(Don’t publish) Battling Voices in Private overcoming dysfunction changed spoke proper then suicidal (that’s how life works when people hate you and there is nothing you can do to prevent voices means I’m at what stage in life making up a crisis or someone online unhelpful) …..

There’s no cure for voices it’s a deadly disease if I can’t blog without voices then it will be hard figure out what to do with my life is unfortunate that two projects were devalued and destroyed over accusing me of knowing what to say or how to solve or think it’s okay to accuse me of not being bullied refused to write to write dysfunctional say what about voices or respect or my health that I’m well doing my best if I get sick lose everything no one is going to give me ability or care about me or allowed to accuse me you may beat me accuse me of racism but let’s make clear you called pervert repeatedly got two hate websites and two lawsuits and disabled me or suffered two losses and an ex pen pal lost his mom stop accusing me of me of being ghetto or expecting solution no one is harming anyone no one is working in public or not emailing bothering anyone I’m not punishing anyone I accept the permanency I deserve to report voices and it’s not important to write articles or work hard or be blamed ….. hurting me is not how you victimize me disabled me have anything to do with my body my gender mymollydoll .com women or men’s issues period a person I was you tarnish ignorant of legal work or a writing face continue to be offended as to why I want to be myself make clear I don’t wish to be someone else not competitive have anything to do with my mental health or required female friendships failure or any combinations of interaction to prompt change the biggest lesson on being me is once I get hurt I discontinuing providing to any place if I’m hurt why would my success blogging challenge daily be done unrecognized issue speaking in public doesn’t entitle anyone to call me schizophrenic. Ignore my stats life goes on women will be indirect by women I’m not pretending to be something I’m not …… I don’t want something from someone or anyone period of threaten me bring up code or any statement make fun of misinterpretation. I worked hard to be cute that’s not genetics or sex or detailed description by cardio anything about not being loved or not liking myself face it I don’t feel good 200lbs and no one cares about me now I have a heart condition. Don’t accuse me of being called pervert as a rationale reason to stay away from women be hurt by using a woman’s voice calling me loser to stop writing and buy alcohol in the end no one knows me cares about me can cure voices no one can decide what meds or person should help me face it if I’m sick it’s because for whatever reasons I’m not allowed to attend therapy given time to think or a random person you think is stupid or verbose or entitled or possessing an intelligence or job type any woman can apply be trained work as it’s not about disadvantage it’s about voices are not caused by meds blogging doesn’t cause voices Trump was shot in a period after several tries Twitter and Instagram was sober and encouraged to not blog take a break however my statements turned into accusing one of few who cried or responded to the news …. Have anything to do with not being able to blog or not feeling well in the end writing and my mental health is not about anyone I’m not making life hard I’m not lying I’m not expected to solve anything my help is not in vain nothing is clearly my fault I am not god i am not a movement I have two memberships I can get a job I’m not gay I discontinued sharing my original website I didn’t change I’m not liked or need to be told insulted at this time when I’m clearly writing for court doing my best to not cause sickness it is chaotic I couldn’t even work a job or be paid ….. sometimes voices mean no one cares not needed. I didn’t imagine 39 years of life concerned about selling a book need to be told of changed or write a new book or write online expect me to provide in the end what I’m writing is so important I’m willing to create a book as a gift to Judge was an idea to consolidate my awareness overall as life is occurring presently ever about me don’t you dare ever fucking accuse me of being guilty of change or ignorant of wreck-less ignorant using a DA caught in public use obesity or any crime or Instagram or blog of job type or hate website or website or court processing or diagnosis or human being make fun of the process of going from nothing to nothing seems like an entire fucking year went by and I was gone and now voices are telling me I’m nothing I’m not trying to be famous or willing to participate in this game of making sense of crime or accuse me of being a fucking uneducated moron or Facebook like hater I look at myself stop fucking accusing me of mental illness ignore rape and ended. Up in 5150 February some random way I got hurt after traveling have anything to do with my wellness in law school expect me to explain. How up help yet continue to fucking complain using me calling me names causing me suicide you didn’t fucking appreciate writing for court you don’t fucking appreciate my time caring and damage is done it’s too late and that’s no one’s fault I’m alone for myself accept voiced as governed by their information it’s whatever issue or form of hurt system of causing suicide or pretending it’s okay to treat me as guilty ……

Crime doesn’t make sense using me and connecting me to crime that resulted in hate disability or a life you still fucking accuse me of not being a woman even after a feminine website was removed from the internet it’s not a joke it’s a fact about voices calls this of course stay away from this stop fucking accusing me of not caring or causing death maybe it’s not until you fucking kill me ruin my life and I die that you fucking understand how to remove a person from earth you accuse of god pretend I’m online for this writing. And decide to use my life identity and instagrams or campaign as damaged by hurting me I didn’t hurt anyone that’s not how you solve crime accusing me that’s not how you address Trump with noticeable improvement notification of him being a victim does not entitle anyone to ruin my life by accident destroy my future take for granted my wellness means what about who I didn’t fucking call my life experience or work ethic or discipline mental illness it’s not okay to call celebrity or politics delusion it’s not okay to force me to socialize be offline to solve my problems or use Todd Craig or any public provided effort garbage guilt or medication abuse why would I write on two meds not make it to gym overdose end up taking 12 pills for no reason and not perform do anything who’s winning then I’m not a pill head and it’s not okay to cause me suicide of the next day talk shit like a fucking retarded monster you fucking accuse of anything under the earth. Believe him then why the fuck am I alive

