So far it’s been a rocky start to 2025 for me but I haven’t given up just quite yet. Just need to put my positive thinking cap on to get through the month and be accepted to a court program for mental health. Seems like we just fall apart at the seems under pressure, and I’m just one of those emotional creatures running wild saying all sorts of things like I’m drowning and don’t know which way is up or down to the surface. It’s a very disorienting feeling to experience mental health in a way that you become resistant to forms of help steadfast to your own opinions in life you’ve created defending yourself against obstacles you fail to take on the challenge of overcoming, like sobriety or voices. I just know one day I’ll regret it if I let myself get sick and end up in the hospital again and know that no one wants that to happen for me. If only I could find a middle ground or happy medium to continue writing in spite of addressing all my fears and challenges along the way not be a sour puss or sad story in life. So thankful for everyone’s support and readership I’m sorry for being so negative lately and just letting myself lose that can’t help I’m sure that can’t help at all overcoming voices.