Still not feeling well, and broke my ankle need to see a doctor. Still getting voices, even after being off meds not blogging, and briefly writing something reassuring as to my health, did not hurt myself on purpose, with no mention of voices. Which by this time since 1-21-25 writing before the ICU, am still doing my best to build a blog, suffer my losses, and lost data my first website went missing, and focus on moving forward and my own communications, now allow myself to get hurt, and not especially by court, or by calling me mean, Im not alive to love men, to then give me voices, and accuse me of being negative or sick, or longing for people after a breakup, thats not true, about wellness and when things are good for you, and people come around. I am not trying to ruin my life, so that I cant work or reunite and talk to others, and dont especially want to be used as someone fought, who others use to improve and send negative input to me to derail me or accuse of temper or having issues, or accuse me of threat. I am going to continue to stay home and take care of myself focus on my health, was nice enough to share previous statements, blog, found meds, talked about the hospital, wrote a nice response to being called “fucking loser” by voices, and now they are saying the word “counter” making fun of taking posession over my value and trying to give me bad luck in life, or steal my life luck and my value from me. Is the present concern.

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