I think angry voices represent subjecting me to people racist who hate me to question my ability to prevent a mass shooting be apart of progress wealth and beauty or sacrificed and used and turned into a person you put in jail and call guilty sometimes I wonder the purposes for success and get anger on a level I’m not in jail have done nothing wrong stayed sober did not become lesbian or gay or close to anyone women clear on what anger from men represents rejecting me or accusing me of not having sex or rejecting sex or belittled I think if a man feels good by me I didn’t make him small a bad lay shrink anyone give anyone disease or heart condition sometimes I think my analysis of voices and speaking to racism on a level you deny or feel insulted angered by means to just use myself to prevent mass shootings and homocides and trust that giving up on voices mean I understand what being called pervert means to stay away from women or not date and can comprehend that nothing in life worked out for me because of voices including my blogs job career and sobriety and that’s sad people thought I was gay or not a role model or source of inspiration I’ve made it clear I’m straight I pick who I love I overcame lawsuit I’m allowed to be online I’ve not committed any crimes and the experience of voices is real it’s using mental health strength and money or people to disadvantage me so you think me suffering makes everyone else feel good expect me to be used to connect sue blame to make other people feel good let me be victimized in the end I can’t control what an angry persons issue is with me I know what a word means I know what sharing a word means I know what schizophrenia is I know what being poor is like it jail is like I’m never dating again based on voices and will not be applying for jobs again until I get sober recover from self harm and good enough to not be hated or wrongfully accused until a hate website is taken down and staying away from everyone because the term is unacceptable not apart of who I am or my judgment of sex or human beings I didn’t take love away I put my entire fucking life and heart into blogging for 12 years and innocent earned it and maybe I can’t handle insult and it’s a joke about insulting me punching my head calling police and locking me up making fun of my 2013 breakup or how I dealt with feeling suicidal in the end it’s not a game I’m going to succeed be proud of myself I’m not going to be gay I will not make a for any gender we site use my name I don’t need to become something so school shooters can relate to me to prevent a mass shooting nor does ruining my life solve a mass shooting giving me schizophrenia. Sometimes you have to let life move on accept my space staying home doing my best and my health or doesn’t need to get to a point of hurting me hurting everyone sometimes I don’t need to be a joke or household name or for it to not be clear if I’m famous or fun focus on the women you admire match with one another without anger towards me or lawsuit. And accept me choices in life to be alone and how that prevents anger towards me, mental illness, gay issues, insults, and suicide self harm.