So far blogging Im doing well, got two public likes and my stats went up, but not all is fair in love and war, and by the standards for voices, still occurring on occasion, no matter how well Im doing or what things are about. That constant feeling of not being good enough, and the over publication and exposing of things to cause me discomfort, there really is no solution for what doesn’t come out right, but acceptance, and no later phase of wellness incapable of disturbance by voices, that is anyones fault, and maybe those are unknown aspects of life and health to just sit with. I can’t say that things are any easier for me than most, going through my own difficulties, with my physical health, and life challenges, when to rest and move forward, and the opportunities are limitless for those who stay positive and stay healthy. I always viewed things working out for you, and described being a role model, with confidence certain that when I am well, that translates for good things to come for whoever is reading. That self doubt created by voices, will always be a circumstance that I will have to deal with that separates me, isolates me, ruins relationships, and causes me mental disturbance and however that translates in conversation private or public, there is nothing that I can do about it now but improve. Please don’t get me wrong, based on my timeline and whats been shared publicly I never said that the solution was taking a break, or claimed to have a solution for voices, or never made the effort. Maybe voices is something that others will always take personally, along with a good mood or improvement, I see opposition as losing by voices and inability to express myself in words, my upsets, or mental difficulties, not representing myself well in conversation or in public, and see a break from the public eye, and giving myself time to recover mentally from illness, or frustration, self harm, or addiction, or rumor as taking time requiring me to achieve a sense of peace that is required for communication public or private. I can’t say that in sharing my mental health, this has improved voices, or time of medication as solving or curing voices, or circumstances used to justify voices, all I ask is for the same respect to be paid to my health, as toward the health of everyone else, to not take personally conversation, or connection, output or input, interest, job, money, status, or health, as a privilege that is not equally shared a divested interest public for all the see clearly and make wise decisions for themselves. In all my upsets and stages of mental illness, I never believed that voices or meds would ever become an issue for me, or this constant interruption of voices, to play out in life, or always be something that is my fault, or a secret about me shared, to justify voices. I think reflecting on my life, and protecting myself from harm, I have been clear on the hurtfulness of a website, as being untrue, and I have described the painfulness and harm resulting in voices, that are not my fault, or the fault of medication, nor the use of crime, fire, reality, loss or purpose of being in court, as insufficient to determine the happiness of the people is not resting in the wrong hands, or a privilege of story or communication private that is not the entitlement of the public at this time, so to please respect all conversations and privacy interests keep in mind I am still doing my best, I still get voices from time to time, it is still a problem what was done to me, and these are issues whether real based on reality untrue spread known by all, seen, or unseen, there is no solution for disfavoring me and trusting someone or making up excuses to defend someone who has hurt me, and to not respect my privacy or the privacy of those who Im in communication with. To me voices fail to see the solution in what is said, constantly using what is said against me, constantly dissatisfied, and constantly going against me in life, therefore its not for anyone to use my hospitalization for blaming me, or blaming anyone, it’s no ones business what I went through privately or in public, no personal emergency or story is required of me to have a solid demonstration of in public, or some undetermined length, for acceptances of me which voices are telling me that the public does not accept me, and discussion public about voices, is to confuse my audience made to believe voices or a hate website. And I really don’t have a solution for anyone going against me in life, its your health, I cant fix someones mental health, grievance, issue, unhappiness, dissatisfaction, confusion, or issue that’s for everyone to fix themselves, I don’t think that taking time away from blogging isn’t unhelpful. Its given me time to write well again, for approvals, please don’t misunderstand my privacy or time in treatment, as having anything to do with voices or the public. As far as Im concerned the people can believe whatever they want to believe, my privacy is not for favoring, or speaking inappropriate or a place for judgment, mistake, or being worked against in life, and to me that’s a consequence of being hospitalized to get voices after the hospital, or for anyone to take personally my health or what I have to say online. To the best of my ability I am for everyone, like Ive said there have been solutions found for voices, some discussions helpful, and other discussion unhelpful to me.