It seems like no matter what court is about no matter if I’m hurt or trying to help everything gets confusing and difficult on the basis of mental health or any form of support provided seems like the lesson is not intended for me to stay well, wind up punching my head to extremes today with difficulty over voices and call 911 to explain something or speak normal is a difficult not the meds or who hurt me or something I’ve said or an excuse or stuff you call schizophrenia and expect me to spend thousands of dollars on medical care for work completed by me emailing SCOTUS and then just let anyone hurt me, even taking $200 dollars from me and Apple picked up right away, tell me to be careful, of what taking money from me, and working hard for 12 years, buying a computer here, or converting my money into a gift card and being paid $200 a day to just give me money and send money back and call me something deserving of hurt or insult or prejudicial regarding life and my presence or name or how I’m known is ridiculous the basis the basis for money at a time like this to address school shootings using my mental health or meds or sobriety or court or sense of peace or blog or writing or privacy or court for stuff personal as to huge matters like fires and gun violence, is such a big disheartening way force me to explain how I was hurt and expect me to work and blog and help others or not get sick in the process of making everyone happy or call difficulty normal human struggle or solution for victims, I don’t think giving me mental illness is helping anyone or call content sickness, I don’t think calling meds and alcohol and court stuff and openly accuse me of having voices in common to a hate website and call that not difficult or proper or to blame or explain anything else in life in regards to wellness and time and how short life is, if anyone’s working hard proud and doing what they can, it’s okay if it doesn’t make sense why I have no money or not working or can’t afford medical care not required for court there won’t always be a game winning solution for what’s proper or inappropriate about Kevin Costner not shows I watch or things said people I’m responsible for nice to me isn’t a drawing or sense of good or belief in God or ways to insult or come up with unlimited ways to call me fat ugly bald and say I have a ____ and show graphic photos then accuse me of having schizophrenia because he was sick toward me nice in private and call my struggle stupid or not complicated. That’s not love and that’s not deserved. I don’t think the solution is me getting sick and dying not too late to ask for help, or my love or health anyone’s worry or trauma or medical explanation of how anyone collapses accuse me of not working hard or battling something of value as to everyone’s health and mine, about my content or audience or meds or timing or require money or need to affect anyone or just end things on calling me ___ ___ ___ ___ ____ , and call that solution for what? In the end we have a new problem and people in leadership, I’ve been calling 911, serious issues are being discussed in SCOTUS right now in regards to exposure I would consider my own life experiences a valued experience in life including my reflections on risk or sense of being human or what adulthood is about, not taking away the positives like building acceptance for, it’s about diagnosing people with schizophrenia, and making fun of their sexuality and mental health, and calling offensive websites stuff shown about me to blame me or as the person hurt …. Make others think less of me or injure my vitality or strength is not about any life or past or people moving on winning or being bigger or coming up with excuses for jail and threat and use money to accuse or make fun of my wellness like I need money to stay well or just make changes in medical care difficulties normal or not worse by also criticizing my blog content as not current or important or relevant to everyone ….. maybe the biggest difficulty in life is giving me voices and calling me that telling everyone that punching my head and getting upset writing or not, with or without love or money, then view school shootings as a public health crisis to be addressed by the well, keeping me off line, making up excuses for lawsuit or membership or worsen my condition is not about me saying something everyone can agree with and relate to to call me human or worth it and it’s not God punishing me or demoralizing me or require me to die or suffer or take any meds or suffer any relapse to make me more human or pass more tests in terms of identifying why my life is being used compared to others, is not the solution to call me stupid and expect me to show up. That’s a big problem, job or no job, being someone helping others, while being hurt, in court, do my best to be social or loving criticized made fun of, hurt, expect everything to go right and act like anything’s a waste of time including my life or my campaign or just call me a waste or ugly or sick or make movie or witch or fire jokes or whatever sickness you call court is not for that. I’m not imagining stuff, of issue, relative to money or crime, that requires me to be hurt to make more sense of other things in life ruin my life or call me offensive or use voices or websites and expect me to just stay well. It’s clear there is a present problem school shootings, it’s clear I’m not feeling well, it’s clear everyone is doing their best being positive, it’s clear I’m not suicidal, it’s clear I’m punching my head over difficulty talking and it’s unclear what the solution is on the immediate based on my mental health is nothing court or email or time spent blogging wasted effort or just stuff to insult and accuse me of being mean or sick or not beautiful that I can’t help. All that matters is for everyone to focus on solving an issue current with or without me getting sick with voices. Is not me imagining or saying nice things or writing proper or being nice to everyone or clearly a problem as to me, how I’m treated, and the care that needs to be provided is to children addressed in court, not about making fun of things I say I’m private or require money to solve. Or investigator or take for granted David Hoggs leadership, and also make fun of everything I’m saying is unclear whatever the secret or unloved or who’s god whatever the joke is. I keep getting sick and I’m doing my best that’s no one’s fault I gave up meds, alcohol, men, emails, blog, expensive medical care, and what’s most important for everyone to be motivated to help fix is the problem like school shootings not accuse me of being stupid or not real bring up money etc, at a time like this.