I’m sorry that after working hard on my own still losing to what I’m told I’ve done wrong (voices) I’m doing my best to be honest keep being mindful helpful not be punished about who’s helped or where my power goes or who’s not harmed not be mistreated not recognize or insult my politics or sexuality or choices in life. Being hurt reminded of what hurt me does not compare to being re friended anyone’s peace or safety I took for granted talking about OJ or let myself be mistaken as stupid or not taking life serious I’m sorry it’s been hard for me to accept what I’ve said or how I’ve been hurt or how addressing Caruso race or my value accuse me of not being aware I don’t belong or ungrateful privileged to be in the palisades misrepresent meetings or issues unkind or not reflecting enough on who I am I’m sorry this system of writing or messages my safety of concern. Or everyone celebrity to not accuse me of not handling fame or not trusting others strengths and comforts on subjects I know who I am and why I’m not hot and I’m not forgetful of why I’m alive or who my life empowers not have it bad in life accuse me fears or step work not rational or admission of anyone who could be hurt in the event I’m hurt not living a life guilty open or justify emails accused of lying as something I should not be hurt by. With emphasis on what should be an easy subject or be responsible for figuring out punishment misidentify help or am someone who has an attorney or not working hard speak positive of others ok with not viewing me as professional critical of what “no means no means” or no name ventures confuse a poster or make r relevant anything private not photograph is to protect men from blame or not allowed too reference a person punished anyone experimenting with talking to men or views no replies as a ghosting or gaslighting or fact about me that should tell me who I am judge my enthusiasm or gifts in life or sobriety or shorty award nomination or date with Aaron forget my biggest loss biggest cry Leo dying difficult, not someone going through a lot who can’t say no or around someone who offers remember what disability I’ve been through know when things are good not someone you punish who gets sick no one cares about or respects the ethnicities or race or interaction mistake me of not having any meaningful visits to England continue to see amazing stats and accuse me of being stupid or disabling poorly or alcoholism a solution for bullying I got sober a month made the effort don’t need to be punished everytime a neighbors reports me is not how to justify tolerance or manage a mental health crisis informing Fox News then say my upsets told the neighbor I’m mentally ill too loud to say I’m inappropriate why would I be living somewhere. Recovered with jobs at peace a simple room managing my health no bothering my community I can’t accept enough how many feelings of me you don’t like or trying to control lawsuits or what people report a game I’m playing in life not good enough to live life or lying or not disabled need to be off meds to be myself it hurts question. Him being well positive but still punish me for what he said condemn me accuse me of racism or expect me to defend myself it’s not easy ….. it clearly got worse nothing I emailed to the investigator as being too late, it’s unfortunate to sound stupid in public everything I’ve said accuse of dating wrong not be forgiving given my securing in court accuse me of offending a person who was called a bad name anyone missing the issue or needs to be called something or shout teens to relate anything I reported to SCOTUS why should get to the level of calling me something forcing me to say words relevant to people types or medical care not my issue or evidence me of racism I can’t fix what you think you am accusing me of disease or having aids or seeing a doctor you accuse of infecting me with a virus a person who is tested say I’m dirty or my moms punishing me a person. At a stage in life. Everyone’s peace is no one wants me to get hurt no one is punishing me for voices it’s not been the solution to self harm or be accused of meds or alcohol each time say I’m not happy trying to please voices who don’t exist and my problem is that no one is hurting me but no one knows why voices are hurting me and the concern is what I’m alive for what are my stopping points what’s telling me to be alone or not give or or not take for granted love or be in danger or be at risk of harm and can recognize when I’m harmed what prevents me from being able to help others is normal to figure out what’s wrong with me and if I’m not good enough that’s my job to explain a judge or what he thinks or believe questioning what a judge knows about a life okay with not being cool with anyone clear on it being okay to be okay it’s not the solution to get sick or have people give up on me or accuse me of dying or upsets or stuff preventable I’m going to make it please accept who I am punished and give me time off meds to figure my worth and what’s wrong or what needs to be said better to show I’m dealing with voices constructively not make race or contact the issue or mystery is not my worth or how I feel corrected life isn’t about when things are good or what I have to offer or what I texted the person who is not going to make it recognizing addiction as harmful not someone you accuse of relapse or lying or dishonesty question the police searching my entire room and apartment anyone who’s feelings you hurt concerned with disability or compare me or bring up my age at some point I will be able to share my story stop calling me sick using voices accuse me of addiction discredit work or punish me for a following loss someone who did her best didn’t stay well not accuse me of being improper or sloppy illustrate England as a country who recognized me a vulnerable population not an experiment or compliment telling me I’m smart or not identifying issued constructively if you don’t care how my email to Trump is about what is leading strength or what type of work or effort is good enough to be considered work. I think being accused of being weak or sick is not going to help me or anyone concerned with what makes NY cool or what’s cool about stories or communication not anyone experimenting possessing or controlling or anyone you call stupid unhelpful or being up money or success or considered as stuff you accuse a job as me not focused on what’s important if it’s important that I stay well then that’s my job to be alone focus on the content I’ve provided share a leadership issue as punished why of I’m hurt does that anger or upset others and illustrate that a concern for power or things being good and certain is a way of life that empowering men is not a skill or beauty in life captured to accuse me of being sick or not loving or needs representation.