business what Im going through, who I call, or what conversations are held in private, is no ones business, not even hurting me over a website.