Recently its been a shouting match with voices, and which terms are hurtful and Im sure in my desperation hysterically crying, or dependent on meds, I didn’t make sense, and for anyone who saw me on Instagram, not a fan of my arguments and separations from various classifications and movements in life. I think a group project works when everyone can be including in a thinking style that has acceptance for all, I would hope that my analytics could automatically create that mutual acceptance for all, but instead, Im given voices, to feel not included, in a group project that I started and built myself, helping everyone.

So right now is no different by terms, by crime, by any headlining issue, or fire, make anything more about me, or less about you. I would say whenever someone goes against me, its more about you, less about me. I think when Im getting voices fighting me or insulting me, its more about you and less about me. I think if Im being bullied online, its more about what Im going through and less about you. I think when Im coping with a condition of voices and if writing is helping me, on those days its more about me and less about you. I’m sorry for the confusion, as things relate to me, to judge my content as not amounting to a matching total amount of views.

Im not in control, of what analytics I do or do not have access to, some people are not privileged to know everything about their following, or views in life, and I think I have been open and giving enough, that I would not be questioned, as though anything going wrong is stemming from me, not especially, since Im in court, not guilty, and submitted thousands of emails to my Attorney and scotus, in support of myself and what I am doing online, why would I give up the privilege to be allowed to stay well and help others, or let myself get hurt or be replaced in life.

I would never work this hard, unable to get a job, to get a job, or lose a job or become disabled that doesn’t make sense. I don’t think by any comparison to any major movement in life, it would make sense to not include me, or rejected me from consideration as having an effect on people who know me, to not have some common respect for who I am, to not get this disease called “voices” is not my fault, not by any extreme, or necessary in my late 30s, to have a new condition that Ive never had in my entire life.

There is no way I could go to law school with voices, how would I be able to focus and do work, just like working full time was difficult, and lost my job because of voices. I don’t think its anyones job to condemn me, or exclude me, or to not accept me. You accept eachother, you accept everyone famous, you accept everyone on Instagram, all I would like to know why in my colors, and based on whos dated me, suddenly be accused of something Im not guilty of in real life, have never bullied, or shouted, or been in a fight in my entire life, and maybe this is my first fight and learning what it feels like to defend yourself against hateful words, and its tough.

As a Solution: I emailed all my squares and arguments made in public to scotus and NYDA (done and done, time to move on, let go, understand how I feel where Im coming from not deserving of lesser treatments in life, is not how Im choosing to live my life and not the life I deserve to live, not by any extreme, fact, diagnosis, analysis of crime period, or continue to argue by email in favor of myself against being given a disease). Against a word I find to be a hurtful and untrue description of me as a person, compared to others, to be misdiagnosed, and misjudged or subjected to voices, or sides against me is unfair to be made fun of for fighting or battling mental illness, and a hate website hurtful to my mental health and this being the second year its occurred, and took me 4 years to recover and be able to get a job last time this happened 2020. #notmyseed