I had a chance to revise the last version of my book, and deleted up until the last edits, my research paper on voices, will not be published in a book, due to things getting worse not better, having stated exactly what Ive heard, and if its not helping me, I don’t need to be used to discuss things if that’s is how I am going to be hurt. I am a writer, I think it was wrong to expose me as something lesser, and no I don’t need to be made fun of, or need to be alive if that is something I am going to be called, or require me to explain for what I sound like fighting. The fact I cant even be honest or need emergency medical care, and be given a hard time, makes me really wonder what voices are about.