Is to not lose my sense of normalcy and what the rest of life is like be punished alone not talking to who hurt me be confused as moving on or not moving forward or believed because of what I sound like no matter the disability, or notoriety, is me dealing with who I am alone and accepting difficulty, not who worked hard to have positive conversations finally reconnected and forgave someone anyone so well or so this or so that so recovered who forget feel good unsupported or make fun of a month of rest online talking to all my doctors finding new ones and showed up in court not now worse because I almost died lucky to be alive no one of value, who helped, deserve voices, whether it’s a private conversation or personal stories or people I know or time not talking to someone is not how I’m staying well, upsetting him or writing so he loses faith or feels bad needs to be talked about in public I didn’t share any emails or investigator online or deal with serious issues as to not being hurt or aware of how that affects others not the way person who seeks treatment and mourning the loss of her father and having difficulty getting well and likes someone older, doesn’t need to lose everything or make fun of my blog or medical treatment as though I’m not of value or trusting or insightful or think about life and how others feel …. worked hard to be well speak to others, not about making fun of how I help or what I say and can’t figure out why I’m hurt get voices or feel bad because he contacted me, no one well uplifting a person of faith no one living life to their best of their ability a person on a team has a Facebook am not okay terms and disconnect misidentify my sexuality or acceptances for all decide to highlight an issue or form of support challenged by marching, a more true test of how I can handle being exposed and continue to figure out life as to my own team why would I be so strong have solution good grades and doing my best, no one on a team humiliated who is letting their team down in a way to explain any loss as occurring during a period when or mistake any care or disability a hardship to overcome living home without a job, someone who listens, not my choice to be online and pretend like I’m online because I’m trying to help or claim solutions for California having demonstrated at my court house not forgetful of everyone, the person hurt aware of everything else good that could be affected, is a promise and sense of things working out and able to save lives and especially helpful toward the elderly no one judging us not lose that sense of niceness about life admitting to sickness or dealing with things viewed as my fault, no one who is forgiven or reassured how upset my mom got when I got hurt …. No book no website ….. not me who allowed my family to get hurt or share in a public way thoughtful reflections and lose my website ….. is nothing I’ve reported to court in court forms anything I’m going through …. No one who standing from their own story is not tough enough to state the association or unfamiliar with the public’s anger and disdain and sense of humor directed toward people known and loved as though I am someone from a story who deserves to suffer a familiar fate, not me who offended or not scared of everyone not comfortable identifying is maybe not why I’m in treatment or clearly online show what happens if I got out ….. not someone with a lesser life or who’s family let get sick or take meds from or be upset with, maybe not enough online in the positive or known about me was good enough to not bother others to read or be special not make fun of why he’s special and I’m not …. To call me loser. Are the many ways I’m taking the risk to be open and honest as to a subject in case it’s not clear or unfair difficult, no one who needs to apologize for honesty, should be allowed to write, be accepted for posts disclosing, be humiliated for being made fun of and called loser, and that’s okay for me to not stay well handle difficulty and stay well based on bringing up words, and for the solution to be only I am sick this is my difficulty and job to explain why these terms hurt and who I am as a person and not be okay with knowing me more or not knowing enough good and bad info, and be confused why my website was deleted why should that hurt and what does that say to everyone about me, is not a place of not feeling well that means I belong in a hospital giving up being normal or being sober or positive, to deal with a symptom that I’m not ever ignoring or trying to change my own diagnosis, am someone who clearly sacrificed their progress or been punished taken off meds, and rested for a month, am not the one trying to figure out how I’ve failed or worked hard and got sick, not bother anyone informative and proper not a false faith or indicator of life in general that my help and losses was not good enough to save my own life am no one texting a DA naming a subject …. No one scaring anyone or ended up sick as a blogger ….. is not how to help everyone. Please accept all my effort as real, take care of myself, make sure whoever is mad at me feels better not require me to bring up stuff because of voiced no one deserves to be punished ….. is not a joke. I have doctor appointments this week to probably discuss voices and hurtful terms, and describe how difficult it is to not be believed or saved or make it or get sick no one who needs to prove themselves at rest, is a difficulty I will figure out on my own spend the time discussing it online for as many times I get voices and hopefully something improves taking the time to be myself share and maybe take a break from writing if it’s hurting me or hard to figure out a solution for my own mental health talking to everyone.