So far grateful for ability not waste adderrall by accident (overdose, too much makes me suicidal). I didn’t need that much to get exactly to concerns but important I say stuff in a way that doesn’t concern and doesn’t allow myself to disappear or love disabled I have to know this is my job have faith I will not fail have confidence I can help be trusted to manage losses on a level no adjustment or relapse or attendance or compassion makes me irritate. Or not proud or unmoved by being in a room with so much recovery time not compare myself I’m stuck in a life half humor half true have observed half of it can stay well sucks to end up in the ER not make a pattern of kicking me out to use Dad stories or Dad advice to act like I’m loved if I’m called pervert the issue is what’s the risk I’m not caring changing a system to making fun of me if they question why to make things with love unclear on when things are made by hate it’s not about judging the person the innocent or the content as not harmful simply bc it affects me it’s not about why something’s hard it’s about how strong do I need to be how many advices things do I need to get right without specifics it’s not been working out allowing for vague harmful interpretations to be allowed these are not things I wrote wrong said wrong or made learning not fun of approve of continued effort with immense privilege to not discourage people of heading for demoralization or accuse me of being delusion a poor fake politician who they use my words or experience learning politics as though I’m not concerned when you stop being empowered motivated by their lead and achievements clearly what’s missing is a sense that everything is going to be okay and seems to be a resentment as to my mental health challenges faced by imagined disapproval vs actual accusing me of fearing consequences that others being well should assure me my faith is broken I should listen or discount my ability to stay well without being watched ridiculed as not working hard to fix my life to communicate whatever path I chose stopped messaging Leo I’m in a place now I have to deal with life accept the challenge of not being present keep working towards earning the privilege to be at ease.

The sad lesson is he could be nice and supportive but he can’t give me back who I was and if who I was is in him how is that a lesson of accusing me of causing illness or a person unwell scared of blame going to fuck up what I learned by alcohol is to accept all the bullying fight my demons watch video upset and get over how I look or what others think it’s my life.

God is a person you trust is watching over you.

God is not about making fun of SCOTUS and accusing me of hearing things or publishing a book denying connection or belief that my wellness voice can heal a quiet person respectful of voices I do listen I don’t say bad words I am working on being tough just to be clear I could be working really hard but don’t make fun of me working really hard to make sure no one is mad at me or expect me to give up connecting with SCOTUS unimpressed by staying alive accuse the courts of knowing anything if course not I’m living in reality trusted a world blog it’s not about me not knowing if I’m famous or not publishing a book about limiting the scope or uncool or making mistakes voices that means I can’t be famous because you think I’m nobody lying then I can write a fictional tale about mymollydoll and her battle with mental illness.

Non fiction is true 

Fiction is not true

It’s all about Fabio

When everyone’s nice and someone is scared or just not sure if I care or recognize that a real fight the lesson is over a period of 8 years rebuilding myself bottoming out is not a hurdle or form of punishment any experience would prevent obesity now, sometimes when they don’t know if you care to demonstrate that care would be to continue to see everyone as well and positive remember everyone is nice and if ever I get to a place that requires so much work reassurance review or effort to prevent voices not be mistaken as abusing meds or causing problems or a person trying to figure something out related to what makes everyone else feel good let any schizophrenic wearing yellow tell me who’s representing a disability more proudly than my face changes again I’m not fake or randomly strong I’ve clearly explained that if I am strong can keep going that I believe that to be an earned privilege not a position of power or accuse my body of mind as wishing badly upon others have you seen his dejected and irritated and expecting of wellness am not feeding into let’s call CA disabled the land of opportunity some stronger worker after Covid creating fear about work hire-ability a kind of wellness pretending to function with preference to blog it’s never been recognized as job or place of ease or forgotten place where you face challenges. To maintain an audience.

I’m just not okay with voices pervert dominating acting like their god they see everything making a big deal about Pasadena not recognize the effort or going on tinder after a loss how I addressed remember a new issue not yet developed how to tell when it’s safe to date or when’s a good time or not a good example of in times of crisis who was fucking me was comforting but also not a source of paranoia or unwelcoming acceptance in life that allows for anyone to make fun of my gender or what sex love and companionship is for it means I’m strong to not weather a companion I’m strong because I made the effort tried sex with men who were nice to me

