Everyone’s given chances I can’t be expected to handle things better or get sick or say self harm is turn off ….why would hurting myself takes years and months or treatment to fix about my own unhappiness or a poor reflection of who I am based on what’s said can’t handle defamation or bringing up a foot a painful reminder you forget everyone supported witness me working or accuse me of intentionally hurting myself I couldn’t lose more in life to voices be considerate of medical care forgetful then I can handle life code and my story on my own since no one is happy with who I am hurt me accuse me of not being scientific. It’s okay for things to be easy for you it’s not me I’m worried about the wrong things. Please accept that one been told a DA cannot help me someone who is not guilty a good example of honesty’s encouraged independence or views for there to be solution in separating me. The ultimate test for why I’m alive is not about asking for money complain who’s in charge witness health or men’s health a job types difficult not glamorize what I’m for it’s been so hurtful ….. I need to be alone you can do whatever go by whatever your okay with hear of solution dislike whatever’s not good enough I didn’t kill myself take chances in life fight the wrong the fights this is why I’m alive only I can help myself it’s my story therefore it’s my code I am not hurting anyone defective or making things easy or proud someone who doesn’t stay positive is forgiven have problems I don’t need anyone’s help to figure life based on these terms distrust expectations willing to risk my life again revisit what hurts me I’m doing my best accept for this to be the solution and this how I am off meds not anyone stronger who needs to be told what the solution is not care for anyone’s advisement you don’t give a fuck about who helped me or hurt me closely don’t give give a fuck about how I’ve been hurt or in a place mentally that anyone should calculate harm dishonor a subject to keep scaring expect me to give up or constantly punish me and expect me to apologize at what moment in life is life so in control to bring me down in life ….. this is not what I deserve this is not what Kevin Costner needs or BLM this isn’t about me or what’s good enough or a poor advisor then go ahead put me in a stadium rely on me ask what’s wrong jeopardize everyone’s life and belief question grateful then accuse me of killing myself an example of soothing no one wants to hear.