The goal for today would be to minimize risk or inciting trauma not allow for a crisis to occur or to accuse anything I go through a crisis it’s clear I was hospitalized 10 times was eventually able to complete a masters degree with straight As a person who does not take their own intelligence for granted or ever anyone who misrepresents mental health or the significance of their own life not know the meaning of life or ever be considered someone who does not recover or ever concerned about working hard or their own reputation someone who’s been through a lot supported continue to make a big deal about not completing treatment with a formal card writing assignment to wish me luck to signify I am someone working hard who is aware of what’s important in life and although losing my job was based on it becoming an emergency to inform my boss considerate of my privacy work from home eligibility does not mean I’m stupid if the Judge does not believe I’m working hard to the best of my ability and in a job is really not about doing my best or accuse me of being told my mental health is more important than a job about who’s writing a letter or how I got upset working so hard to get a job in law. Doesn’t mean punish me for what I sound like having worked hard for something that should signify it’s not easy I’m not rushing the process or have unaddressed problems that sending me away for a month disabling me is not an easy task or attending PHP or IOP, the lesson is not how I should feel, how I self identify, or what my medical records explain or excuse for, it’s unfortunate to work so hard without any problems lose my job in between the time I’m told what the Judges orders are on a very serious note that nothing I did in 5 months sober working full time demonstrates a wellness recognized as having processed losses or life with awareness of what to focus on be something I should I question or have issue with or accuse me of not being well all that I can expect from being observed for 5 months off meds unable to talk took fucking hours hurt my head to write for work lucky I was able to complete assignments in a reasonable amount of time. And that’s okay the Judge doesn’t have to talk to me or be comforted by who I am that I can’t convince others of who I am or what’s wrong with me or think it’s okay to making fun of me sharing paranoid or unaware of a connection I would never try to be someone with a job make a big deal about being called corporate by the most popular girl in class who shares a book with the teacher who was excited to hear my story. Please remind anyone observing I did my best I clearly outlined my purpose online was brave enough to share my story not judging anyone or confuse who I am with a job as someone able with remaining mental health issues requiring a group discussion and conference call to tell me bad head or what the Judge has ordered if not then not now am I ever living life the joke or an uncomfortable truth or show up not famous or a public blog or work ethic a person entitled or faking wellness the biggest lesson I’ve learned in life that maybe you do not approve or understand why I’ve been sued or what court represents or to what extent I would have visible signs of there being something wrong with me that people being kind to me gentle supportive would be the same people I confided in upon relapse offered and accepted back into treatment mean I’m weak or can’t handle life or can’t handle court need to go to the hospital for peace to not be bothered by voices ever a safe place to accuse me if having poor social skills or accuse being taken off meds no big deal or criticize confrontation or how I worked so hard and then observed told I need to focus on something more important than my job. The issue with blogging or being in public unpaid without WordPress stats and audience size that took 7 years of writing to accomplish doesn’t mean I’m anywhere done well have it good or making anything about me one the worst assumptions about court is measuring me out to be someone helped who would blame or be insulted by an overall opinion, this is life you are who you are, publishing a book or being an author is not going to fix my life or the solution for curing remaining issues be clear I’ve never worked changed my cares been a good person or endure a difficulty that makes any blogging experience an unimpressive illustration of how to build a blog not make a big deal about random posts published refining my life accusing me of being sick or mentally ill or having bad ideas or sick experiences in life act like I wrote things or said things exposed to explains Barack Obama or women’s issues or feminity on a level that I should be shocked or hurt by being exposed it’s hurtful upon review because it hurts my feelings it doesn’t matter whether it’s true if not or who saw it what matters is that it hurts me to expose me and create this open forum and opportunity to call me nothing, call me sick, ruin my life, and make fun of my mental health remind yourselves it’s not a worthless effort to get a website down a simple emergency that has anything to do with contacting an investigator, it’s been my experience that any interpretation of voices has yet to solve why when I’m alone not taking to anyone how am I made to feel experience an issue of bullying so bad I would become suicidal and make fun of contacting who was hurting me to work things out to tell him I’ve had enough please stop have anything to do with how I handle life or what any of my phone calls are about, I’m living the same life in the same reality as everyone with the same work ethic am too deserving of having worked hard allowed to have a reaction: hurt that anyone needs to minimize or tells a story my story or my purpose in life as being unhelpful instead of using DA Todd Spitzer’s lawsuit and notification of not pressing charges (not guilty) I never lived life after being hospitalized 10 times able to travel or work have a big head or a person who makes the effort or fails to recognize how Barack Obama should be hurt if Im hurt sometimes the difficult I face has nothing to do with who I am or what I was or if I was loved or living