Im sensing the intimidation due to the loss of Kevin Costner’s beloved favorite actor Gene Hackman, is a loss that has been a recent staple in the news uncovering the timing of their deaths and I’m assuming incites fear to those who have recently been reading my blog a heard I was studying Kevin Costner’s films and briefly discussed a potential Facebook friend in common. Later on my Facebook all of the Kevin Costner accounts and fan pages have been listed on my recommended friends list on Facebook, so I guess it wasn’t a fluke that I then decided to reach out to his verified Instagram account, to share my story briefly, overcoming a recent collapse and hospitalization, and shared about knowing a person in common to Cher, her cousin is friends with my Fathers best friend, and met her at my house for one of my Dads best friends birthdays he hosted one year at our house on Gretna Green, so that was something I shared to the Kevin Costner Instagram account. 

I think all timing in life is good timing and it shouldn’t matter who you are or what’s going on in life or what you’ve written I’m assuming anyone can be intimidated by losses and the subject of death that I’m no stranger too and especially not celebrities or more highly protected members of society it’s something we all fear and as the news knows something that is shared with the public more information to cover the losses of well known people is something in general that we as a society are given information about, encouraged to think about and figure out, why, how, under what circumstances, be privileged to acknowledge Kevin Costners public share of a mention in an interview was his choice to share how close he felt to the actor’s who’s life was lost due to medical reasons is a tragic story and I’m sure no more clear to me than the public and nonetheless careful as to how Kevin Costner feels to be in communication with me during the time of this loss, and wonder what court thinks, or the DA thinks, or what SCOTUS thinks, right now I’m focused on myself. I have to believe in myself for things to work out for me and for everyone. It’s traumatic to suffer, connect, then watch someone you love and admire lose someone they loved dearly knew and respected as their “favorite actor.” — So hopefully this conversation lightens expectations with regards to losses, respecting my own life and experience with loss, not take for granted people’s sense of peace and right to not be intimidated by losses or blamed I think is the issue with respect to why because of speaking out to and based on who I am feel like I’m expected to comment and to explain who I am or what conversion private however is related to me would be threatening to relate a private conversation in the negative as to Kevin Costner’s attentions, or as to the quality of my life as touched by others not instigate a fight or series of insulting takes on life or luck for that matter would not be worth it to me to share if that’s a negative take on my privacy and what I’ve been up to. In the end the only person who can make me wrong is myself no one is expected to grade how I live life or the conversations I have and maybe that’s the liberty and power of the attorney general to read my messages and judge me or for court to read anything or try to punish me and have medications I need be taken away. All I know is this is my life I’m working hard to stay alive and not get hurt and not let my life get used or ruined or accused attached or detached or experimented with when it comes to analyzing losses I would rather speak for myself and put it in writing.