I think as a person who supports everyone, and does not judge others and is nice everyone, and has a history of being popular well liked, I always hoped for the same outcome through blogging, but respect not being on Facebook, also to be careful of speaking to the public, but not lose my flair of being myself, like how my energy was on Twitter. I can’t say that being given a hard time, makes things any easier, writing online, I think everyone is capable of getting upset. I never thought that as someone who is doing well and making steady progress in life, would ever deserve to be judged as someone upsetting, or be punished over meds, that much I never thought I deserved. I can see people trying to help, but I don’t want to live disabled, and aloof, and everyone acting like they hurt me or didn’t support me, heard my story, or saw my Instagram, and started picking and choosing who to support, and to not support me, I never thought that as a writer, you could lose support. And I never expected that through writing that I could ever be hurt on a level, that lies would be spread about me, or a website to go missing, to me doesn’t explain the rest of life, no matter who is trying to teach the lesson, that much I don’t deserve in life. If Im going to write online its going to be to be supported, otherwise, its not effective to write online, if Im given a hard time, or lose support to others, where is the team spirit in that, I don’t think it’s fair being a private citizen with no protections who is always working hard, who has nothing, no money, no job, and now no website, I wonder what is this trying to spell, and who is making any decision to punish me. Right now after fires, Im thinking about a crisis in terms, of what is going to help others move past disagreement, arguments, attitude toward me, how am I going to live free of harm, how is hurting me or punishing me, being done to make other people feel better about themselves, and not be portrayed as someone who deserves to be hurt or is asking for it. Even if Im not the example, Im not hurting anyone, and have been working hard my whole life, since before social media and influencer systems, and will continue to be that hardworking person, who shows up and helps others in a time of need. I can focus on the big picture without having to disclose politicians I have either contacted or on a lighter basis, tried to help, it’s been a long time now and I am on my own, and many people have passed away, I don’t think that it’s necessary as someone who is on their own, to be treated as though Im not part of, or not contributing to the whole big picture, I think I am, don’t get me wrong.