To: Judge Nguyen

It’s not fair to make a spectacle of me without publishing a public record or press release providing your own description of this case or purposes for punishing me more than two years now, since prior to my Father having been put on hospice care, have failed to explain why an investigator would visit my home to interrogate a job application, or punish me for a permitted interaction with DA Spitzer as far as I’m aware was with his awareness a person at the time then and now and in the future someone coming from a story facing difficulty getting a job, the first time I’ve ever told my story or openly shared my diagnosis as a person representative as coming from a newsworthy case, who’s experiences during law school, and conflicts faced prior to attending law school, was with awareness as to who I am, never anyone who would appear disabled or request to meet a public figure if I was undeserving of meeting DA Spitzer. Again Justice Nguyen it’s not about what I’ve done wrong accuse me of inter-organizational paranoia, or offended by being given a fake business card, it’s about why am I being investigated for having done anything wrong and why am I being insulted told “It’s never going to happen.” This investigator doesn’t know who I am doesn’t know my story has come to my home as though he knows something or make fun of how little I know about a person I wanted to helped, not the problem or person to intimate in my home I’m front of my family disturb my Mom over a post I blogged about a brief interaction. If this investigator has prided himself in telling me what I’m experiencing in life isn’t real, suggesting I am wrong or not worthy of meeting a politician, and if he’s still unclear about what was inappropriate about interrogating me in my room accusing me of having done something wrong doesn’t make it okay appearing in connection to any Orange County Lawyers Association mean that I am living a life requiring investigation who is forced to interact with a person who’s job title business care is unclear which organization he is representing make it okay me of all people to make fun of watching me being told what I’m feeling what I’m doing how I’m improving without yet having expressed a love toward a person, I would never intend to harm, doesn’t mean it’s okay to accuse me of cheating make fun of the ex pen pal pretending to be Todd and asking for inappropriate photos content on Google chats which was deleted after repeated incidents of self harm, is one way in which I was treated as stupid a nice person made photos coerced into taking photos I never take “my biggest insecurity” a self mutilator and cancer victim the kind of woman who should be made fun with emphasis on making fun of my experiences in life, neglect to see the harm in 4 years later publishing vagina photos now at age 39, or refusing to punch my head a better way to deal with voices or ever not doing to my best to earn my peace and prevent bullying, to me people engaged and think it’s okay to ridicule a person if they feel like they have permission to and given guidance and information suggested to keep being fascinated about what hurts or accuse me of being in denial of my own looks ability accuse my bumble participation as cheating or being matched with a volleyball professional related to “Investigator Eric Majors” I researched after being given a false business card with a dirty Google search result is later not an uncommon way of trying to scare me. Clearly I’m not anyone protected by law or the courts or treatment centers, the reality is I was a hardworking full of life loving self improvement lucky to share ideas and tell my story to someone I believed could be trusted so yes I did walk away from him at my front door and sit on the curb crying, in the end it’s not about how many times you make fun of me hysterically crying whenever I feel like I’m not going to make it it this is the last thing that I need, it’s about why am I crying or why am I being accused of being in denial or create this long winded system of rejection the issue was bad photos sent to the ex pen pal poor body composition not my best effort sharing honestly about how long I tried to get help and the FBI telling me that I’m responsible for bad pictures then the whole purpose for taking better photos was for me to overcome the humiliation of not publishing any good photos without a lens and it’s still unclear why those photos were attached to OJ’s Twitter an example of a trauma I faced that is ever making light of it taking 4 years to recover or accuse me of not dealing with threats to the best of my ability privately I never acted like reporting or being helped required me to publicize all his threats a condition I did not cause or fail to perform responded to all his demands not a type of treatment in life I’m asking for or mean it’s okay to make fun of my friendship or conversation. I have no idea why he called schizophrenic lesbian schizoid pervert or accuse me of DUIs I have no idea why he would call me a pedophile or spread rumors that would be believed denying my acceptance of his sexuality or issues or form of threats does not make me guilty in common 2021 or 2024, it has to stop being about my limits, voices, how I feel, whatever the issue I never knew his age, I lost my website due to bullying took down mymollydoll.com and removed names or partnerships put together the lesson is once you get put down and humiliated those or not just common experiences any woman on earth has to endure that type of treatment and no misdiagnosis or state is required to explain my losses and accuse me of being retarded delusional trusting people sharing stories you accuse me of telling John Cockrell any stories and deny if he was hacking ultimately Eric Majors we are conceived with a downward pressure an unwanted feeling past a limit of any feeling of wakefulness fear or hurt not able to stop someone at their own liberty punishing me for no reason and accuse me of misrepresenting my own story targeted and made fun of a conversation with Todd, pretend no one is hacking and think it’s funny how does he know about my family’s heritage or bringing up my genetics as some conversation to expose between my Father and I related