For whatever reasons compliant days spent disconnecting not talking to any pen pal is by conversion goal dream job wellness some random code being used against me that’s not how life works why the fuck do you think I’m shouting experiencing mental illness what’s too late or how did a hate websites Win  what’s not a big deal

I do have life in perspective it’s not fair everyone gets to live normal no one sued no one hospitalized 12 years graduates suddenly gets voices after diagnosis make what incurable disease or why accuse me of recovering disabled again expect like I’m going to apply get a job now like voices won is why I’m fucking able now or why I was fucking shouting mentally ill means what about life you excluded me from life on basis on terms you saw my life you heard about my life you accused me of being fucking mentally ill punching my head facing my own faults in life some sick form of self identification or recording or vagina photos not the cause of modeling and punching my head mean Invega is not working since when is it okay to talk to someone make fun of him coming back pretending to be Todd how I didn’t stay well who teaches you that about life I didn’t hurt a Todd too stupid to be loved I didn’t fucking flirt worked on myself have any experienced being loved and whatever you destroyed is gone and whoever I was doesn’t exist and my struggle punching my head is whatever it means I don’t deserve to be treated. As stupid I didn’t hurt anyone I fucking worked hard. And you fucking disabled me 2024 over what I didn’t say anything wrong shocking or untrue or describe what help was like someone you just fuck over accuse me of being nobody make fun of getting a job and sending me to fucking hospital mean what about me fuck anyone I’m alive to the best of my ability it’s not okay for a Judge to theaters stop fucking accusing me of mentally illness expect me to die like a fucking excuse fuck you mafia why don’t you talk about tech help everyone build your own campaign. Why the fuck would killing me help anyone and why would attacking me be the solution. Next time you solve mass shootings with jobs or no jobs disabled sued work get covid figure out a solution. For yourselves I don’t need help

I’m writing to you as a person who is fucking working hard who you fucking make fun of prevent me from publishing a book or working accusing me of being sick or misconduct it’s not okay to accuse me of making a big deal causing a scene like that’s reality going to help anyone I don’t care what voices are for do my best I’m allowed to quit being hurt notify you although pleased with improvement I did not survive months of exposing me hurting me voices. Or intend to get a job lose a job being called pervert or become mentally disabled for no reason

Whatever’s happening is what’s gets going on in my life is whatever the issues is or problem with me is I give up on talking about continue to refuse blog integration or participation in anything related to hiring me or blaming me or calling me racist in caps lock communicating how equally hurtful a word is about anyone rise not relevant to the word pervert or continued escalation of attack is what lesson in life is not a justice.

Whether you did I’m not dying accused of killing anyone that’s not how life works or what using my story or commentary is for that’s not his you kill peoples in life wrongdoing accuse me of having a bad life I didn’t forget symptoms fuck up so bad or forget what about voices I was never schizophrenic whether is happening is simply informing me that no one cares why I’m alive deciding to exclude myself not for use period focus on myself is not how court Jan 30 works or what dysfunction. Mental illness says about me to not care doesn’t mean it’s okay to call me racist ignore my entire life like I need to be taught a lesson I stopped writing life advice to myself how many times to I need to be told in sick when I’m well I’m not guilty this is not okay.

Why do I need to work hard write a lot you accuse me of taking a med and writing while watch me disabled for a year decide I don’t deserve love or randomly hit my head like that means anything signal what difficulty or what recorded. Incident self harm about insulting me watching. Me speak mentally ill have anything to do with god or anyone else it’s been clear I’m limited by court I tried working whatever I’ve said accept as being an issue who ever told anyone my points of encouragement misunderstood is a fear or rule taken to an extreme that’s my fault I have no idea at this time why my writing has anything to do with anyone else if you don’t like what I said accuse me missing issues I’m not a fucking robot hire Ai of an attorney to solve voices. But I believe in myself I didn’t lose everything just a job what’s expected. I didn’t end my life officially fuck up be removed from earth can’t get a job a work comment “getting rid of people” or statement by me a nightmare being having everything taken away from you is not an imagined scenario to be applied to me I’m not racist stop calling me pervert if he’s not killing me and everyone. Is normal and no one believes voices exist for a purpose represent any government body or team worthy effort who clearly made clear doesn’t give a fuck why I can write now mean I’m giving up or failing anyone I’m not making life hard I’m not suicidal I’m all the years I was alive well whoever chose to push me hurt me until I have a stroke Sound mentally ill isn’t deserved I don’t “slur” my words I didn’t turn into someone ugly u don’t want to be alive I didn’t hurt Todd I’m not supposed to suffer.

