They say to keep trucking along meaning “ to persevere, carry on, or persist, especially through difficult, boring, or tedious circumstances.” [1] I can’t tell you enough how important it is to be positive even when we are in doubt of ourselves or others. Be forgiving you never know what anyone else is going through, don’t take it personally. Most of our discomfort with self lies in our insecurities its about how we present ourselves to the world. 

Recently I’ve struggled with attending AA and sharing at meetings. To qualify yourself is one thing but mentioning I went to law school or who I know shouldn’t be what’s needed to feel respected or heard so I do my best to not mention details about my life or who I know that would seem out of place. So far I’ve been welcomed to attend meetings encouraged to come back but I don’t know why it’s so difficult for me to attend maybe I’m just not comfortable with myself or sharing my lows in life. My house manger reminded me to end on a positive note I always try to say that I’m grateful to be here and mention I’m not from here and was sent to treatment out here. Getting used to San Diego has been a process going to meetings where I don’t know anyone. At least in LA I bump into people I know and see some familiar faces. Maybe just need to not be so hard on myself. 

Therefore stay positive when you’re feeling judged no one is judging you. When you feel ignored no one knows you. When you don’t have love in your life or a significant other to represent you be okay with where you are single. When you can’t sit still be okay with yourself and your discomfort. No one is watching you or judging you that’s all in your head. Learn to relax and do your best to get to know others. Share in the positive about yourself what is there to love about being you and start there. As hard as it is for you they’re noticing it’s up to you to overcome feeling out of place and keep showing up. I’ve met some women at the meeting and everyone’s been kind to me but I always feel like something’s missing maybe its continuing on those connections go to different meetings go to more women’s meetings. Just felt like sharing what I’m going through I’m sure we all have mental health issues when it comes to being in a room full of people know that you’re not alone and even I’m not comfortable yet and maybe that’s okay. They don’t know I blog and loved online supported and that’s okay. But do what is required and do my best. Thanks for letting me share, have a good day everyone. 

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[1] keep trucking along – Google Search