I’m doing my best to be apart of what is considered to be the solution and have willingly accepted to not be prescribed adderrall based on the opinion of the doctors I’ve met and spoke to at this time in my life based on what I’m going through am someone who leaves it up to the psychiatrist to decide. I’m not someone to mischaracterize or accuse of lying to get meds, or be viewed as high or wrong or in a place mentally inappropriate the believed cause of voices or bring to light doing something I’m discouraged from taking to observe taking a med not approved, to not be judged during the taking away of a med compared to how I sound and function off a medication, be given time to be myself and process the lesson in taking adderrall away, the medical opinion of my treating psychiatrist who is trying to help me, and do my best to be in a place willing to talk in therapy and speak to a solution for my own problems in life what I recognize as a person taken off adderrall, continue to inform whoever is treating me that I’m in court to help any new psychiatrist make a decision for me reporting all diagnosis and I’m hoping that some solution can be found taking me off a medication that others do not believe is helping me and hope that continued improvement off a medication speaks to life reality others and court in a way that addresses skepticism as to my total recognition of life overall not be punished based on what the Judge and everyone sees let that not be the lesson or circumstance to excuse cause or allow for voices to happen to people in life or be mistreated as though I am sicker than I am or be punished for the type of voices I hear is not a disability or disposition or request for leniency in life anyone who can’t still work as a paralegal off medication. It’s a personal challenge to impress court sober and off adderrall which a year ago was not rigorous enough treatment plan in the eyes of that Judge and maybe that’s not for me to distinguish how life is overall be misjudged as the odd man out or someone not apart of evolution, not going against anyone in life or everyone or someone who doesn’t not get a concept as it relates to my own connections in life and personally visiting or meeting people in life. It’s up to me to put value into my life not to share my story or be devalued or given a hard time working hard and pushing myself. So I’m trying again with a different judge in a different court room to stay sober, and be taken off adderrall and make sure that I am good enough and based on the reality of how life is working out be apart of solution not be misused or accused of not having a life of value a positive contribution to any environment. — The good news past 38 posts I decided to not publish or publish without risk or disturbing any peace, would be to accept the existing difficulty and with appreciation for my hard work addressing those losses or theories on my own using my own life and name and career spend the time to discuss out loud something in the news and how that’s affecting me or someone I’m supporting and hope that by discussing how fear threat or anything scary can be the uncomfortable subject no one has and make sure it may not always be clear who is hurt, can on my own decide here forward how am I going to love and support others without being sued.

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