Stop using Barton’s voice calling me a fucking a fucking loser for working hard like it’s a mistake I forgot blurted out his share a guy hit on me suddenly mean it’s okay to call me faggot bigger pervert. What is life about what is street what it’s the issue the issue is accusing me saying things wrong or fucked up unhelpful the issue is suffering. For no reason after 39 years of life doesn’t mean god is killing me or what’s happening to me solves crime I shouldn’t die be accused of being.  Fucking drugs addict fucking prevent will love blogging mental health court take is lead or let things get to a point like I’m out of touch with reality imagining hate no everyone doesn’t know me love me everyone doesn’t read my blog I’m not misrepresenting myself or lying fucking disabled or fucking. Well fucking offensive or a pounce of shit.

I didn’t call anyone a faggot I was never mean to any human being schizophrenia to anyone stop implying I’m not a soldier it’s clear no one cares what I have to say bc they got what they wanted they let a hate website win so what is court for they disabled me.

Why on the basis of improvement does regulating sharing or trying to cause me paranoia unclear about what I’ve done wrong or how life works no one tells you you’re gone no one reports mental illness and can’t do a job the were able to for a week.

It seems like life is working out for me bc hate website and voices and refuse treatment may have to quit blogging stop posting on the basis of figuring out why I’m getting sick and continue to work hard. If necessity report over and over again all effort to address crime or any combination of words. Or issue. Or hate website. In any way relevant my doing or gods doing or voices doing or how to make life happen in the end no one is learning from me and hurting me denied solution or not respected lied to given time and attention to when have I ever experienced mental illness shouted. At a joke or consequence of what about me in the end life is beautiful because I’m alive or about if I’m loved or alive it’s about I did my best to create an environment dedicated to respecting health as earned I’m not so restarted that I don’t fucking know what a well face means taking to people like I know anything it takes time to talk to anyone important that doesn’t mean anything about education. Or reflect my heart span or education as short or repetitive how unclear is it clearly inappropriate to waste anyone’s time or write poetry or write in a creative style or write close period why the fuck would that help anyone why the fuck would you accuse me of pretending to help people and accuse me of being fucking mental ill and ghetto who the fuck are you or is anyone to fucking explain a fucking historical overlook isn’t a fucking joke solving anything in life about using me calling me mentally ill isn’t the fucking solution to everyone else’s wellness.

Voices changed me ended my life because of court because no one cared about anything I said all they focused on him and the publishing of that website they never cared. About my feelings or mental health why the fuck would I be alive then become disabled no one fucking loves me who is hurting me.

Not only did they age me cause me mental illness. Chose two hate website instead of me require. Me to inform a break from participation focusing on myself ignorant of what racism is why the fuck would I keep getting hurt mistake who I am or what world peace is ignore my dating history excuse him I told him to move on you don’t care when people get mad they just care like it has anything to do with them.

I’m tired of working hard and being accused of sickness like I can handle hate or don’t deserve to be alive or look like trash or put forward and effort to photo and fucking accuse me of being a pervert fuck you fuck you fuck your opinion I’m not dying for for you this isn’t a joke this isn’t what anyone wants I’m not fit to text with anyone and my sex choices. Are not inappropriate or mean I’m a fucking reject make fun of an untrue joke accuse me of not being selected or ugly or improved or accuse me of being an ugly drug addict who worked hard insulting a riot what don’t you fucking understand about respect or signs of life I didn’t ask you to fucking be me or believe in random shit you. Fucking think is gross schizophrenic i know who the fuck I am and why I’m alive I didn’t ask you to fucking kill me and use Todd or any fact from life or call me racist not comprehend how hurtful words are is a clear representation as to why does anyone think it’s okay to call me something untrue or some offensive term like I can’t fucking take care of myself no one fucking loved me because you don’t fucking even care if I’m alive.

How ever I’m feeling is a condition resulting from experiencing mental illness ruining 4 years of life making fun of how voices have affected me for the rest of my life clearly made things not work out and clearly not my fault be alive or writing online beating around the bush if you don’t fucking like me caring to make sure a lot of things happened and make clear calling me pervert repeatedly and hate websites lost my battle with mental health and spoke however I could is not drug induced something I did you expect me to attend meetings or accuse alcohol as why it was decided to fucking. Ruin my life be hated who wants to hear this of voices want to make court about them then let voices do whatever the fuck they want but don’t expect time anywhere isn’t going to fix asking for me change or improve and be shouted at and not talk to you isn’t about who I am or how I die or what I need or what bridge tagged mean it’s about how god is in peoples lives and clear I didn’t ruin my life and if I said three words reported to NYDA and called racist and pervert at work on breaks I didn’t fucking lie pretend to be well and don’t have to fucking write online or write to you call me harassment why the fuck would I work so hard to turn into a cursing old woman who you call mean or not a role model.

