This was deleted my phone died.

I don’t appreciate voices trying to kill me using my words to kill me to fight me pretend to be people support John Cockrell retaliated try to make life about defaming me disrespecting me hurting me. Making his arrest about my death or me dying take personally my hard work or position in life and good standing make sick jokes. Calling me “loser fucking loser” and “sick ass pervert” before I died I’ve said my piece I’m not responsible for you getting shot to have a great blog or be sober Im not deserving of voices following treatment or reconnecting with someone shooting a gun at me sending me death threats I’m not responsible for working hard or messing up I’m living sober doing my best innocent I don’t deserve to be punished or die or bring up you being shot or a CEO being shot by shooting me in public like it’s no big deal expect me to move on get a job isolate me or try to cause me suicide you can’t prove voices Im allowed to give up say leave me alone ask to respect my privacy it’s not okay to beat me up call me racist not acknowledge who I am for 12 years and photos from my life I’m not alive to create excuses or passing guilt I’m not criminalizing anyone I’m not dirty or sick or have a poor sense of direction I don’t deserve to disappear lose my job and my website both career to bullying and if they want to address gun violence we can talk about everything I’ve done on my end and they can stop jeopardizing solution with this pretend fake pretend fame pretend hard time. Threaten me send me away use voices wrongfully diagnose me as schizophrenic I’m not sick and I’m not gay I’m not a pervert don’t accuse me of being unwanted with boyfriends and don’t accuse me disallow me to have female friends don’t change or ruin my life. Stop reading my messages judging me using names to kill me don’t use my 4th step George Nelson my boxing instructors name Floyd or accuse me of being homocidal. I give up mentally ill that’s not imagined he’s fighting me voices are real and hospital or meds can’t solve this problem of disrespect women’s issues toward me constantly ruining my life not allow me to live life not be cool with me make fun of my disposition. Call me sick things talking to men. Why destroy and ruin my life and hurt my future I don’t deserve to be hurt outside of court that’s not how life works.

I’ve not been feeling well I almost died sober in treatment and with two perfect letters for court. I believe I am being killed based on statements online and in private Instagram not being good enough to prevent harm to me nothing court can solve by allowing others to hurt me is not what the attorney general general is for to isolate me allow hacking hurting me causing me death is not my fault. I’m not going off meds I’m not going to the hospital I’m not going to blog or work or allow for his lead to kill bring up you having been shot wrongfully accuse me in public of being sick watching me fight sound mentally ill in public struggling with voices. It’s not the solution to blame me accuse me of sickness I had a full time job made a full recovery but voices load on subjects unhappy with any address public or private too much for my body and brain to withstand standards inhumane deadly to me nothing passed to anyone I’ve been online writing for 12 years and not okay to sabotage me watch my calendars cause me sickness talking or dating men force friendship with women calling me sick terms and make me uncomfortable steal and destroy two websites ruin relationship with Rob Todd and Aaron and trying to ruin the stamina and strength of the people observing life following mass trauma or accuse me or continue to allow this person to use me to look bad making me look bad it’s not my language or mental health or privacy I’m a human being that’s my personality and my face nothing to shame me for or my story or diagnosis of situations trying to make things better I’m not OJ my Dad isn’t OJ I don’t deserve to be treated this way call me sick stuff make mafia jokes with recording myself 12 years don’t accuse me of being shady hurting my feelings or giving up why can’t voices comprehend my brain my mental health I is everything about them why am I not allowed to talk to anyone. Why am I taking life seriously but no one else has to why am I not allowed to love or work or blog why is my life being ruined why are they expecting me to talk to someone put in jail I clearly stated I gave no unnecessary information to he can explain himself show texts he can hire an attorney tell voices not to say he killed my Dad don’t bring up wrongful death call me sick terms and kill me. Please tell the people in a victim it’s not my fault and to stop letting people in tech wrongfully diagnosis take personally fired create excuses all across the board try to cause me suicide. I refuse to drink travel hot my head or write if this is how I’m being treated for dying is not my fault.