Now’s a good time to start improving my writing to better convey the meaning of words being used, and how offensive terms are being used to misinform the public, spread rumor, and force a wrongful diagnosis of my mental health, not to mention, create a situation in which a Judge would threaten me after living 39 years of life, proud and hardworking, honest, undeserving of being threatened jail or mistreated as someone who you accuse of not appearing well or whos presence you decide to communicate to the public, accuse me of being a contributory element or require me to be seen, to make a decision as to my court case and how the court should proceed, and with negative judgment upon disclosure of court, cause me much unwanted and unecessary threat, not to mention self-harm, dysnfunction, alcoholism, continued threat and condemnation of me, and using the public at your liberty in addition to anyone else’ deciding to use me hurt me, experiment with me, accuse me of any wrongdoing, wrongfully accuse me of mental illness, or expect sobriety or attendance or require me to write or be forced to be fought by anyone or voices, test my luck and freedoms in life, comparing me to others, judging me negatively, try to scare me, punish me, accuse me or my attorney of misinformation, or failure to provide information, means you do not care about 39 years of life, you dont care about 12 years of life in development, you dont care about my resume, you dont care about my family, you dont care about my love, you dont care about education, fitness, weight, appearances, life story, innocence, and no matter how hard you try to criminalize and destroy my peace and threaten jail, so long as you are threatening me, don’t expect me to wait until the next court date, without defending myself in public, and politely making decisions to not blog, or not share, depending on my health. Doesn’t give you the right to accuse me of being wrong or not adhereing to the required amount of treatment required by court, there has been no lapse in care, its my life, my medical history, its not about your opinion on mental health, or world viewpoint that entitles you to accuse me of having any guilt in my human geonome or genetics, means Im not racist, Im not a sick ass pervert, Im not homicidal, I committed suicide August, I rightfully stopped blogging and had to rebuild my blog, stop accusing me of being guilty, or accuse my communications as sick or not loving kind and considerate. I haven’t changed, I dont need to change, I am doing my best, I am not mistaking what court means, to not talk to anyone for the rest of my life and stay home, and have not falsely reported or underestimated the consequences of accusing me of crimes, to justify infecting me with a disease you call voices, try to shorten my life, act like its not a big deal to go to trial, so don’t ridicule who I am and act like I need an attorney or notes or need to prepare, or can delete everything and start over not a threat to your observed assessment of a mental health condition employable and managed, but a manifestation of disbelief, a type of racism projected toward my personality religion body type mental health or way of life and form of love, have not spurred debate causing harassment of me upon sharing a court document, is not for you to observe how I feel when someone is scaring me doesn’t listen, doesn’t stop, doesn’t care about my heart condition, clearly the Judge doesn’t care or know what he is accusing me of, life is not a gamble, you cant just run around watching me, being racist toward my health or blood type, doesn’t make it okay to hurt me in combinations hack or read private emails or medical documentation, or use people to harass me, hurt me, or make fun of me or my report to Texas, is how Im handling school shootings and addressing how offensive it was for me not to mention how offensive it is for anyone to meet a person who is described portrayed and photographed, to make me not matter, without caring if I die, threaten me, make a joke out of requiring me to go to court, after being told about my sensitivity or limit, decided to treat me as stupid in my face in person, accuse me of being an unwanted contact, harassing a private reporting of threat, theaten me, and use messages to provoke discussion as to my innocence love, sanity, or tolerance, physical health or mental health. Im hear to say I get that you are accusing me of being guilty, I understand your rule you keep accusing me of breaking, I understand how many times I have tried to move on in life, and how many times Ive been attacked upon wellness mistreated as guilty, and Im here to say that Im going to start fighting in court defending myself, instead forcing me to “wait” try to haunt me make reference to a hate website that used the word “waiting” doesn’t make me the joke, unloveable, or person you dont take seriously, who you constantly accuse of mental illness, makes me question why should I have an attorney if this is how the Judge treats me, why should I be alive or be accused or mistreated as guilty, how am I expected to live being treated like a peace of shit who you dont take seriously, how many fucking times are you going to treat me as retarded put stuff on public record, interrogate me, threaten me, scare me, is what system of truth in support of who if everyone except me, think again. It’s not safe to blog online if I keep getting voices, it’s not safe to post photos on instagram on an account that gets hacked openly delete followers and is stuck at 14.6 and wont go above that number, is not to anyones knowledge stuff to know about what hurts me and to do, or to question my analytics, how to build a blog or audience or setting a goal to 400k, have anything to do with accusing me of being guilty or saying anything offensive. Whats clear is the Judge is threatening trial and expects me to wait two months, while spreading rumor and trying to scare me or accuse me of needing an attorney, Im going to start using legal analysis words and definition to define issues as to how Im being hurt, and start studying laws in terms of technology.

Dear Judge Nguyen: Stay away from my medical records, stay away from my family, stay away from online accounts, stay away from my websites, stay away from my books, stop accusing me of having mental health issues or an untreated condition, stop mistreating me of being guilty, stop using lawsuit or point of cessation of contact, without regard for my health, change my diagnosis, or threaten jail, ending my life, without caring I committed suicide August after hate website. Im telling you Im not alive for you, if you dont support me, I dont also care about what your thinking, or what your views on life and race and wrongful death, or death in general, and I dont care how hurting me is supposed to support “The People” or voices in general, and force me to live a life treated like shit, who you are fucking mean to over weight and photos, who you fucking compare and degrade me, and use other people to hurt me, and racist toward my fight reactions timing or response to mass shootings, how dare you fucking accuse me of living guilty, how dare you make a simple assessment of life and make light of all my hard work, and insult me to my face, and empower a person to hurt me rub stuff in my face, and keep accusing me of your concerns as to my mental health, if you dont care if Im alive, and if you continue to turn a hate website into a bible or force permanent use of terminology in alignment to my trauma then publish whatever the fuck you want, Im not guilty, I have not hurt anyone, Im not the joke, stop using me, stop abusing my trust or mental health, stop prosecuting me, stop making hate websites and beating me up, stop ridiculing my experience with self harm or suicide, and stop forcing me to tell my story and disallow the publication of a book, isnt going to make things better, isnt going to help code, or a finer understanding of life, wont make anyone respect me, care about me, cannot prevent court, and Im assuming you continue to accuse me and insensitive to change or the use of alcohol, expect me to just allow anyone to put me in jail and threaten me or use an attorney to have conversations about me, or use systems of conversing without me, expect me to care improve, stay sober go to treatment, be made fun of, be accused, isnt love, isnt code, isnt justice, isnt the truth, and what you are doing to me is wrong, and who needs to stop is any attorney judge or person calling me mentally ill. Im not schizophrenic, I need to focus on myself, Im in court, since no one respected my effort to discuss court and build my blog, Im going to discontinue writing to the public, and start submitting documents to court and fight the Judge in court in his building, on paper, and not continue to put me in jeopardy expect me to live life treated as guilty, or take me off meds, force me to live disabled, isnt about me doing anything wrong, meds as directed, isnt my body my face communicating anything sick to anyone else’s body or face, whats sick in your mind, is not caused by my fucking information body face, Im not guilty.