Trust me I’m not the controller or critical of human behavior like everyone else marching test photos for approval not fully comfortable couldn’t get out of my cab make glee of calling me pervert losing Jay and accuse me of cheating it’s not about calling me black or insecure care there are no directions for caring there are no limits to the choices I make in life not in need of content of fucking up losing lives accuse me of being gay or accuse me publicly declare acceptance for calling me pervert I’m not invincible fake support racist or dependent on politics living a separate life full of shit I can’t get to anything someone stuck in their head forgets or isn’t tough playing victim everything is well until I have to work on something in controversy not requiring meeting attendants to stop voices or texting. Craig or Todd or Leonardo to resume a reassured sense of normalcy about me disadvantaging anyone when it becomes abortive viewing voices as people it becomes unnecessary to accuse me of hating myself or anyone or the purveyors of a spirit temperament or issue with men or women that would mean I can’t help either I’m sure my health is wanted bc no one cares when I was young and the world was safe and random scary stuff happened that I’m made fun of as though I deserved to be kidnapped or threatened make fun of scaring me death or speaking to an officer accuse me of being a fucking drug addict

The lesson I will not let that experience shared in a drawing recorded lessons in life that you accuse me of being small scared or guilty or mean or rejecting love or team spirit or not a fun human being.

When they accuse me of not becoming gay after several times informing anyone I experience it it caused me obesity to know it’s not a healthy activity that doesn’t suit my well being means what it means I neither hate or focused on a class of people who’s sexuality is viewed as only for certain types of people accuse me of translating a bad experiences to mean I’m doing anything for love ignore Todd’s preference to not communicate with his campaign advisor that doesn’t mean exposing me means I don’t love everyone I was so open loving transparent for so long it’s only recently it’s not been helpful to continue in this direction of accusing me of abusing meds that causes a noticeable offensive change as though it’s okay to hear my voice abuse not using caps lock illustrates I’m not well, things I’ve improved or things I should suffer again to remind me what it means to be alive to get me to focus on what’s important I was never ignorant to any loss experimenting with the meaning of loss ever not take it to heart to use this person who watches my Instagram and the sense of entitlement others feel to tell me what I’ve said wrong and prevent me from blogging I’m sure the ultimate lie or sin wax to not call me gay and pervert accuse me of jealousy accuse me of not being worth it belongs in jail without a trial is not okay was not okay then or a disobedience or something I do talk to people who at a certain point disapprove or not recognize how many things can go wrong when I end up slamming my head into a wall I erased him asking for sex I just cake home from jail I’m not denying support or in guilty in common with the LAPD bound by the death of a family of a friend request I didn’t accept who ever made the issue about my best friend would never want me to be blamed for his death or use her private story to make fun of voices self harm I think at whatever point Leo was dying it’s not a scientific experiment where you go from loved and cared for to not functioning thrown in jail to me it was sad that in a moment of wellness my beliefs were denied my love viewed as intrusive my story judged about telling me what I want living this person is clearly not destined for sex not does it make it okay for months and years to punish me for why have I developed a system if texting and give up or delete show kind of common hurt you expect me to suffer accuse me of theft or mistress myself let’s be clear on who the fuck I am and what I want I want someone I love to function be in good hands I’m not some therapy caught gitlin confrkntec mom interviewed. Struggle is not recognized as sympathized with a person who works hard MY DAD TOLD ME your Mom works so hard is never an untrue deficiency or challenge that cutting my arms learning tech is some known formula of accusing me of imagining difficulty or not trying hard enough on meds this is untrue no way on the meds that I’m on means I’m gone or appear so sick I need to be told that sending me away is going to help me deal with what having a job it’s not about accusing me be undeserving not a good time of Job Ending based on my disclosure my loss or taking them seriously and it didn’t work out means what about me

Why should I realize I’m not good enough being told I’m sick maybe it’s not the imagined psycho dysfunctional psychotic person hitting their head saying stop was managed I didn’t commit suicide I had difficulty getting meds not some shouting “straight to the top” egotistical common pathway to wellness that you accuse me of being a fuck and accuse me of using a tone you consider gay and not me again it’s not your voice that comforts me or all the hard sign you just erased it’s I did my best on invega wake up constantly did my very best never fixed my sleep issue waking up constantly it’s about not understanding what makes it difficult to blog or work with a hate website up a flip out on email make sure they’re informed I’m desperate the opposite of my advices to be in a place in life to be selected where ever I am now reflects the disbelief in human connection the depreciation of my voice as coming from where I am and dissatisfaction with non performance

