In case it’s not been said enough times, proven through example, or by statements said by me words I’ve lived up to be a good example or describe the difficulty of recovery from mental health issues as not guaranteed having witnessed worse dispositions in life was never anywhere I didn’t belong or hear something I went through finally encouraged to be in a room of other patients which is not for the public or a TV Show or inside perspective in life to judge a person for where they are or who they are or at what point of being known are you thanked in the hospital for sharing someone who is usually in their room sleeping and does not have the energy to attend groups, accepting of my medical history what I’ve described it as occurring and clearly with regret know what has gone wrong for me based on remembering why I got sick or when or not forgetful of what med was taken away anyone who is knowingly doing something wrong or has a public story or timeline defective that needs be addressed questioning my own recovery law school attendance travel and care someone lucky to recover I’m sure no additional hospitalizations show the meaning of me coming to understand my own experience with mental health described it as instability or mentioned sleep as being important apart of my story, never glamorized moments in public or fear or endanger anyone’s privacy I think later those stories were not believed and I’m sorry I’ve not been out enough times to survive learn lessons not get hurt not be able to experiment with drugs and not what anyone wants for me to get sick or considering being known as something I believed then helped me to survive a circumstance if I’m recognized or respected to not be hurt and would wish for the same protections of any woman of my face or body types with or without blogs to experience life be loved not get hurt be forgiven for being robbed not be contested for relapse or story mistake or size me up as someone who fails to represent a subject not accuse me of not being deserving of improvement having lived life not offending women or victims or a person with work experience that my mental health is mistaken as me having non emergencies discouraged to talk to police or 911, or SCOTUS, or DA, or submit documents to court, is okay for me to draw the line and say it’s not okay to accuse me of having a life and being supportive able to get a job an accurate description on my website changing my summary multiple times until it’s grounded enough to inform not share my resume or periods in time I applied to Shorty Awards, is not the person I was that I don’t deserve to be accused as not being the person I was. Or can handle getting hurt by openness and am doing my best and it’s okay if nothings a big deal to anyone else. I get that everyone is trying to help, I get that my problems in life only I can solve, I get that everyone can offer suggestions and try to help but I have to live my life and listen not expected to forget who I am or accuse me of blaming anyone or bring up personal details or conversations to illustrate there being something wrong with me that’s my fault and to accept that no one is believed to have hurt me, there is peace and solution in everyone getting to be given the peace of mind in knowing that my problems are limited to me being handled by court observed by the attorney general know that a DA sued me, know that I’m not an attorney, and it’s never been my intent to punish anyone hard time or good times it’s not my decision making or handle of life that fails to recognize the benefits of not caring what’s discussed in court shared by me, is also not too late to recognize who I am and not someone asking for tech security or can’t recognize voices as being a joke not mistake meds as support unnecessary. In the end and by diagnosis it’s up to me to be in a condition where I am not punished or told I’m wrong or it’s my fault, where no one is angry at me, when issues are addressed, when professionals are heard, not take for granted when things are good as though my own sense of things are immature make light of my honesty or expect me to start lying contest not being accepting of getting sick not disappointing anyone not letting anyone down, accept all the help and support I’ve been given, not get villainized or risk any woman or man feeing villainized. To accept my health and recovery and getting a job as proof I was handling the bullying website maturely not playing victim did my best to stay sober live a good life and am not living life to prove anyone wrong or a person who is doing well who can’t stop or can’t afford to get sick misunderstand my experience or support as lacking faith or solution or needing to see improvement again to recognize me being in good health is me being in the solution. I have to accept everything I’ve lost due to bullying any mistakes made to highlight drinking, misunderstanding texts to my attorney overly concerned with me complaining to my attorney privately giving up is better than giving up or being accused of suicide after getting a job and a website hurtful taken down I went nuts several times and I am sure made fun of and any police interaction is when I get judged poorly. And that’s okay to be in that condition and tell the truth even if not believed.