One of the most disheartening aspects of being put down in life ridiculed humiliated destroy my reputation affect what others think of me embarrass me ruin my life, then why the dependence on me. Move on. Tell John Cockrell to move on. Tell men ridiculing me to move on. Tell women ridiculing me to move on. The best I can do is be honest. Life is promised guaranteed and sobriety is not the only way to get well or he only way the pathway healing and recovery. I’ve been sober 20 yrs. The solution is to tell John Cockrell to watch porn hire someone pay someone to talk to him and move on and leave me alone. Isn’t that the point of destroying me so no one likes me no one loves me. Then move on fuck other people love other women and please leave me the fuck alone.