Since being hospitalized, Ive done my best to support, and empower, not be blamed, not blame others, speak proper, and be a positive influence on mental health and figuring out life, finding love and jobs and being accepted for who you are, even if I was not loved, or accepted being myself. Right now I need to focus on my health, if I get sick because of voices, after the hospital, that’s a new problem, and as a separate issue have court, and you cannot please everyone, not everyone will be happy with you, not everyone will know you, or value you, and a lot of big issues are not worth getting confused over influences in life, or who matters, everyone matters at this point, even a voice, or my audience, so respect the phases of my crisis or emergency, my personal battle with voices, not make public, and do my best to move on and apply for jobs again, if writing online is not helping me, or doing me a disservice in life, I don’t have to write online or talk to anyone, if Im going to be given a hard time, over meds or diagnosis, that’s not the solution, to keep taking from me, putting me down, and then expect me to just me normal go off meds, as though I wont remember the things I have said, or how I have felt, or question whats of issue, opening up,. The problem is not in the data or what is public information, the conflict lies in who I am differs from what voices are saying and a hate webiste, that is now affecting my health, and wound up in the ICU for no reason. So that’s th reality of bullying or voices schizophrenia, no matter how good of a job you do trying to help everyone, be a good person, be loving, move on, and show up to court, its not always about my happiness, and wish that I would not be treated as some person who is supposed to show up or do things or be places or be with anyone to be normal that’s not fair to me and my sense of peace on my own. I don’t think it’s the solution, at this time to be concerned with me, as I am doing my besta nd not guity it hurts someone was fighting me and making fun of me and maybe that’s a life you will nevr understand or come to aprpeciate who I am as a person, or whats positive about my life keeping me well.