There’s no lesser evil in life to face other than hurtful terms, ever just words or things you just have to accept, be convinced that you are sick or be mistreated as though you are sick, try to live life and get hurt, be mistaken or forced to live life humiliated as though you are undeserving of a life because of what someone else thinks or says, not a joke, to end up worse off, lose your sense of peace, or be insulted or called delusional or expected to live life or improve constantly hurt or not take seriously or believed makes me wonder. Why would I work this hard to survive and get paid jobs, to lose everything, because of something not my fault, how can that not be a big deal or require reporting something I should now be hurt by or face difficulty, not believed as having suffered harm requiring reporting, be less able now or changed anyone who choose to get hurt or end up suffering from a condition treated, mean I should stop or get hurt to think about life, the persons who’s faith in themselves. Needs to be questioned or injured or teamed up on or he unsupported or not overcome diagnosis or be protected by HIPAA, no one who should get hurt because of who they are or what they look like or how they sound or what they say someone who is hurt so they don’t look like they did so they don’t sound like that or need to lose property and possessions in life to be observed hurt or expect solution from not concern normal people or anyone from my blog, of things managed someone who worked hard to share thoughtfully not someone living life and being strong to be called sick or called stupid or not believed or not allowed to participate or work, is no one who should be hurt to think of everyone of having nothing to be hurt to be observed struggling someone who overcame symptoms did her best. Not about accusing me of not being well after two websites and graduating and living my entire life, anyone not okay who contributes does not need to get sick or be hurt to be observed or compared or judged for they’re going through hurt and not self harm or call police or write to anyone or make mistakes online, not worth getting hurt to be believed or accused my writing of not being good enough to not get hurt anyone who can’t fix themselves or gets hurts dealing with serious issues in life unrelated to everyone who stays separate not the person who’s story or sense of code and comprehension has not been shared, the person to exclude or hurt or not allow to improve work set goals have a companion reconnect on the basis of symptoms not their fault, no one who has easy problems or needs help should just end up sick or get voices like that’s necessary on a team level not what anyone wants stuff I should he hurt by or expect me to keep going or make believe a med or medical care is going to solve or figure out why I’m hurt, not someone who was punished that requires accusing me of disability someone who graduated who didn’t choose to get hurt or get help, suffer in a major way serious, nothing worth saying positive or get a job, anyone well who went through a lot, no one who needs to get hurt or take meds away, work hard, am no one who almost lost her life and died for no reason over symptoms who after months of rest and time offline ….. am not the one who needs to change or be accused of wrongdoing, strong enough to deal with symptoms or blame not okay on a bigger scale in life, require more discussion hurtful a difficulty I set boundaries shared posts the voices got worse and removed posts, and now working towards solution, that does not require me to talk to anyone, or need anyone’s help, also not the solution for addressing everyone be separating me or excluding me, based on how I’m writing, or accuse my condition or strength potential or energy or life expectancy to be some value anyone can tell opposite to what I’ve shared how symptoms lessen draining me or forcing me to speak and be isolated to know something or require more from me, or expect me to get hurt, anyone doing her best in a place now I’m not willing to let myself get sick or self harm or relapse or be blamed for voices, not anyone doing her best off meds, not someone you just change or hurt for no reason or use a diagnosis as excuse, make everyone think poorly of me, or need me to write, to know how challenging it is to deal with symptoms deserving of help or love or connection, no one lying or deceiving or faking it or strong enough to just get hurt …… anyone who’s been helped ….. not about me once it’s about everyone’s perspective and sense of normalcy, no one having difficulty accepting hurt, or needs to tell their story or change, no one who ever was sick or couldn’t blog or instagram, not the person who let anyone down or has a big audience no one who is the joke or hurt or not believed stuff you just do to people and expect meds or tech or court or medical care to solve why I’m being hurt not my fault.