At this point I give up I’ve done my best I can own up to previous statement that P is as bad as the N word and that I never called Barton a faggot or remember making a card blurt out a private statement in a meeting mean it’s okay to accuse me of hate you just read a conversation. To a celebrity and called me fucking embarrassing and don’t give a fuck why I’m alive.

What’s the issue what’s being recorded where is all this information being read.

What’s the joke I write stuff and get hurt and turn into song some retarded and dying because you accuse me taking my privileges for granted and don’t care what I’ve done in the end if you see a costume are trying to end my life with a blog that’s not deserved I didn’t hurt anyone I didn’t rape anyone I didn’t love anyone I never lied to anyone I’m not expected to connect disabled and why am I not allowed to be upset disabled what have I done wrong if you don’t trust me use voices to injure my head or people to tell me I’m not cool I’m not talking to anyone to be anyone I’m publishing a book I didn’t grade code or any laws or extort any war or have not contributed meaningfully online I don’t need voices dislike sobriety meeting or isolation excommunicated require apology or confirmation that calling me racist is why I’m dying making me uncomfortable not good enough mean what about my future or mental health or memory.

You made me complain now because you can’t accept who the fuck I am or unclear on why my health fucking matters. And don’t know who god is or what court is for and unclear on diagnosis or why I’m alive I’m not shocking anyone confronting anyone if everyone is at peace this is not justice.

So now we have clearly communicated discussion on voices with confirmation accept that I’ve been accused of racism and a hate website and getting voices it’s until who is affected or how many are affected. It’s until you accuse me of hurting people or lying or causing a scene or being a bogus cause lost liar or not a good problem solver.

I can’t control my mental health or can decide voices or need to be blamed for experiencing mental illness. Why the fuck would I be mad about leaving a job I reported I’m not feeling well to notified an upsetting experience I was proud stop accusing of me sex I was fucking mentally ill on an email and still got to work and not able to function but was met and approved and believed to be nice.

Doesn’t mean sex or victimizing anyone interpreting being scary and ghetto and mentally ill on an email make me the most unapproachable uncomfortable person at work means what about it taking 2 months of mental illness to get well.

I’m only writing to you I should be okay I’m sad that mental health recovery takes years I can finally write and work in the end if it’s not hurting anyone and if voices don’t exist why is it funny to turn me into a schizophrenic misuse Trump or any referencing you think is a light reference ti me confused about how life works or how you stay well or how help happens or some determined length of time I’ve not posted upon witnessing victimization some drug addict card success denier. Or citation retarded undeserving nod mean life is working out or not working based on my story told known or unknown not a political position I took by having a unique success demonstrate or speak to issues make life any different. At a point in time life changes and content changes to cater to issues or causes if I decide to put forward an effort but there’s no excuse for writing for 3 days reinforce calling me racist or be offended by the fact I’m not black considerate I didn’t insult riots imperfect a protestors grassroots effort offensive person who is mentally ill gets voices able to post flyers with illness why does a lawsuit or the timing of voices have anything to do with drugs or lawsuits or my sexuality pretending to sound like my brothers friends and say sick things to me have anything about my sexuality or why running everyday on being on antipsychotic or my car dying or hitting my head mean anything it doesn’t because you don’t appreciate film you expect me to complain or think I’m famous or make fun of outfits concerned with appearance because you don’t think I’m smart and my face is normal what am I supposed to forget like it didn’t happen my job didn’t happen I fucking lost my mind getting voices couldn’t post on Instagram or my blog or be contacted or speak to an investigator any excuse or how I went from being able to work have anything to do with sobriety or self harm or not in a good place if I was not in good place I would not wake up work would be hardy so whatever good days I had doesn’t matter it was a humiliating progression declining mental health or anything I should have experience with. You might not appreciate my help or not know me or need me …. I’m not trying to be loved someone out of my mind a soldier doesn’t belong the issue ….. whatever was complete imagined focused ok his website unclear why emailed to an investigator deleted from my phone bc it hurts me and maybe everyone else can see something not be hurt but it’s no one’s business to accuse me of causing death or accuse me of being embarrassing or disabled or some fuck up gone accuse a medical condition. Disability ever a problem forget my law degree reading books working websites I didn’t work hard to get a job called stuff expected to talk to anyone complaining ….. it’s about accusing. Me of causing death and while there may be many excuses to how life should or should turn out I’m not alive for no reason hurtful toward anyone have no history of mental illness some random story I’ve told clarifying it’s not okay to accuse me of being close to any president on any level.