Clearly I was hurt bullied humiliated to the extent I would hit my head it doesn’t matter when I blocked him or at what point I introduced my own pals identity reveal to Justice Ginsberg anyone who fails to represent issues empowering to woman demonstrating a strength a personality type that being my myself later became ways I was to not wear hats doesn’t mean I crave for acceptance affected by preferences or my family’s sense of peace of how upsetting it was for pictures taken in private to be shared in public whatever is known whoever I am I know my own story k didn’t subject my family to financial losses subject my brother to a discontent or shocking public illustration hurtful to me worried in observation of family not feeling well, the issue is if something hurts me and I can’t function for 4 yrs told to block him supported not punished how does that justify him knowing things I never told him forgetful of a short conversation that my account got erased accuse us of having some lengthily moment of intimacy ignore that after 2 months of chatting he starting making facebook pages exposing me speaking badly of me even his son made fun of me why must it always be avoid what I believe in or who I love in whatever way he can feel special paco can feel special please don’t accuse my job of being too nice for me accuse me of faking me hell no I lt would be impossible to function for 8 hrs if I didn’t belong or if there was something wrong with me I think the issue is discontent upon wellness using court or “justice” or control my ending as though my wellness is inappropriate or undeserved expect for there to be continued opportunity it was great an Endeavor agent reached out it’s sad that based on denying my own figure as representative of my work ethic decided to make air jokes treat my life like I’m supposed to be tougher working hard earning a living someone who didn’t complete all the tests to be left alone undeserving of sickness who is no longer in existence was who I am at work I deserved that job I’m not earning an income to get money I don’t deserve I have bills to pay I’m sorry that me being proud of myself turned into an opportunity to call me weak or delusional in the end voices are not god no matter  what anyone wants no matter how anyone feels me doing well should make anyone feel bad including John Cockrell give me a hard time after one week of work complain about something instead of accusing me of punishing him all I wanted was for him to stop attacking me how is that unnecessary or fancy why the fuck would you accuse me of having a person in my life to explain death or how life works I have said it once and I will say it again I’m not willing to allow for him to do this to me again and make the issue voices or who he’s helping if the issue is to not respect me then the focus on real issues isn’t wasted time blaming me creating thus horror story where you accuse me of being called pervert insensitive my story accuse me of performing. Of fucking to or don’t know anything about life again it’s none of my fucking business what you do to be at peace how you decide to help it’s clear its not okay to beg for meds and that person struggling in the middle of a crisis in not some housed Monster mentally ill creature disruptive to a home I understand what disapproval means and respect my building AMLI neighbors noise complaints job no job alcohol no alcohol an energy homeless joke that it’s become about not caring about me I simply said I’m not willing to be blamed fir my fathers death my mom was upset she forgets I consider my life as do not be someone no one talks to accuse me of being a fucking moron airhead tan fucking Filipino offender who needs to be put down when well as though who I am working hard tells whoever to not support me you may want my love you may not respect my story but I’m not willing to block or use or block or get voices get suicidal and contact him to complain about voices make it a justice to call him pegged call me pervert accuse me of being guilty or expect me to fucking be alive read my fucking. Emails hard on who hard on voices hard on what about god I’m not fucking up the person who anyone decides should suffer to make others feel better i shared on topics im not changing my writing or a person who writes in a style removed accuse me of not being in control of losses overall and in what way being hurt twice online and sued and losing my ability to match is a good enough reason to think about life on a level that should remind skyline im sorry im not willing to make fun of his death threats call me pervert not care who I am question gods purpose in life or 400k world wide of course im not talking shit or suffering in a way I’m fucking. Blaming people of course I’m not in court for what he did to me that’s inappropriate to accuse me of being guilty or accuse me of being trash up places I don’t belong I’m not fucking insecure with low self esteem and no matter how badly job hurt my feelings I don’t nags to do anything. In life unwanted I don’t have to explain or go nuts or get upset fight my issues and be accused of thinking about dick and vagina a person who doesn’t feel good expect any man to repair what’s being attacked these are my loses. This is my best I never lived a life that pretended like when things are good it won’t last if people are not happy for you I was just being critical of why for all summed up until now you make fun of texts from him and tour know what’s so fucking hard about being at ease with omelets who hurt me I didn’t make him look bad he made me look bad Taylor Swift received fan mail from me I recorded on her Instagram I’m not a wannabe I had a voice I shared it it’s time to move on about god or what Taylor’s job is why would I create conflict with a state I responded to being well or working to defend myself I don’t think I have any skill or knowledge of the law that any use of law would instantly tell me I’m restarted that’s their peace respect mine I can take the LSAT again to prove I’m not schizophrenic make fun of my writing or sense of logic something las school teaches you I don’t need to loosen up be told I don’t deserve to be famous am in a role doing my best bit diff fit the part which am on either website it’s not about my past who I blogged to over 12 years its not about making fun of my lack of study of offenders that instead of respecting any moment don’t allow god to tell you anything about life that is about voices if not liking me god knows me god is not worried about me I’m not fucking dirty criminal I write to SCOTUS and I’m not a crime in progress evading court or neglecting support or responsible for any shooting I’ve not fucked up so bad I’d do far removed from mention acting like courts working out hiring an attorney using money I’m writing every single fucking day telling him everything. It’s not about hearing me and accusing me of not being well make fun of how and judge how long recovery takes it’s not okay to watch life and see an act of god and call me pervert the issue is trust the solution is stability the pride is seeing a good moment of wellness combined with talk blogs working for free doesn’t mean I almost deleted a P hate doesn’t make me garbage or afraid to be myself whether stronger becomes of me is not about blame I get the issue voices is a joke no one care s k get punished for whatever is the theme guiding your view as solution that’s on you I can accept however voices are created j can accept being alone and now have come to accept dysfunction. Is just a symptom faced and the lack of clarity of permanency it’s not about me working hard for myself instead of lying about the history of California and fires and not recognize the trauma I suffered stuck in a home with fires close to home don’t make up random interpretations of deciding to help ignore writing books or act like a fire happened and I fucking  contacted anyone of course not stop acting Iike I do shit that is wrong or don’t help anyone act like I continued writing when Covid numbers went up plus the bullying until it sinks in however many times you try to accuse me of being gone or high however long it takes to watch me go from 