to Ukraine make it still unclear what’s prompting disrespect or causing voices, I think if you see my analytics whether I look young or old the issue being targeted is why is my audience my age and primarily young adults and how do voices convince me that John Cockrell is connecting to an audience of young men he argues is shown a side of me insulting my own lightness or handling of not taking myself too seriously be been writing for 12 years, mean it’s okay 2024 to keep making fun of me getting voices express discomfort intolerance and refusal to fight voices become the reason for slowing down on after several posts were written it’s not the term or an okay issue to accuse me of not relating to young men who is perceived to be represented by who is heckling me, is in every way questioning, whether I am pretty, or accepting of the intelligence of men and women with respect to school shootings aware of one school shooting resulting from being rejected by a girl in his class, would make calling me a pervert and accuse me of a sensitivity to a word that means John Cockrell is helping young people calling me pervert, accuse his persistent publishing of photos what prompted me to make a card telling others specifically not to have sex with me not what I wanted and called it rape. It would be rape on both ends not an unnecessary step to prove my diplomacy but a concept by which his allegations and way of making fun of me and calling me trashy things in public, was something I dealt with constructively preventative, therefore please do not blame me for a school shooting in Uvalde for a website taken down by better business bureau records of reports and information and letters later submitted to Texas Investigators, I never said it was ever not okay to call me pervert, I have just said if directed toward me to not expect me to develop a tolerance or accuse me of over interpreting insult that bringing up Detective Chamurro’s name existing in Texas, doesn’t tell me what’s my fault or how life works. The issue is my crisis, how over a year long period efforts were made to try to get help taking down a website and will continue to make clear that process is slow, in addition I’ve always been successful I’m sorry that if upon further threat use of voices or any report has become about interpreting voices as representing a younger population or ignore my preference to not be masturbated to, means to me I’m not modeling for love it’s because u love myself proud of myself worked so hard to appear well, calling doing my photo rape, is also protecting anyone not of legal age to like me to not do me and called masturbation to me rape don’t do me. Therefore 2020-2021-2022 I was working hard keeping things under control I accepted responsibility did not ignore block or put into distress anyone who would make it okay to call me pervert read my emails or accuse me of blaming him for anything it’s my losses I’m responsible for my own life my energy my aura my recovery speed my writing my innocence my employability one of the toughest lessons to learn in life is that so long as I focus on myself and improve it will matter less and less how voices are being used past my limit with wreckless disregard fit my heart condition to prove a point in support of those with tolerance for a word and the continued application as related to my life is insulting toward my sexuality it’s so insulting be refused to move on have sec fir the rest of my life. And it’s not because I’m not loving or can’t accept what two lawsuits mean or mean it’s okay to make fun of my self harm log unappreciative or recording self harm it’s not even worth giving the satisfaction to anyone to justify calling my sexuality unwanted when I stopped having sex 2014, and when I’ve described myself as asexual therefore m not woke connection exchange devalue rumor spreader making sex uncool or unsafe, I represent having experience well enough life to know I was loved. I wouldn’t compare his emails to why any lawsuit was filed I think the more you call me mentally ill toxic delusional the less effort and proper use of court to decide on major losses, without hurting me because women make up the majority of those who would possible use the term pervert to describe being hit on men they are not attracted to its probably a word that make sense to call people who accuse of feeling good off you or make masturbation jokes, I just think being asexual, having had 1 love experience occurring after 4 years of chatting was overcoming something the FBI told me was my fault. Don’t take bad photos. The main issue is that I’m not a pedophile, I’m not a sex addict, I quit sex 2014, to no one’s business who loved me, I’m not a pervert, I’m not an example of a person you know who turns out to be not worth it or a disappointment not cool, or has not been through a lot or like Eric Majors implied is living a life knowing less having done the work never gambling. Or mean it’s okay to accuse me of being privileged to hear a celebrity speaker mean that by calling me pervert repeatedly is about “doing a public service” accuse me of being in control of what everyone thinks, you will never know what people think is wrong with you until you speak directly on topic as to having been a guest at Neverland Ranch, and being notified of a death while I was in law school people who invited me into their homes, gifted me, an experience, I would later deny being good enough for a professional interview, mean it’s not okay to accuse my modeling or career modeling career delayed 4 years as wanting something from anyone. All my life and fitness has been about being strong being helpful prevention my story is not about rejection and masturbation or inappropriate tabulation of my life with respect to politics clearly you don’t appreciate how long it takes to be accepted, and clearly that’s the present experiment how many times does the word pervert need to be addressed before you stop accusing me of losing everything in life wrongfully misdiagnose me fail to comprehend the permanency and damage done by hurting me, all I have to do is live life good enough explain things well enough no one is fighting for me how we manage school shootings does not make reading a Rolling