It’s your life, it goes wherever you go, it fits in a job, it has a home, it has friends, it has support, who you are in an integrated mix of who you are and all the variations of what makes you you. To me sickness is a condition that is feared, much like depression, or being brought down in life, hence the pickiness of some, or the necessity for standards to get jobs, look and appearance wise, but in the end, this is your life, it should follow that if you can be well in a job focusing on another system, you should be able to return home, and focus on your life, and working on your own system or at home job of staying well. I think online, I have taken a creative approach to how I’m able to stay well and talk about life, to ensure others are not bothered or scared, since the increase in crime and homicides in recent years following many movements in time, it should not be the case now, that anyone is to blame, at any intersection of issues, found relevant or connected in life. There will always be things in common and make sense to how you view and assemble life, or conceptualize crime or losses on a scale, that you want to figure out exactly, how to save everyone, and not be too late, and be a person in life, that’s lifts others, makes it easy to comprehend life in a way, that it cannot be easily destroyed who you are or what you stand for. I think Im doing a good job of this. Just checked my Cloudflare stats, it finally went up, after weeks of struggling to figure out what to write about and not lose steam, you can say a lot, but it can not be what people want, so what do people want. People want reassurance, want to be met with enthusiasm and encouragement, people want to feel smart to feel needed, to be free to explore ideas and be able to future plan, or have a settling outlook on life. I think the more you address specific issues on me, the longer the delay in blogging or producing work product that is of article quality or deserving of a like, so please also appreciate other moments in life of being human just like everyone else, trying to figure out what happened, and work hard and be apart of the solution. No one will ever think that you are something worse, no matter what your diagnosis is, I think if you are made to fear people, or be scared or not trusting of others, that’s you life and your instincts and I cant do anything about a person, who does not read my blog, or reads my blog and judges me, as a person with disability, my innocence is the same as everyone else’s note Im not trying to look or sound a special way to either be in court or not be in court, that’s not in my control, what people complain about or what people want from me, that’s not my job, I did my best to talk about it, ultimately my experience so far being in court, is that it’s a long process of figuring out your diagnosis or what’s wrong  with you, it never seems to be good enough a good day or a bad day, and it seems to isolate me and prevent me from living life as a normal human being, to me court, tells everyone something is wrong with me and mislabels me as someone who poses a threat, yet allows for people to threaten and hurt me.