I’ve been through too much suffered too long to be used and abused as an advocate based on present difficulties and worries now is a good time to make clear I’m not strong enough to help anyone with mental health, addiction, sobriety, or legal issues. I have enough on my plate doing my best need to take care of myself now is not a good time to use me blame me have sex with me friend me force me to be in public or attend meetings I’m tired I need to stay home I did my best worked hard and got jobs if it can’t handle voices can stay home live a private life discontinue blogging take a break to figure out life it’s not about what I’ve done wrong it’s about why am I alive figure out my purpose in life what can keep me alive what to live for preserve my worth do my best. Thank you for your understanding clearly this story is too high profile to talk to anyone or get the privacy I need in therapy just do my best take good care of myself give up if I need to or back off be honest. I’m allowed to take breaks it’s not okay to blame me talk bad about me spread rumor make fun of me that’s not love that’s torture turned selfish and hurtful.