Again the Voices are not deserved …. Now is not the time to make fun of life ….

To remind voices no one ever let you down ignore you punished you made you go to 3 law schools take the LSAT 3 times a person who is doing well got good grades not an alcoholic unstable requested more meds not my downfall end up in the hospital shortly after finals week sick for no reason studied didn’t take exams got one grade a A have a job in DC a person who needs reassures not reminded that I’m doing a great a job spark a breakup during finals or any conversation doing my best about him not being sure of me someone who was smart in a relationship not smart, work hard to be loved never the person not loving strong on meds drove and got As felt special dated not ready yet, moved on, instead crying not ready yet, a good leap of faith a stable relationship long term that could work out in spite of all my setbacks no one I left traveling to DC anywhere better or not forgiving lose a chance at marriage sick, not in a place stable unfocused taking chances ….. I didn’t waste my good years taking risks I think it always matters to get well to move on, don’t need painful reminders of being reprimanded and giving up in life didn’t listen end up worse punished is no one’s win my difficult get help call the police talk to them, I applied and got into another law school given an apartment a new boyfriend entered my life until I got a job supported a meaningful support system no one who approached me good looking consider myself pretty or cool enough to date him lifted my spirits, but I promise never on Twitter not book writing quotes creative fun a positive addiction with enthusiasm something to do. Creative no one judge me for. I was never sloppy have expensive clothes or need to buy new clothes the same since college, only later in life gained weight but it was worth losing weight a challenge running and dieting hard work. I always did my best never did drugs out alone taking chances lucky to match. Overstay my welcome. I had computers and a life at home I didnt have a lot of money get sick in public make a big deal about my mental health is no one’s business however that moment has nothing to do with the rest of my life, someone on meds not heavy day meds, go to the hospital Feb 2013, September 2013, a few times I can’t remember. I did do good things in life thoughtful not become an alcoholic get dumped not doing well in life supposed to self harm get in trouble. I’m glad I recovered you learn a lot from punishment to never go out again is not a joke mean anything is wrong with me life ending made friends moved on eventually. I was lucky to get into another school thankfully I waited too long to go back to school or maybe took too many medical leaves whatever the reasons not feeling well anyways a loss I dealt with tried for another degree could not transfer credits.