life free of harm and don’t mistake me overreacting to a website as though I’m selfish dishonest or have not worked hard to be able, sometimes life is not about how many times I get put down or hurt I’m not making anyone care I’m not hurting any politician I’ve never not worked hard to prevent voices sharing a perspective spending days writing not an emergency to not allow for voices to just be some random thing that happens expecting me to deal with lesser treatments instead of jail a person who writes who is able to help. Who is punished in public and misrepresented the main lesson is it’s not about how I feel the main lesson is please do not accuse me of hating myself or accuse me as being a person who is frustrated in the end treatment ended it’s not about accusing me of being ungrateful for regaining an ability to work, but it’s not okay if a DA sues me for reasons not disclosed to the public with no one talking to me make fun of what I’m writing or accuse me of not knowing why I’ve been sued. Life isn’t about misunderstanding your mental health or mean it’s okay as disabled to any extreme be punished as a person with disability living a life inconsistent with the norm level of what is considered love mean I’m experimental talking to people without replies with no history of attending therapy sharing my story thus far a campaign popularized by my writing quotes on cards received 90k views I think we are past the point of asking me how would I feel if people interpreted me as alluding to subjects deny the difficulty faced at one moment that helped me to make a decision to write a motion when two parole hearings where being heard before the US Supreme Court have anything about me being inconsiderate of public opinion in law school or working hard talking to someone lucky to share my story to, mean it’s not okay to make fun of my childhood or my face a person who leaves people suffering or a person inconsiderate of what determines whether or not you have been stalked mean I’m mean or accusatory or have a sick mind or comprehension of life and influence accuse me of not studying crime clearly not able to handle why should overhearing this upcoming deadline being reviewed by SCOTUS involving myself with life as a person who has lived life any less of a human or cannot comprehend how big a case a way or can define the significance or why would it ever be okay to accuse me of being a smart strong human being who you call lazy or sick or make fun of lawsuit accuse me of saying something sick or being helped by someone that tried to help me without making me feel bad some imagined challenged you accuse me of boredom or saying anything sick to make fun of what argument I wrote be critical of not representing Manson who I’m not obligated to be concerned about and don’t deserve to make fun of studying someone scary and scaring the shit out of me or another moment recalling a prayer to myself on PCH to be a granule of sand. First of all let’s not make fun of my criticism of Warner Bros a bad insignificant memory irrelevant, it was about a time I was chased and locked myself in my bathroom and hit my little head against the tile a worthwhile thought about life not making anyone look sick but doesn’t mean it’s okay to make fun of what it’s like can handle stuff, expect self harm to continue it’s not fair to make me look scary that that does a justice in the end it’s not me who’s demented vain type casting vain or mean gods punishing me if I’m getting voices, how have hundreds of posts over a 4 year period ever made my experiences a joke. The lesson is if you don’t trust me, dissatisfied with my content or influence, that innocent people need to be informed of why to not read let’s not worry what I think about life and code and what’s keeping others well opposed to people someone who cause solve stuff out of court I don’t portray others as negative I deal with humiliation and all the side effects 2024 is not the time to force me to give up or be tolerant of a word or publication of insult about me losing or calling me delusion it’s safe to assume if no one cares I can’t control that it’s safe to assume who is entitled the live a normal life free of lawsuit complaint or blame let’s make clear I have no team because I’ve been sued I’m doing my best to be on my own work on what can be discussed to limit commotion and focus on what I am do to stay well and prove myself worthy of being known its sometimes not until you focus on yourself do you then become capable of figuring out on a more realistic level what is my purpose, who am I, why am I alive, why is my faith questioned. Why should I be offended of ways I get treated after lawsuit. None of my business. And focus on who I am and why I’m alive and instead of losing in life constantly put down in life mistreated as undeserving, there’s no problem in continuing to comprehend life as not within my control or a power taken from me life is protected by working hard unfortunately jobs, money, modeling, or voices or hate websites is not my excuse is not my life ruined or make it okay to accuse me of hurting anyone. All I have to worry about is my own brain make it to court without letting him scare me death you know it’s none of my business to question what makes you strong or need anyone to tell me how life happened mean it’s never okay to to misidentify a cause or accuse me of poor leadership or fake advice or secret lawsuit you accuse me of being in control of lost support or someone suddenly excluded who used to be worth it that you let anyone’s need to take me down put me in the news and put me in jail and example of accusing me of not empowering others to win or not be blamed in the end I know who I am what I’ve done and what’s wrong with me and writing is the solution to not be mistaken as problematic or some fake solution or unrecognized trauma that you mistake punishment or help as unwanted strength and leadership. Maybe the biggest lesson to learn about living a simple a life or make fun of who I am or what took so long to get a job consider a job lost and accept wherever I am the same amount of peace will be required to be deserving of moving forward in life.