I think everyone gets mad or feels offended or insulted or starts movements against or exposes people or cause job loss and that can represent a system of using racism or wrongful rumor accusations to justify make famous people feel better being up Jewish issues or Black issues or me too I’m not insulting anyone’s life defending myself or surviving court and improving my mental health. I’m sorry if you don’t believe me think I’m stupid, unimportant, ugly, not famous, a joke, pathetic, retarded, ignorant, make fun of mental health experience with medical care and treatment I’m not up here to validate myself ridicule be an answer or a cause or fake hero or has been proven wrong destroyed use my strength mental health to hate me turn on me drop care dislike me or self harm or suicide to get angry at me or mad at me I’m not confused about having a good life and being loved and whether voices are permanent justified change me get what they want make me look bad ruin my life hear me shout call me ugly turn off lose love life job career blog pretend I’m some criminal you make famous put in jail call me a fake solider or not smart or guilty means if I’m hurt it’s not about anyone I can’t help anyone based on words I didn’t kill me myself do this to myself schizophrenia is not a choice I’m not OJ I didn’t bring up money or slavery or race or have a bad sex life not loving or improper sometimes I wonder what causes anger I think trying to say I don’t work mean nothing not helping an sick make fun of who’s a doctor who’s not doesn’t mean I’m stupid not allowed to help myself or write make mistakes. I think calling me that word is to make women feel smart and special and prettily make fun of me as not strong or call me fat jealous and ugly play games over who I am or who’s hurt if question what rape is it crime or messages influence in the end I know who I am even if you make all women hate me or all men hate me calling me a word so I get beat up some jail story you think means it’s okay to beat me to death make fun of a skinny neck or can’t breathe who does this to people I’m looking out for others I’m learning tech too and my human body life and face I’m not getting by lose everything for attack to solve a homocide and racism doesn’t mean I’m killing myself when you turn me into what he says then everything being done to me is to represent someone else that’s how you make my head I’m not causing death not worth knowing or hurting anyone or threatening anyone I think non acceptance in terms of voices is a way for me to stay in my room for the rest of my life and be made fun of who’s deciding that voices it’s not a joke terms I’ve said several times don’t call me that have given up stopped blogging stopped cards emails sobriety and meeting attendance how many times do you need to get rid of me be hateful before you are happy get what you want that’s not the solution hurting me so everyone can be normal or put me you jail over what mental illness is or what a word means I told the truth you can’t know me make fun of isn’t love that’s threat belittled disrespect I don’t want to be in any group gang or system period based on how I’ve been treated and that is the public’s loss not important to see me quit go downhill make me shout punch my head one day you will have to be strong for eachother make up your own rules of living that don’t involve hurting me until things are better isn’t protecting anyone cause me disability or make fun of schizophrenia.