My next court date April 24th is up to me to stay well and figure out what court needs to hear or the public or any voice for that matter okay with not being certain about my own legal standing okay to make fun of someone treating me like a person you give a hard time being up dispositions in life. I’m not bossing anyone no one is bossed because of me I’m smart enough in tune with life should be smart enough to handle criticism be okay with forcing me to accept what’s the problem of convincing people who take care of you that you are sick or not care what’s difficult of no one being proud of you or respecting everyone’s health not mistake me as offensive or get a job or make fun being told to do something I’m struggling with getting a job not my delay or inappropriate focus on tech make fun of any family member hard on mistake difficulty as weakness then amplify issues accuse me of guilt discontent with me getting a job handling a lot going nuts and getting sick and not being able to work something I worked hard for not a performance or ability in life I take for granted or don’t know what’s important to me or forget everyone who supported me it was my solution to get along I get if I get sick then anyone can be hard on me and don’t neglect everyone patient who’s supported me rooting for me would be happy for me to be well don’t deserve to be punished based on guy issues not okay with voices not dishonest if I caught text accept I can’t text and if I get hurt accept that’s my fault I’m not taking chances gambling describing life like it’s easy to goal set do live blogging and be watched and get a job or mess up and to accept looking stupid getting voices I know I did my best told the investigator I was okay informed work of something personal I’m dealing with and that things should be okay not anyone cocky or acting like help makes me look or bad or question what’s under control that’s okay to be tested not be helped I’m life unsupported or can’t overcome hurtful terms or why it’s hurtful to me the issue is not what’s wrong with me or true it’s a statement you try to normalize force me to be okay with make fun of a year of responding doing my best to not sound stupid or someone goofy or not funny or mean a person you call ugly see my best or choose that I lose to voices if that’s a problem to me convincing everyone to think I’m sick so im rejected not believed this is not writing you call sick or lacking purpose or wrong or exactly what I’ve done wrong make fun of writing types or what my audience likes it doesn’t matter how I appear when the issue is voices and what about these words hurts me is not true about me not what I do to anyone or take for granted human connection so the lesson in smiling and getting a job and going nuts is that I worked hard sounded like I’m not professional or capable of handling scary subjects critical of my descriptor of being strong enough to get a job also okay with being compared to a person not composed who you call stupid not proud of or call sick not making light of work mistake anything as close I get that you don’t see me as special you don’t care if I can draw you don’t respect what work is being done you mistake work performance and alcohol or talking to a DA is no one I’m a job doing anything wrong what was hurt was my peace who I was everyone supported me changed by relapse after maintaining sobriety ….. I’m not confused about why I’m able or mess up can’t handle advice or think people are talking to me in a way close or secret I’m sorry all effort is mistaken as given a hard time at work pushed and stating alive compared to giving me voices pushing me working hard and scare me and everyone accuse me of dying. If I got so much wrong in life no one is proud of me my mom cannot love me I’m not successful in a job, getting a job I didn’t years to be fit for is not a extreme form of trust undergo treatments lucky to be alive anyone who can afford being put down in life just to see how I feel when everyone thinks that if I don’t survive and that was the alternate to accuse me not staying alive means I’m bad and people think that I don’t have a solution beyond what going through accepting being taken off meds don’t need to be made fun of things are good things are bad things are cool things are not worth it is not how quick or customary life teaches me based on an assessment of everything over all be singled out at not graduating a program or not getting into a program you may try to hurt me based on what you think I’m sensitive to I’m not the definition of schizophrenia or a person worth hurting based on everything I’ve said, have said I’m not punishing him those were private smells I’ve been brave enough to address losses the timing of discussion of wrongful death is for solution what’s not working out for me voices, who’s not happy with me treatment, who is being punished for teens untrue not doing that to men or Jonah Hill or a fake representation in life affecting creativity or Leonardo DiCaprio, a person braving subjects not a drug addict or loser or loss connected to famous people you accuse me of not being famous what’s upsetting or the figure in life or presence that is not going to work out, accusing me of lacking innocence or arrival is nothing I’ve addressed improper or too many times not everything is about what’s not okay with me being alone not supported not good enough if I’m doing my best and that’s all I’ve got left and work hard and collapse I’m not giving up or destined for worse call writing the problem if bottle up or expect substance mood temper if I’m not to win and didn’t make it I did my best to be positive be appreciative work hard dealing with harsh treatments of me it says not guilty I don’t know what you expect from a human being you call hurtful or make fun of who has it worse on jail this type of offender not faced with an issue or disposition in life unfriended or hurt by anyone.