At the time of my hospitalization I was battling voices and find solution through writing. Unfortunately due to being put on too many medications with a heart condition I collapsed after taking night meds, probably exhausted from battling voices. I was sober, I did not overdose, I did not intend to hurt myself. My Brother saved my life went to the emergency room to revive me that’s his specialty I had kidney failure and organ failure and almost ended up in the ICU and almost died. As a result the hospital and everyone told me I’m not allowed to see my doctor anymore and over the past month have been working on finding a new doctor to do my meds. Court recommended psychiatry did not approve of my PCP giving me meds for mental health psychiatry. I had low blood pressure as a result of the blood pressure meds I was on probably why I collapsed and from being tired struggling with voices and writing. I’ve been resting for a month, please respect my privacy and don’t speculate or spread rumor or take personally my health or upsets in life and respect my temperament and privacy and life story. Respect my truth and my honesty it’s not always safe to speak in public when you are fragile fighting doesn’t help or controversy. I can’t physically withstand all the fighting directed toward me and need to focus on myself not everything is a fight or a joke or not a big deal or my fault not everything is about voices or the public or everyone or a hate website. I’m doing okay I’m doing my best not without upsets confusion. I remember everything I’m doing my best. It’s not okay to get beat up made fun of beat up or be accused of mental illness or not respect my fight in life or battle or what I sound like defending myself, I’m in court I don’t have to tolerate bullying or voices I’m allowed to be supported or report whatever I want is no one’s business what I’m dealing with or what I’m going through has nothing to do with anyone including me almost dying hurts my feelings not what I want not deserved not okay not my fault and no one’s business.

I’m now seeing a cardiologist. Getting echograms, working on forwarding my medical records. When I say none of your business that’s HIPAA. Includes my suffering or symptoms and privacy. Please respect my struggle and condition. Give people time to recover before you start fighting them again.