Stones article on White Supremacists mean I’m reading anything inappropriate in a hospital while Trump and Giuliani are being arrested, mean it’s okay to play around with helping me denying me care telling me I’m sick watch me for reactions punish me for putting a lot on my plate and not be forgiving of tired or maxed out, no one intends to push you too hard that doesn’t mean I’m racist if being a guest at Neverland was so insignificant as to how a loss should or should not affect me or mean it’s okay to accuse me of failing to do well in life accuse me of fucking up or distancing myself, go ahead make fun of Star Magazine telling me in law school OJ died and cried in a cubicle, I just have to do my best, maybe that’s the lesson no one tells you how to help others, what cases to study, or is aware of your own trauma analyzing a double parole eligibility, are not ways you accuse me of being big or threatening anyone or mistreat me like I’m cocky or know it all I’ve explained and I’ll explain it again and for the next 10 years be alone for the rest of my life, the more I focus on not allowing myself to be called something the more respect is paid to the victims of those cases not accuse my life as not worth it, or an inappropriate person in attendance at an AA meeting, the best what to respect one another’s lives is to not be forced to live a life as though your missing something make fun of the process of figuring out what needs to be said, to avoid integrating or affecting anyone who I’m sure is fine and no one should be worried about me I’m used to life already working hard lucky to text new to things not working out and being made fun of for what I sound like texting others when I’m giving up. Everyone’s doing their best it’s not all about me, but please don’t accuse me of prosecuting anyone or expect me to photograph video speak in public, sit outside court, share emails, or be confused when I stop trying. Life got better, but like all things in life you work hard for it’s not how I’m choosing to define my story as punching my head or Michael Jackson insensitive accuse my modeling as teaching masturbation I’m courteous of delusion I don’t have sex period secondly it’s not okay to accuse me of being too stupid to be recognized as relative to the Movie: Legally Blonde, expect me to try again in anything in life, why give voices the satisfaction of knocking me or call me weak or can’t ignore voices at work it’s about what is causing me sound stupid obnoxious broadcast a paycheck or consider working unpaid as a campaign a legal joke, I think it’s not until I speak to the Laguna Woods story instead of accusing me of being some unknown law student you put in jail, accusing me of changing, or forcing me to fight in words not a valid effort at preventing voices demonstrate strength and the issue over who I am on the inside not call me offensive or gay or ghetto, because I refuse to punch my head refuse to give up on myself and my Instagram. Dear Judge Nguyen I’m not hated, I’m not teaching sex, FBI told me bad photos are my fault, I complained to CIA once about voices, I don’t need anyone’s help, I know what I look like, I refuse to be called pervert repeatedly then fucking make fun of my respectful disposition accuse me of inferiority or lacking balls able or not able to fight for myself in court, or accuse me of gambling, the issues are clear I’m not allowed to like connect be contacted friend experience any moment of feeling good or pride or the kind of person who should now expect that in times of peace or upon anything going well is also a moment triggering proving myself deserving of what I have and consider isolating me, excluding me, threatening me, blaming me, creating excuses to accuse me of knowing less or withholding. Or accuse me of rescinding care a product of things others do accuse me of being resentful or unoriginal simply means to be alone work alone follow my instincts do my best to live life again and to continue to address any crime or time period I worked really hard in and was well enough to help is not taking for granted my own strength or a person working hard until it’s my fault I think the lesson is using my mental health to blame, not accepting of me doing well and can accept the repetitive nature of needing to be well to help others and POSITIVELY AGREE, that it would be unhelpful to speak of sick or hurtful or not in a place of confidence and making sense in a way I’m not afraid of how things look or asking for leniency I’m sure to help that AUTOMATICALLY requires that I be innocent accurate timeliness a good decision maker a person considerate and compassionate of all people not a person you make a bad example of to make others feel good and I think that’s how you called me ugly or not animated not talented when you kept making fun of who I am compared to all the women privileged to help DA Spitzer, then you went at me on all levels without stopping because you’re accusing me of writing stuff hurtful or accuse me of being in a rush or guilty or accuse me of unhappiness or cheating or not a team player the issue Judge Nguyen about being human is I know I’m a good person why I filter my exposures but I also comprehend the issue of mistaking my sensitivity a human being you break into and fill up with so many problems not of my own making by rejecting my truth “did not view fighting voices as the solution” the one time I discontinued subjecting myself to constant dysfunction I never said discussing other things or article writing isn’t a true and accurate representation of tolerable blog posts, but also not okay with accusing me of running around lost like I’m guilty or not cool small inside or accuse me of body dysmorphia or poor sexuality and mental health that you don’t even care about hacking and voices because you don’t care about what considered rape in the field of technology that application to coding school was delayed which is the solution to improve my appearance focus on what I love doing because my mental health is still unclear who am it who’s in me why m stupid what meds, why chat I talk, when I’m not in the mood, when I’m forced to take photos, nothing that people see and don’t respect you is a power worth losing in life.