Why would I work full time and be called that, that doesn’t make sense. It’s not my health that should fail due to symptoms or for anything I’ve written justify the creation of a voice intended to hurt me. That’s what doesn’t make sense.

Moving forward by not writing online in a way that I’m misunderstood or end up hurt, it’s in my best interests to move forward and not make my personal symptoms a battle in public or a confusing subject for anyone on voices.

In the end it’s my life I worked hard to be well and be able to get a job, and my work online I was proud of and shared. I don’t think it’s justified for me to get voices or be called sick terms for any reason that’s not why I’m online or sharing to deal with symptoms out loud or be judged for what’s keeping me alive or what I believe in. I think if I’m getting voices that means I’m not believed they don’t see my value they don’t stop when I say stop, they expect me to just get hurt or go nuts or shout or hit my head or relapse as though that’s a joke, and I’m not willing to let myself be put down so far in life and act like that happened for no reason or be made fun of for my struggle is not for anyone’s entertainment nor is my book writing for anyone to call me that. I’m sorry I don’t have a solution for being called those things other than to not blog or share online apply for jobs and move forward, I don’t know what else to say I’m not talking to anyone mindful of everyone’s progress this is not something I need to constantly be bothered by and share about and act like it’s okay for me to get hurt or accuse me of struggling for no reason on Instagram, it’s not up to me if you give power to voices, then I don’t have to be online and remove myself.