My phone died okay that’s good enough voices are still unclear on what to do

I’m doing my best to address concerns as to no system of trust is failing based on acceptance or non acceptance of me I can accept hardship dysfunction however comical I’m not some faggot daughter like connected to female figures a product of abandonment or a Mezzaluna joke maybe the pathway to slashing my tires my destroying a “hope diamond” is to focus less on me or texts to Todd discontinued continue to not accept confusing strength for mistake or harm why would I suffer from a condition be tortured by anyone why the fuck would that be okay soldier like not care of I’m famous or not if you never cared for how traumatic fires are neither I nor Todd is the joke or accuse me of being taken off line a fucking retarded mental ill fuck I’ll who call shitty names isn’t the solution. Maybe voices don’t give up or res present people having fun watching me get punished treated as mentally ill and maybe that’s why voices like John Cockrell because he a says shit that affects me that you accuse me of being hurt by reading a website and use Taylor Swift as an excuse for a noteworthy performance you fucking bring her up or constantly destroy me ruin my future mistake song or reference as acts in support of everyone you decide to fucking accuse me of being defective in everything who fucks up who can’t be removed from shit accuse me of acting or being a fucking ignorant hip rot not polite did my best to be courteous of the public why does it matter if for free or not produced at all I don’t need be given voices and fucked over in life that hurting me is to make anyone else feel good I think this consistent misuse bothering Taylor Swift as someone who is representing issues that you accuse me of not representing or fucking accuse me of working hard and not know who the fuck I am the fact that you destroyed me because you think I’m fucking. Sick can’t sustain life is no one’s win or a fake economy joke you saw my project it was cool you maud fun of my health and you complain if I’m not feeling well oh I can take a joke but I fucking refuse to be called gay and act like I want things who don’t love me accuse my face of being fucked or wearing a choker with fucked up face to a funeral making fun of featuring me photo shopping a photo because you don’t give a fuck about NY Post I dont care how many ways you try to call me sick I’m sick and tired of mental illness fighting or being forced to portray a bunch of reasons to not love me isn’t me who’s atheist or not 17 M produces good content called pervert humiliated JusticeGinsberg dies and you use him grading a comment describing myself as fat and ugly someone with a bad attitude hateful toward themselves or accuse me of saying something wrong prior to her passing if people are living with purpose i say it and I’ll say it again blocking him hacked ir not blocking him don’t fucking accuse me of being fucking dark psychotic stories retarded guilty of bearing any attitude in life worked hard in my dream job loved law school or think it’s a joke to bring up all the ways Aurora was discussed. Or accuse my license plate as being from a state a negative communication. Of who I am.

So I’m gifted by god to be functioning able to write without fear of mistake because I know my honest focus is figuring out the issues without bothering anyone not let my last impression be sounding like a person fighting to reinforce a P hat who represents a gang when asking what the P represents was told represents a section of town north or south of a major boulevard.

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