For example, had I not carried myself well online, I would not be able to get a job, whether or not anyone knows who I am, no matter how simplified a story got, I think getting a job, shows that we are in more similar places in life, than we are different. Just as I take on a leadership position online, not unlike my schooling to be selected, the same goes for any name mentioned, am I someone who measures up, with respect to anothers status in life, to not disappoint, and also to inspire. When you think of people to inspire, and when you reflect on womens issues, once we get past sexuality, and what everything means in life, at the base there is respect not discomfort and everyone nice to eachother, I don’t think issues happen, until there is a fight, and either you have to face issues with you, or be someone with compassion to not have issues with others, the best way to live life, would be to not be offended or threated by others, consider everyone is doing their best, you should have more important things to be working on, not suckered into being used as an example trying to illustrate any kind of disappointment overall. I’m sorry my Instagrams were not valued, and noted for my attendance at the Women’s March, sometimes it’s not until you are quote unquote famous for something in life, that other people come to know you with ease, and recognize for you to be apart of larger solution as a whole, working against, women from being harmed, which I don’t think that a lawsuit really credits me for the person that I am, quiet, not domineering, not controlling, not bossy, not condescending, not intimidating, protective, not obnoxious, lucky to take photos, and documents an experience in life, just as I am doing right now, which should be of value to whoever is reading what Im working on, in the US, and outside the US, and especially in CA, where I reside. To me I have had public episodes of stupidity on meds, bad things happening to me, or being robbed, and frauded, or made fun of for who I believed I was sending money to, that’s a negative subject that’s how Leonardo DiCaprio is affected by criminals pretending to work for him, taking money form me, to make me look like I have a purpose to meet with someone who is a celebrity not at a networking period in life, with a finished product or a Ted Talk to share and inspire others of. It’s still unclear the importance of inspiration. For a period in time, I used to message, which later became about my privacy interests and protecting celebrities from harm, just like putting me down in life, would be hurtful to them, or how fighting me calling me mentally ill, to everyone who supports me, would leave a bad taste in people’s mouths if I became a lesser person not supported. I think the beauty of disclosing having been a long time fan, since college 2006 hand drew Leonardo Dicaprio on the cover of Esquire Magazine, I used to collect Magazines and had a huge stack, I used to also collect newspapers, always one to be inspired by beauty, not one less among, even if I can’t keep track of what Im being made fun of, having set more and more things to public, including book drafts.

If it’s the little things, those are non believers, people who may have it better than you, or thought represented by voices, requiring me to say things to cure or figure out an attitude toward me, have that conversation out loud, to reinforce what I should sound like writing, and someone reading who either does not support me, or thinks they know better, or is unclear my social status or what there is to be proud of in my life, keeping me afloat. If its not about you its not about you, everyone is doing their own thing in life, the less you take things personal, the more you get to keep your cool, and they get to keep their cool, and you also don’t have to be that’s person, stuck talking about life, as though you got things wrong, or were bothered by anyone. For the sake of getting things done, and writing, and being treated as separate, maybe it not until I am completely on my own, that we can figure out what is dictating my direction in life, whats been read, whats private, whats public, whats a limiting respect factor, whats the current status of how my writing appears, what is not taken seriously, what about me is prompting for insult, and respectfully what have I pointed out that is being used against me to hurt me in life, with everyone in memory at this point in life. I don’t think it’s fair to use California Wildfires, to make jokes about what everyone thinks, or assume there is some system that is broken, or accuse me of breaking anything, I think what Ive said in private is reflecting on how I was hurt terribly, as someone who was helping everyone, and in front of everyone humiliated and punished by diagnosis and self-harm, and that’s something I went though, and probably going through again since it happened again. So don’t be dismayed by my 4^th step, or politicians I used to be inspired by and forget I got a Masters in Law graduated, lost 30-50 lbs twice, and lived alone, made a good life for myself and dated nice men, I think whatever is being done to take away or throw shade at me, with all respects Im not racist, and I am very much entitled as a person who has openly shared their 4^th step and life, and grew up close to a very famous story, to not be written off as undeserving of being credited for everything that I have accomplished in spite, of not being famous, and not being paid, still have a great work ethic. So yes it would be hard to love anyone if I was not loved, and maybe that’s the meaning that went missing, once it became about supporting everyone but not supporting me or my choices in life, and chances in life, or timing, I think Ive done my best to not interrupt anyone elses timing in life.

I just found out that Leonardo Dicaprio has a home in California, that was destroyed by the Wildfire, found out watching an Instagram video I later saved. So although that may be the one thing about my Instagram not believable, I still have to live up to a standard in life, where I am not sued, for the information that I have or for the life that I have lived, everyone has different lives, and perspectives, it would not be helpful to Leonardo DiCaprio, with regards to losses in general, to disregard my care and compassion and sobriety, to judge me as someone who doesn’t think about life in a way that everyone can relate, to not accuse me of presenting a version of reality that doesn’t work out, or gets called destructive, is beyond my comprehension, of how everything should be in terms of me.

So don’t be insulted by the goal, or the person I love, Im in a much different place now, having lived life, and punished in public, that does not recognize my love or life to be of value, and has done more harm than good, to not try to make a cool subject, about putting me down in life, and not respecting my mental health on meds, and to keep calling it something else in life. What I don’t have to remember, is ever not doing my best, and needing to not have to explain or provide excuses for why when bullied what caused me to sound mentally ill, and bring up issues accuse me of being in the wrong, and to me that was unfair, and nothing that I should be punished for my fight or what I have said in defense to being called negative terms which I don’t deserve to be called, no matter how many times I get mistreated by diagnosis or tech, if its not about everyone, its not about me to make things about everyone is the lesson, is just accepting things as they are, knowing my place.