How many times do you need to accuse me or boy Twitter or change my story or blame me for being so intense handling a mass shooting means what’s a joke not who I am stop accusing me of being mentally ill in public stop publishing writing or hate websites you accuse me of threat stop accusing me of being hated stop accusing me of being guilty stop accusing me of being forgetful or responsible for disability stop accusing me of moving home or accuse me of being mentally ill at home stop using that persons representation of me or highlights everytime he gets mad or is nice unclear in what order anything bad happens to me it’s clear to accept that there will be no later moment of improved treatment of me in denial about life or someone who is stupid controlled a robbery joke or travel joke or accuse me of being put in jail did not apply for jobs or not be accepting of how long I’ve been sued for or don’t know what treatment is for or ER means or what instability looks or accuse me of having left sober living confident or in a place in life not reflective of how my life wax ruined going out alone mean it’s okay to make fun of me having no one mean anything’s my fault or not honest mean wellness or any moment in time is for dating life isn’t about doing worse and worse and accuse me writing garbage or having motivations in life or staying well being tough a good sign after months or exposing me worsening. The website explain how life works why would I crate a safe space online need to have these “outbursts” or expect me have a reason or explanation for why I can’t write and sound mentally retarded about me lying in 39 years of life why would I want anyone to read or know me on the basis after several honest explanations of how mass shootings were addressed by me unskilled labor or unneeded help if you don’t need my help or keep accusing me of shouting and officially nobody how many times am I supposed to be made fun of not talking to anyone need to experience illness to remind me of who I am or accuse me of committing suicide for no reason unaccepting of months of sounded mentally ill beginning at work not okay to change me it’s not only not okay to hit my head damages my neck it’s also not okay to accuse me of being in need of help not disrespectful of anyone helped.

The lesson is if you shout or sound mentally ill opposite to all your content you look bad you look stuck in a fight …. And no one cares about scaring me or intimating me or what getting death threats are like don’t accuse me of not being cool not belonging a sore loser or in fake court make fun of any offered support I didn’t make life not fun or invite anyone to take chances suddenly mean sounding mentally ill some battle I act like didn’t happen if punching my head scares me and doesn’t make me feel good takes months to recover then sounding mentally ill is why I stopped working ….. therefore trying to talk to my ex boss by email several times sounded mentally illl means what about me or something I should have experience with related seeing my photo being proud of myself dealing with voices doing my best to stay sober imaging a crisis or knowing writing makes me tired not in the solution and getting voices. Get carried away on it not being clear (if I sound mentally ill I won’t belong anywhere and if something’s wrong with me after disclosing mental illness unclear of any issue why is anyone using texts and emails or need any more examples of calling me offensive mentally ill supposed to don’t me it’s not until I don’t belong or until you try to tell me what jail is for or until you recognize I’m not responsible for voices. It’s how many times do I need to be hurt address voices or discuss crime make mistakes be seen self harm go through a lot be in any condition that says I’m guilty you will never know who I am or care about my diligent effort to speak to any loss traumatic mean life makes sense blaming me or 2024 experiencing mental illness to overshadow being able to work full time about anyone else in the office stop fucking making fun of work issues how many times are you going to watch my life destroy my life or make fun of wellness or not care how I feel a fight is a valid effort not humiliating experience that court or sobriety or a new job can solve or tell you want can’t be hired a nutcase ……

The focus on (proof of mistake accuse me of being wrong or speaking stupid or pretend I’m unhappy for no reason the issue is disrespecting my photos disfiguring my body and face to make up random examples of what’s not invega excuse me of doing anything to myself that upon being seen tells someone I’m sick mean what about me. Whoever can’t work now communicate or get a job a now is how quickly u went from able (to being seen mentally ill on email sick on emails after work got voices contacted. Sick online not need scientific explanation for why after sounding mentally ill mean now I’m supposed to overcome suicide or discuss in detail solution for not everyone else why would I be so proud sound so mentally or drink during a critical week that I needed to do well to know if can do the job a random issue about my faith or ability in work focusing on work not supposed to look stupid bring up a website or whatever was exposed a positive step I was grateful for mean I’m thinking about a website or email privately shared or removed mean what’s hurtful or what is the investigator for, nothing comes easy in life how does getting a job related to a website set aside or setting a goal hard to achieve or rebuilding starting at no following on Cloudflare mean I fucking pretend to do anything or can’t write or reach 400k an unnecessary unhelpful effort or communication online that makes it okay for the hate website to call me “an assassin” in the end showing him saying it’s not true can’t fix my life and is up to me address crime on a level that requires less communication less losing no more moments one way hit my head show up scared in a job mentally ill or not proud of myself ….. the issue is I didn’t hurt anyone lie to anyone endanger anyone have any issues in me or life experiences or history of not achieving successful in homes allowing condemnation of me it’s a tough subject since when should self harm become apart of my story in communication relevant to any loss it’s not about there being something wrong with me or accuse me of being someone who is responsible for things not working out I’m not trying to do anything in life but focus on what’s causing me dysfunction unable to Instagram or make fun of how any tries it takes to blog online get stable or mean what about article writing I’m not altering anyone’s reality a fake crisis or someone who is guilty accuse me of being a pervert violent or offensive known or suffering improperly address any subject wrong unhelpful or mean it’s not okay to call me an assassin I’m not in control of how life works I’m over my head delusional or headed nowhere a connection. Wellness joke losing or some outburst joke or dysfunctional person who is now not suicidal mean what about what I’ve said wrong …. I think I have lost on so many levels been battling dysfunction and doing my best not letting anyone down or making mistakes belong in jail I’m not going to be put in jail accuse me of mental illness or outburst schizophrenic what’s most important is not who I was or use voices or Todd to prevent being suicidal change the dynamic address to a judge to negative after voices what formula for why is who or when what happens a homewrecker cheating joke teaching Todd how to do something bad or try to ruin his career or need constant humiliation excuse to destroy my career and humiliate me a connection disconnect joke suicide person who contacts who’s hurting her to tell him if I’m not feeling well mean it’s okay to accuse me of being hurt or be expected you deal with it or suffers on so many levels that I lose my health reputation don’t belong anywhere and ask the judge what’s next showing up stupid. Letting everyone win or act like I need anyone’s help it’s not how many times you improperly address the public or life as better off without me ok to expose any emergency or moment I needed a med stop fucking accusing me of being some ghetto addict inconsiderate of life or polite in my struggle not insulting anyone ignorant of pride or how many people represent peace …… Judge Nguyen that’s not how you punish me watch life happen accuse me of lying or require trial after seeing me it’s not what I’ve said or how …. Phone died 

