The dangers of discussion are for negative judgement the purpose of of being hurt is not deserved is not doing anyone any favors or a way to help everyone or not be called a messy subject for the purposes of not being being able to differentiate between who I am versus what was said is not the purpose for being online to be helping everyone or get everyone to think something and then get everyone to like it not like on the basis of hurtful terms, is not helpful when I meet the standard by stats, education, life, and connections lifestyle and story to be credited as real does a disservice to me and to my community to discuss or write responses to bullying is only making things repetitive or worse, not a condition I don’t understand, or need to take risks being assertive or defensive or revisit how I’m been hurt and get hurt again or require me to feel like anyone of everyone is against me because of a discussion of how I was hurt, is not helpful to me to lose support or get sick in the process of detailing treatments and solutions is not the purpose for leading a discussion not in common to everyone or require me to not feel good about myself makes no sense why I anyone could not understand or have compassion for what I went through as real, by anyone’s standards is tough, not what to judge a person a by or ignore getting a job and working full time and not self harming and stopping a med, or sharing online or reconnecting, is not what I deserve in life. If I deserve better peace and more progress, why would my audience or bullying make for a messy subject about how hurting me affects others, is nothing I’ve found solution for, or deserving of permanent problems in life bringing up over and over anything online where there is no clear solution for discussion or reason or justification for hurtful terms period. I would never be online if I had voices or able to finish law school or build two websites or work, or be taken off meds or improve, or have stats ever not be helping everyone and meeting standards in life, it’s not the solution, to blog about hurtful terms humiliate myself or get everyone to read something, collapse for no reason, makes no sense why it should continue, or justify where it’s coming from, question my reality or how everyone feels and thinks and face threats in life, or be out under pressures unreal, nothing just goes away when a standard is a met or by public speaking that’s the problem with bullying, it’s very difficult to solve, not the difference between my Facebook blog or job or audience or a book audience my reputation that should continue to suffer as a person recovered who offers help and sets boundaries, has nothing to do with everyone or how everyone feels as a whole something I don’t understand being who I am, embarrass me to discuss stuff I would not be open for everyone to read not how you build momentum forward or achieve solution, I think bullying, terms, responding to bullying, makes everyone uncomfortable, not something for others to understand, or something I should just suffer from like it’s not a big deal or goes away that’s why it’s a messy subject not improving conditions through discussion.