I think what happened to me was shocking, was lucky to be helped, and sad to be hurt by voices and for whatever that represents to others. I don’t I ever intend to get sick or make life difficult for anyone or in a place too sick to help others, ever not honest or notice when I’m hurt and by what, and maybe that’s not in my control being helped or saved protected or able to stay well, maybe that’s the punishment taking meds away and expecting me to stay well, while everything in the world is happening, forget a purpose for blog or living ever not recognize I’ve been hurt or too late or mistake description or discussion as unhelpful or not empowering or with concern for direction or who is pleased or who I work for, mistake my voice for something dark or be concerned with what I can handle or misinterpret my life as lived innocent for hurtful broadcast or continued testing of voices and isolation and loss mistake chances or ability to stay well as sick because I said something wrong or have a life ill advised by voices to ridicule my life advice or story or form of help or purpose in court. I think taking meds away is a result of decisions made without knowing me well, which have not prevented voices or excused what’s been said deserving of voices, I don’t think I need to get hurt to say I can’t help or use diagnosis pill or event in life, against me or mistake court or innocent people for harsh truths hurtful to the mind that hurting my mind should suffice to prevent a hard or form of presence in life positive or bring to life issues with my comprehension of life, or accuse what’s been said as unhelpful in consideration of all lives. I think if my life is hurt and I’m given voices that’s telling me to not blog and I can’t help and based on the terms or issue brought up, being told I can’t help or by description call me sick based on my mental health and that’s tough for me to do my best to stay well, and suddenly it’s not about me but just making anything look like anything or expect me to not reflect on being hurt and not call that medical care or a change in a care or call stuff difficult easy or privacy or court places to just show up and stay well and not require meds, and that I can’t explain to others what meds are for and I’m sure it’s for things about life that are difficult for most people to think about including code or any form of strength and purpose trusted, sometimes it’s because of who you are and how you’re hurt that’s not justified and sometimes it’s not your honesty that’s defective or purpose in life that should constantly be put on hold or taken off meds and without worry for the rest of life, or mistake instability or writing or audience as stuff I lose or should be hurt by, the point is voices are hurtful, the lesson is court is not punishing I or getting rid of me based on who I am or what I’ve said and if I can do my best to stay alive and need meds, then that’s a happy ending for everyone who shouldn’t be bothered by what truth or private conversion voice or insult or form of hurt purposeful is occurring that I don’t think tech meds or diagnosis can cure compare me to other patients who are not me who have not lived 39 years of life and don’t deserve to be hurt or mistake my mental health for crisis or mistake my suffering or honesty as I unhelpful sometimes it’s the people you meet you are nice to and what people are told and made to look like that doesn’t do you a justice in life nothing worth dying over sometimes life isn’t up for debate worth getting hurt giving your power away or constantly get sick or misuse hospital or forms of help for things or emergencies mistake my wellness for something else not team spirited. What’s most hurtful is to get hurt and to suffer and be punished and for things to happen to you undeserved not because of the life you had or how many times threatened, but because all you have to do is do your best and be nice be a good human being and if you meant it and were helpful I don’t think sickness is something you do to people or call it justice or use voices to hurt people or create nightmare conditions while sober or mistake DA or court or person as not innocent. The lesson is not others being innocent and nice it’s about what’s happening to me is no one’s job and not in my control based on what I’ve said and nothing I need to go to the hospital for or something I’m told to do or make believe there are cures or act like people know voices or what to do with people in life including me and expect me to just stay well go to court don’t you think I want to stay well get to court don’t you think I’m hurt if I collapse I’m not trying to scare anyone, I think I’m doing my best.