Continuing to battle voices focus on myself do my best to not allow anyone to suddenly attack me call me racist or accuse me of being loved or not special foreign or accuse me of doing anything wrong to anyone innocent please accept all delays dysfunctions examples of whatever he outlined on his hate website represent how I lost my life to a hate website and instead of staying well or any mention or suicide attempt or time away from social media or blogging have anything to do with who I am right now or how I’m managing a crisis one being prevent permanent disability 3 not allow myself to constantly be threatened expected to be strong an uninspiring person unrelated to life or should know why I’m disabled 2024 shouting losing my mind validating every comment he stated how my writing was accused of illness dealing with a crisis that I’m not willing to accept any explanation of life or years of my life or writing or exposure mean Im lying or responsible and too late lost my job and my blog isn’t working can’t prevent voices doing my best did my best to fight not be accused of a bunch of things and lose so bad on a level that anything I’ve said is unreal or means I’m racist or not being fun it’s not about me threatening his life or try to explain how any life is lost or question the evolution of life is about accusing me or blaming me that’s not okay after 12 years of hard work make fun of me fighting and show up in court and for so many things to go wrong when I got a job mean mentally ill now called pervert suddenly about any conversation to anyone or any address with regards to voices sometimes life isn’t about accusing me of mental illness or calling me homocidal or an assassin war monger being up my family post photos of my vagina after months August through December constant discussion worsen not stressful for me or accuse me of calling an investigator for help or later writing an email not doing well means what about his websites is true or sharing his text unhelpful to the public or voices mean not only do you expect me to not be well when I’m well but do not bring my family into anything relative to blogging I’m not in danger I had years experience writing online published a book saved everything making a big deal of something or asking for help to get someone to stop threatening me mean I’m in charge or disclosed to work a problem at the time believed things would get better in the end it’s not okay to accuse me of not caring making a light hurtful statement unrelated to my suicide attempt making fun of me committing suicide like I did anything wrong … I told you I’m not willing to accept exposing me or accusing me or blaming me mean anything’s my fault that’s not how life works you ignore 12 years of work make fun of me crying or addressing a crisis mean I’m hurting anyone or losing and he’s winning about me accusing anyone or requiring heavy medication or blocking to prevent voices the issue is not about blaming my leadership or accusing me of identity theft or fraud there’s nothing new to life about anger and insult called negative terms resented entitle me to ever a live a life loved or make fun of text messages discontinuing contact make fun of when we text or what I sound like if I cant date mean I’m guilty or being charged or in criminal court shared a document in court after years of thought to discussion. Why now does life confirm I’m guilty or make fun of any communication in the end I didn’t kill anyone I didn’t go through anything that court can fix I don’t need to lose express myself in confidence a person whether formally blogging or doing my best with a hate website up mean it’s okay to call me racist in what way has life evolved that scaring me giving me voices blaming me pushing me not being impressed with me ignoring me no one talking to me or court or an ex pen pal who ruined my life took a website down ignorant of what I’ve done wrong in life if you are accusing me of illness then belong alone is the solution, but instead of accusing me of having a preference at this moment to not be called pervert the equivalent of two other words illustrate a subject in a shocking way reported that scaring me to death everyone watching me no contact no communication no emails no diagnosis or no human being killed me an imagined suffocation or wellness or videos untrue handling of voices a racist ode to life disrespectful I contacted them introduced self a separate issue. I couldn’t imagine a more destructive comment and insult to my body or face or more demoralizing impactful