I think my biggest problem is staying and well and being strong enough to handle everything and court and deal with lawsuits (forms of rejection) and call it something else, personal, including bringing up all other issues in life personal or reasons for let down of pain or suffering in life as though one speaks sick on online and call my reality darkness or unnecessary writing online or dishonest work. I don’t think the issue is what I have or who I was or what others think I think the issue is getting sick due to voices, and staying well, and that’s a normal struggle for anyone to deal with in life unrelated to court or what others want including court and justice is not the solution to keep getting sick or call insults punishment or money privilege or stupid stuff you need or have or see or given or taken minor issues including bullying or forms of support provided by me. I think once you use men to call me small and call me sick to make others feel better it’s unclear how a solution can be reached fair that both allows for open interpretation on a level I can stay well not get voices. On some level whatever meds I’m given be accepted for honesty or difficulty take my word for it, not villainize me or call me sheltered or stupid or a risk of mean or careless or other things imagined for interpretation call confidence or conversation as open for interpretation call anything guilt or unattractive or mean, or any success or guy as better than me deserving of better, both victimize me and call mistreatment of me relative to actual school shootings racism assassination homocide OJ, young women at risk of harm, companies, or comments stuff I say a game or just accuse everything said well of stupidity or just destroy anything and call me small or delusional villainize my voice or concept of mental health or address to the public or sense of urgency or time spent better of belonging elsewhere I don’t think any danger or incompressible mental difficulty doesn’t require lawsuit or sadness an interpretation of life something I have no provided or a sense of loss or concept of God and find meaning in content as stuff about me or accuse me of having no beauty or no voice whatever the story accepted and past the point of solution is nothing made in hate or stuff created is intense to hurt and if it’s an argument I’ve made, I should stay alive and be positive not sued or get hurt just make for a confusing conversation about subjects or the big picture unclear what people are sad or offended by what difficulty too much or sense of life so low or interaction so poor or commentary or sense of lightness ineffective is no one’s job to die to not be heard or make fun of my life and connections or people from my story, hear my story my code and make fun of all discussions of voices or require money to say well, or act like being poor is judged or requires me to control or communicate something mistake others as being human and being innocent, for things you shouldn’t wait wait for like military or strength or words relevant to anyone’s sensitivity or story maybe it’s hard for me to accept disrespect in all forms, maybe voices and dealing with voices is a struggle that punching my head today after seeing my face and reading one post was not good enough that my conversations or arguments stupid or almost dying wasn’t good enough to be relevant to everyone’s happiness and strength is not about loving me and can’t see me as bad, or calling him trash or me trash or my family, or connections in life or accuse me of just being sick speaking in public or private make fun issues and reasons and limits and temperament and difficulties as though I need sympathy love misidentify my face gender sexuality or respect so be it that’s not for me to lose my life and spend thousands of dollars or tell my story to anyone to be rejected and sued and keep calling difficulty worse than it is or accusation not horrific and untrue or believed shocking or stuff to make fun of mental illness or sobriety or loss on a level to mistake my insight or presentation as not worth it or call job or focus or blog or money as going to keep me well it’s not the support and form of payment required relevant to my own family’s reputation and about my own ego or ability to stay well or sense of meeting SCOTUS or delusion interpreting schizophrenia as stuff you don’t go around telling people a joke and make fun of me call me a reject or need a lawsuit or call people being nice mindful of everything as a whole not hurtful in the end it’s not about helping me or hurting my feelings or excommunicating me or making fun of me or calling voices an easy subject or make fun of self harm and call that “frustration” you can take all my meds away and everyone can stay away until we figure out what will make everyone feel happy and lighten up and be apart of solution without making fun of me and call me stuff unprofessional.