Talking to voices and hurtful words:

I think after two years in court improving I’ve come a long way from taking chances on good terms considerate of my neighborhood not any unwanted toughness a version of me to dislike not empowering others inhuman or untimely for no reason for many years I struggled since last year unstable just going back on meds tried writing not in a place composed no less of a hero or blaming anyone say when voices occurred casting blame or not adjusting I can’t control the basis be myself ….. do my best to help others stay well am allowed to set goals live life running it writing it try work try tech school a person proper demoralized losing after being proud in a job something never happening writing something sending something not necessary embarrassing hiding a bunch of scary experience not doing good work …… I did my best I can’t believe I made the commute had good days working hard got a lot done disappointed in myself for drinking some place proud mean I’m anywhere with problems I think it’s better to be impressed I functioned full time supported someone going through a lot doing her best overcoming a website helped anyone who self harms with a job show up nice or injured isn’t anything I’m hiding trying to change my start date lucky I could work deserve to be well, I’m sad however mental health occurred should not be judged by emails move on isn’t the issue, them end up online able ignore difficulty overtime supported doing my best to overcome and figure out what’s wrong lucky to meet someone new trying to not message someone doing anything wrong. I want my audience or voices to appreciate that I’m in court doing my best have sounded terrible not worth risking court inviting for voices someone not guilty not going to jail who is not offensive picky about looks or by type likes older denying care to anyone my value is by who seeing my mental illness sees me normal doesn’t give me a hard time forgiven equally disappointed for sounding stupid an environment with food and energy bustling community cool job on the phone took photos share my fears which prompted locking the doors about my fears. Maybe six not okay to make up my success rate just say something as though I don’t know what follows my actions or can’t tell anything a person who on their own improves endure difficulties not an easy subject not my fault I’m sure the public doesn’t care and focused on their life sees my blog doesn’t know how hard I work not dealing with hurtful terms having no history of offending anyone not dating not asking for sex not anyone body confident who is not making anyone feel gross not in the mood or be rejected any more perfect or with anything less a bad role model or headline change not comfortable with bringing up mental health normalize it, I never bothered anyone then, I think any voice now should be lucky court is going is going well means I’ve not offended anyone the other side pleased mental health supported, or my job, have anything to do with being tough in dysfunction expected to be fluid or writing quotes make fun of mental disturbance or cards, I’m glad I put in the effort to write is working better than trying to sound tough to stop voices didn’t help only makes me look ugly not smart no one living guilty have not hurt anyone managing a crisis thoughtfully on my end not a text message person prove myself in public ……