To me my happy ending was having a successful blog, publishing books and maybe working, but if there is this constant mistreatment by voices, to accuse me analytics of not being real, I will continue to have to not talk to anyone, and not show up to court, if there continues to be a problem, with how I am treated in tech, none of my stats are robots, they are real IP addresses, and I studied and built my websites myself, and not connecting and stalling, delays, and getting less done, is not the lesson with having anyone on board as excuse for bother or interruption, or determine my work quality, or accuse there of being a chance for mishap, upon interpreting me as bullied, which has been nothing that would ever generate a world wide audience if not me marketing the US, as a Country that gets it, specific to how Ive been harmed and apologetic, is not me being hurt to accuse Leonardo Dicaprio of being hurt trying to accuse me of being a bad person or less than, and its about why take me off meds, and force me to live life doing nothing, how does that make things better, to take me from leadership or caretaking positions in life, denominate me as a woman, what is the purpose for insult, to watch me grow as a writer online, or seek to condemn me for any reason, is an example of what enables me to able to support others, and others being represented by me, including voices, are also not people who are being harmed by me, or sickened by me for any reason.

So my happy ending is not a Shorty Award, I think we are well past, applying for awards or create summaries, and now am not someone who instead is focusing on what is being said about me, and why would I be accused of being scary or not caring, make fun of my limits, call me ghetto, or suddenly be scared by my disposition of not knowing what voices want or expect from me, in public, is not me cutting loose, or showing pictures of weapons, unrealistic to my temperament, or legal standing in life, stuff I stay away from. I think if it was ever a subject until something bad happens, I did do my best in writing, as my mental state was aggravated, not able to write, or book write, or be in a place of reflection, and that was clear. I think the basis for giving me a hard time, removing people from my team in life, and treating me as a lessor, when it comes to losses, is giving me a hard time for sharing a story, and instead of valuing my relationship to a song created, it instead was used against me, to create for a like circumstance of not able to please voices, writing and given negative encouragement, use of voices, to try to cause me to hit my head, or give up, make fun of my temperament, and you know I cant solve that issue, and don’t need to submit a report to the CIA, am one to determine whats funny about voices, or being on my own, or what should I be paranoid by you accuse me of living life like someone else is telling my story, or pointing out issues, to all but not to me, again is not going to explain any causes for fires.

I think I was clear on not being a person fought for, Ive been clear on my limits in writing, I don’t think Ive been insulting to men or women, I don’t think I was respected for not matching and it being rare to match, I don’t think I was given a chance to be respected for how far I have come, judged me as judgmental, or mistreated as someone who is not helping everyone, with websites, and after studying life coaching. I don’t think fire victims, need to be convinced, of something easy and true existing to accuse me of being delusional, or deny some logical explanation for occurrence, which is not the government, and also not writing in reflection of others, having no victims, to not accuse me of being fake, or given voices, on the basis or publicly trying to convince others Im being punished. I deserve my sense of peace too, and don’t need to turn into a funeral, when the basis for disrespect are comments to make me look bad, or judge me just saying things about anyone else. If I got hurt, and if Im nice to everyone, that would be a mistake, but that should not explain why California got hurt.

If I am a campaign and have a feminine pen name and photos, I am not someone who has issues disempowering anyones innocence living life as smarter than or an unsafe person to be in public or be around others. It’s not the issue that Ive missed, or the website that’s been stolen, what’s more important is who I am right now, and figure out why after being hurt should my writing change to not be supported and accuse me of having changed, or losing support. I didn’t imagine being hurt, I was hurt, and that is a big deal, because it causes for more voices, and that was my explanation, I never failed to do the research, or use the word “scientific” having written my own descriptions, contributing positively to the subject, not someone who turns into something they’re said scripted or controlled by something that someone else has read influenced.

I think it would be wrong to judge me as product of others, or not having a voice of my own, and for those reasons maybe its best to be on my own, and work through issues, accept being humiliated and for what my fight sounded like, and not make a big deal of what “mental illness” should look and sound like or who it should be appeasing, or worry too much about what court is about, or accuse me of needing help for court, and not knowing who I am or what Ive done wrong.

I think if you don’t want my love or my story, I don’t have to move on, I don’t have to talk to anyone, and I can be on my own, and focus on my writing, until things are settled, especially in terms of fires. I don’t think its deserved for any reason, to accuse me of failing, forget I worked full time, or accuse me of being sick, I think I shared my truth, whatever is the issue isn’t something that I need to keep up with what I said that’s contested or not believed, and do my best moving forward to not be used as a source of blame, and to not make of issue voices, or the word delusion, accuse me of having problems in public, or talking $hit about anyone. Of all people I did not mess up what there was to be accepting of everyone, proud of everyone, and not someone living unhappy or not sober, making things up, or not being equally supportive of President Trump being in town. Don’t feel bad for everyone Ive never met in life, placing me beneathe others, and don’t be confused about what everyone is bonded by or what a shared opinion is for in life, to not include me, equal a funeral, would be to accuse me of being offended by others supporting eachother, and having no one.

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