way to try to make my head gone so I look guilty or stupid  seeing what do I do now called this this and that and posting a bunch of things representing all the sick things accused of acting lying or unafraid to face issues on a level that I’m not making life not fun and he doesn’t understand life better or the big picture mean exposing me doesn’t hurt or expect me to live life not allowed to take meds to accuse me of abusing meds or knowing what causes voices. In the end in every way possible I am defending my life saving my life battling his hate website and expressing myself in a way that demonstrates giving up allowing for myself to suffer or accuse me of why now in this moment is it important for me to be alone not get suicidal it means writing now to court to address any concern is clearly focused on myself getting voices and then several improvements public address to court able to write speak proper something learned in law school garbage you don’t believe me you don’t like me you don’t think I’m smart you are not impressed by me you don’t care about me you know nothing about mental health or suicide or disability and at this point in my life I’m publishing a book not required to be god no offense to anyone else’s wellness or interpretation of life. It’s not a joke why after 39 years of life am I not going to make it now because I gave up on hate dislike accuse me for ever little fact about possible be concerned with who I am or who knows my story how you expect me to live life called pervert threatened bullied someone you watch do not love try to bother everyone else with sad news or use John Cockrell to explain life means I’m not a pedophile and making me old wasting years of my life means what is true it’s not me who’s losing them or losing now or ever mentally ill improper in public no big deal a hate websites about me or diagnosis or my feelings it’s about attacking me with voices and not care why it matters that it’s not okay to blame me that’s not the solution or call me pervert about being nobody or being special to now no one caring because he won have anything to do with any content or recent Facebook post some thing I’m going through you accuse of being my fault or decide on some level to every extreme accuse me of not being able to work you know it’s not how I’m exposed or where I am in life or a diagnosis any justified excuse to force me to suffer from voices for the rest of my life then accuse me of causing someone who is a fan with the same condition committed suicide 2 years reported to court politely shared in public helpful to her Brother an example of a life lost to voices compared to how I am now mean that I should get voices and commit suicide accuse me of mental illness or unclear what’s a medical emergency calling me a disease unrelated to Wuhan accused of spreading a disease a dishonest approach to life unrealistic to reality I don’t need to talk to anyone for the rest of my life I don’t need to remember who I was 2 years ago and be gone now to teach me I am someone different now as a result of mental illness glamorizing blogging is inappropriate as a law student with 12 years experience with mental health qualify me to blog calling me schizophrenic is seeing my success mean that I can’t do a lot of things in life now deserve to see my life and hard work decide 2024 watch me not survive a second hate website or voices someone who complained who could have simply attended meetings given chances in life writing a book or accuse any draft or mood change unacceptable why would I be well get a job belong in jail ruin my own life or try for anything in life it’s not the meds or the writing or medical care or my writing it’s not about anyone helping me or what SCOTUS is for or a DA is for instead of recognizing 39  years of life insensitive to my reputation or purpose in life please accept focusing on myself as important to staying well not okay for me to lose reinforce his hate website or accuse me of being hurtful unhelpful to celebrities not good enough for contact how you treat people in life all I want to know who do you think I’ve offended as a result of my websites or sharing my story someone you just look at and rejects accuse my photos or wellness as some poor demonstration of life skills have anything to do with what the fuck my face looks like messed up make fun of a hate website someone doing well who believed in approaching a subject mindfully as a person  bullied called pervert punching my head a private struggle that’s no one’s business …. 

