All I meant by sparing your opposition and not making anyone feel bad including voices going against you, real or existing or representative of people public, gender, in response to anything Ive said disliked, the timing of my statements, wellness, issue addressed, commentary public or private, is not about being hospitalized and almost dying, or demanding an explanation from me when I am fragile, and putting myself back together, is no ones right to hurt me, there is no solution in me dying, or blaming me, I didn’t kill myself, Im working hard dealing with symptoms, and if there is no justice or sense of peace as to voices, that Im not privileged to be at peace and live free of voices, and if there is no cure for whats in common to a hate website or system of retaliation or opposition against me, that the onset of voices is sought to represent, its not my fault, if I get voices, its not my fault if I am hospitalized, Im not dying to make anyone feel bad, I can acknowledge for life to have different sensitivities in life, I don’t consider my upsets or my mental health anyones business, I don’t consider any industry as immune to sickness, and no ones intent to make me look bad or make fun of me, no content created to spite me, or reinforce sick terms or voices, is not my fault, I am not a sick woman, I am not disrespectful, I am entitled to my own opinion. I don’t have to love everyone, believe in everyone, help everyone, get along with everyone, have a perfect life story, or philosophy in life, I am not responsible for the happiness of others, or sense  of joy and commitments in life, or choice of focus is not my job, to fail or succeed based on the demand of others, or based on any system of blame including my medical records is no ones entitlement, does not mean anything is my fault. Whats inaccurate is me almost dying, not given a month to recover, talk to someone new, given voices and made sick or forcing an overdose on the day I review my medical records, means Im already being retaliated on or caused sickness to upset, or accuse me of having anger, or strong energy or content, when I almost die, that’s not my fault, is no ones business, is no ones right to accuse me of killing myself, is no ones right to make me feel bad, is not ones right to make my health about them is no ones right to accuse me of not being caring or not who I am or judge me in private or call me sick terms and bring up or question why someone was arrested for threatening me exposing me, and calling me names, is no ones business to bother me, destroy me, give me voices, know me, ruin conversation, or make me sick or bring up over and over again, what causes mental illness, is no ones business, and I don’t deserve to be hurt, suffer dysfunction or death is no my fault, I am doing my best. If you have questions about what is reality or what should people think or feel about it, the solution is not going against me, or hurting me on behalf of others, or preventing or ruining my life, its my job to live life, and be loved, and not be attacked, and to stay away from people who have the ability to hurt me, including the public and take time from blogging. Voices is a dangerous subject because please don’t accuse me the person suffering or dying has nothing to do with anyone else period, I am not doing anything to anyone to make anyone feel bad, scared, or disadvantaged in life. Im in court, its no ones right to go against me, hurt me, invade my privacy, openly ruin conversations, accuse me of mental illness, constantly be dissatisfied with my peace, constantly disturb me in any loving or amicable relationship, the problem isnt me living life, Im not ending my life, my life will work out so long as I continue to do well, all I said is if I almost died, that’s no ones business to force me to discuss a sensitive subject in public, is not my fault, not because of meds, is no ones business who got arrested, and is no ones business to force me to discuss court, or be hurt in public or require me to get sick in private or public is not the solution. Whats too much is the symptom, whats not the solution is being taken off meds, whats not the solution is interfere with treatment and the right to attend therapy, whats not okay is for me to get symptoms, for writing in public or for my private records or google photos, is no ones business to hurt me or call me sick. My openness is not admission to harm me, or go against me, kill me, accuse me of killing myself, bring up my medical history, make me uncomfortable, use voices, or court or an arrest as excuse to retaliate on me, don’t call me sick things, don’t judge life as representing sick things, don’t take for granted my age or my life, my tolerance, my ability to handle life on my own with no legal or medical support or love, companion, or protection, not take for granted effort or what is provided in public, was meant to say me dying is not going to make anyone feel good, and me dying isn’t a win for anyone who is going against me, see the positive.