I know I’ve been gone for awhile taking a break from blogging but trust the time and effort offline required all my attention and focus transitioning off adderrall and getting strong again. I feel like I’m ready to blog again. 

You know people change even if the voices don’t change that’s something I’m learning overtime as I better cope with outcomes and find a supportive approach to discussions online being there for others, and at the same time making time for my own life, better myself. Not just share advices without the results. I started applying for jobs again and got two job interviews I’m really excited about and preparing for. Just picked up my computer from the shop I just bought a MacBook on Amazon for the sake of having a MacBook this is my 4th MacBook since college and law school and blogging. I’ve been keeping busy, making and creating documents and publishing content online, work I’m proud of. 

Things I’ve overcome on different meds and now off meds, things like self harm, the repetitive nature of voices and its interruption on how you carry yourself through the day, the constant bothering of sorts that turns your stomach into knots and makes your heart beat race that kind of stress that can only be defined as delusion or a series of symptoms believed to be a product of your own thoughts or bodily functioning to not know the sound of your own voice I think we all know what we sound like listening to ourselves I think it’s the unfamiliar sounds of overhearing being spoken to by sources you’re not scientifically confident are being created by anyone period not even your audience maybe a disability associated with a questioning of your own insights or where your coming from or what’s created by you for others to hear we wonder. Can the disabling experience of voices be prevented by not taking adderrall and so that’s what I’m trying right now and hopefully so far it’s provided for more quiet days than listening to the unhappy sounds of complaints apathy and negativity you wonder where it’s coming from or what it has to do with your own senses sense of direction and thought processes to have to constantly report or have a reaction that matches the exact cure of what’s needed to prevent a condition only happening to you and your person in life.