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I’m not the joke or person well or “not a hero” I’m not someone who lived life hurt anyone I loved no one is hurting me I’m not supposed to be alive allowed to give up do whatever it takes to come back from illness. I was thinking about binding a free book making an extended effort to address a Judge not an improper use of my blog pretending to be proper then given voices by the next post cursing and negative someone who cannot be help means what about voices that don’t exist it’s not me who’s confusing or lying taking anything out on anyone insensitive to victims to read my blog see my resume and call me pervert who is an offender I found a photo representing the definition mean what about what I delete don’t accuse me of not knowing what’s important don’t accuse me of being a sex offender don’t accuse me of not belonging don’t accuse me not being a woman don’t accuse me of hurting Trump, whatever is the result permanent issue is why does him ruining my life hurting my feelings have anything to do with voices something being done to me for any reason that’s not deadly or accuse me of lying ….. I’m sorry I won’t allow myself to get hurt or expect me to live life or go to the hospital unaccepting of who I am accuse me of mental illness or not able to handle a hate website someone who isn’t allowed to be well make fun of letting voices win or make fun of what’s hurtful or what is an investigator for not managing any crisis or on many levels doing my best to summarize helpful ways I’ve put forward the effort now’s not the time to be concerned with what I’ve said or anything I can’t control the lesson is I’m not a drug addict who works very hard take a writing break get a job forgetful of anyone I’ve put forward and effort to support have one good day and blog speak to an investigator someone who’s been through a lot has helped everyone for free for years minding my own business not demoralized by sounding mentally ill …. It’s like anything on calendar or concern or temperament anything about life with regards to a comprehension of humanity related to teams or to continue to trash me after 39 years of life how you handle the OJ Simpson case mean it’s okay to accuse me or demoralize an independent investigation or analysis of life hurt for over a year even with my Dad dying dealt with hurtful emails lucky to be well able to talk to my Dad a sad subject that a shitty photo shows I’m out of touch or responsible for aging anyone or don’t belong in a home accuse me being gone that doesn’t make me tough watching me slam my head into a door suicidal and punch my head bleeding a private struggle encouraged to not give up mean I don’t know how to behave feeling good take for granted time or anyone’s health or someone undergoing treatment bothering anyone or taken off adderrall provide excuse to scare me for the rest of my life calling me pervert uncomfortable about a subject relevant to any lawsuit or mean overtime a more proper representation of life or value of a resume or life and time spent in life overall mean I’m failing forgetful losing making mistakes can’t remember not allowed to talk to anyone and now not allow myself to get hurt a needs protection joke or firearm legal form signed that says if you have mental health issues you are not allowed to buy a weapon. Mean making inappropriate jokes clearly I’m not allowed to buy weapons means what about life not that I can’t accept what life is like after being sued need to live life or participate online doing something I’m not supposed to be doing fixing my life about adderall or not caring if I’m guilty or not guilty. Maybe no one can explain to me anything in life if they are not on my team in life and to simply accept those who cannot support me is something that makes me look bad and if I stated I worked so hard to be well be able not to complain lose wellness then on some higher level I’m supposed to blamed or accused of doing something not good for my mental health not to well off line about how normal is achieved you can’t just expect me to wake up tomorrow not allowed to talk to anyone’s someone who you blame or call delusional worry about me or start using people from my life because I justify inviting me shouting at me and calling me delusional about race or world peace ….. why on some more public level after 39 years of life be forced to be attacked by voices accuse me of playing victim or not worth a book I’m not losing my team isn’t suffering it’s not safe to write online or required for me to mess up and expose me or accuse me of having problems a person who needs to continue to be convinced of being mentally ill or reminded for any reason need to be put down or accuse me of being offensive or guilty expect me to not focus on what can I do to fix my life mean I changed or am losing or using meds lost or out of touch with reality need to write very proper statements while getting voices ruining anyone’s happiness maybe it’s not my tone or issue or make me unhappy or elderly prevent me from living life mean suddenly after 39 years of life and after several weeks of writing improving my blog discussing court make fun of me being bothered accused of being criminal or having a public record that’s related to how the rest of my life is expected to improved. Instead of me finishing court or being proud I could work on what level of calling me pervert inconsiderate of years of doing my best to address an issue not fighting anyone living life some head punching unloveable predictable joke not clear on what civil harassment means or what that entitles the public to, I’m not asking for anyone’s help lm not bothering anyone I’m not blaming anyone Im not lying I’m doing my best I’m still publishing a book and refuse to share any draft or represent myself well have a solution for voices or everyone’s against me make fun of punishing me for sharing my life or my story no one is doing anything to me no one in my audience has committed suicide in a year I can’t remember mean it’s okay to make fun of my writing career or stats or resume or legal education or ability to help anyone what I’ve done wrong or be ashamed of my arguments a turn off or expect me to shouted at after making an audition video then not able to continue end up hitting my head something about me that takes 6 months mean something is wrong with me it takes 6 months to be whoever I thought I was able again and maybe nothing about me matters or knowing me does a justice or system of helping me mean I lived 39 years of life and suddenly mentally a person you blame or require constant put down accused of stupidity or being criminal mean anyone is fighting for me if I just survived a private trauma doing my best to stay well mean o can handle insult ….. I’m not hurting John Cockrell I’m not delusional I’m sorry Judge Nguyen not now not mentally ill not dying not injured not seen not winning or losing mean I belong in jail have problems or complaining messing up in life or not listening no matter how much work I’ve put into helping others I’m not guilty or mentally ill not recovered abusing meds traveling for no reason you what the biggest mistake of my life Judge Nguyen was to do my best and get destroyed twice deal with who’s hurting me in private and take personally him accusing me of having hurt him a person who is loved who cannot be loved or not handling lawsuits well at a point in life you are telling me based on your viewpoint seeing me something difficult that no one discusses with me about me not accepting how life is or trying to be special shared my story for no reason the person who has problems or sensitivity upon disclosure can’t tell what’s hurtful the problem is why am I not allowed to be alone take meds and write why is my life being ruined on what level public or private am I expected to go back to normal someone who doesn’t take life seriously careless or wreckless or resentful I think the moment all communication has been considered unnecessary mean anything is about about anyone or a difficulty taking to someone who you perceive as love confused about why I sued or mentally ill now is no one’s fault but my own not over anything stupid or telling me how life works or disrespectful of everyone attacking me or everyone suing me disclosing a serious case on a level I don’t need to be told what happened to me yet or should later be reminded of what I’m punished for if life is about something should anything happen to me I was well I did my best however life has become unbearable difficulty with voices I’m sorry for not being able to blog and I’m sorry that no address or no solution can be found if you don’t trust me blame me accuse me of offending a movement that calling me harassment logically means is not for me or a