These are not destructive conclusions or reflections on life and my innocence or paranoia or disclosures this is about loss and mental health and voices and to determine whether or not it’s okay to call me offensive and use lawsuits to destroy and ruin my life without regard for my mental health or the written documents concerning the purpose for lawsuit. I would consider life any better handled in court by calling 911 under care unhelpful or not sober doing my best handling losses and being too late stuck in treatment grateful to recover tried to work an insincere approach to life that illustrates being ungrateful or removed from life in any way to mischaracterize effort meds if alcohol or accuse mental health of being some easy subject and examination of medical records allow for a public commentary or simplification of my life to memorialize not how I feel but how many times I’m punished given a hard time punished for how my life has been observed and judged as not being aware of my own content writing losses or cannot recognize my career having earned the privilege to be well. Sometimes strength is commended for being in a place of responsibility or liability for individuals who are constantly graded ok how they take care of themselves or what’s considered to be wrong with them looking at them. Living life I never described life insensitively or create formula for needing to be embarrassed shamed about mental health who I am or my losses it becomes more and more clear the less I matter the less I’m sober the less I punch my head my less I call 911 the less I contact others the less I blog the less I allow myself to be blamed or insulted or continue to expect me to live life closely watched scripting everything I say to accuse me of needing help or second chances in life or inability to speak in public or share my story not comfortable to make fun of myself or in a place it’s okay to be treated as guilty or not in a good place. All I can learn from being in a bad place in life report voices with confidence not be misread as insult forecasting or justifying use of alcohol or expectation to deal with stress and court like I’m trained or educated to be threatened or ignored or compared isn’t about me when I get voices as reported who don’t care calling me loser or sick ass pervert these are not mistakes or difficulties endured in public I need alcohol or meds as excuse need to ask for forgiveness or a person who should work hard sober be in court for 2-3 years expected to get paid jobs, be given voices, that cannot be solved or prevented by reporting or fighting or require tech or any team politics or attorney general gang or street or hat to justify in what ways I’ve been mistreated raped bullied used made fun of humiliate me accuse me mental illness ruin my life my health my chances to recover openly punish me not support me make fun of my body call me fat and ugly accuse me of being offensive not caring using voices expect me to fight or force me to write or miss therapy use sobriety or loss to punish me and take jobs away to remind me that my Father has died and I’m too late view wellness as having lack of awareness of what’s important to me. Are all the ways I’ve been supported all the ways I was punished for not being famous accused of causing loss or insensitive loss or excuse for an Eminem song defiant or inappropriately bring up the loss of my Father or cursing. On whatever level things are not cool and my help is not needed and my hard work is not impressive or my detail on court what it’s about online how many ways should I be hurt made fun of accuse 39 years of life as having done something wrong or make it okay to accuse me in my suffering mental illness after one job use voices to accuse me of needing treatment or offended by ending up in the ER. Whatever life is about of blogging I’ve not given up on myself need to keep track of everything you don’t like improperly report voices or be expected to punch my head listen to music repair talk to someone be normal make fun of my experience with mental health. If you have not witnessed me and after a hate website was made saw me curse or intolerant of emails or alcohol whatever was the result of disbelief or destroying me is whatever life I’m expected to live can’t be required to keep writing blogging constantly shamed did my health or not punching my head be given a hard time. However life works either supported or not supported let life let me know however they feel anyone is free to do whatever they want report photograph investigate think whatever they want but don’t expect me to be online writing helping everyone of blame me for breaks. If life is looks at me sizes me up thinks confident scares me. Then tell the security guard don’t photo me with a job in my car attacked by security told to move, it’s not about me it’s how you observe me as a human being what causes you to attack me and move on is none of my business not my issue.