Feeling lost right now, it might be because of who I connect with, when Im not well, when Im doing well, and whats helping, and not in any specific order, what is keeping me well, meds, or people, and in the event that I feel hurt, is that because of how I sound or by what I think, and what does me not feeling well have to do with, I dont think you always know why, but if you focus on a feeling you will not get the answer to your problems talking with just anyone (why sent to therapy, how a doctor can help rather than anyone else who may feel overwhelmed in the event that they cant help make you feel better, thats an unnecessary frustration in life, to not be able to help yourself or to become too needy of others, its actually a feeling worse than fear, to not just stay calm and be comfortable with yourself, its not a stability a pill can provide, I cant explain it), thats not the solution, what is the solution, is to be someone who does not bother anyone, you cannot expect anyone to be happy for you, or to know what are the causes for your instability, I think on your own there is too much room for error, and just because you are doing well doesnt mean that you will stay well, not if there is something wrong with you, or if another is not made to be happy with you, so its for everything you have said, what later happens to you, is to make you seem like you were not a person who was who you were, why would you be portrayed as something else, to make you feel bad about yourself, so that no one respects you, I think in stupidity, you can easily allow yourself to become intimidated by anyone who thinks you are trying to be something you are not, Im not trying to be famous, Im not successful enough to be in a public professional media, and my story is not a story that is special or unique to my circumstance, I dont think its necessary to be treated like Im going places in life, or be connected to in the event that Im moving forward in life to make me look stupid, like its through anyone famous, that is where Im headed in life, to be myself or to be happy, I think you lose stability when others think less of you and thats not something you can correct being conservative then being made to look trashy or grose, and I didnt go to law school just to be loved and made fun of or anyone telling the whole world that I am someone different in private than I am in public, I speak the same everywhere I go, and maybe I dont look like I have disability but like everyone else, when Im not well, no one can give you the answer to that or talk you through your problems thats not what people are for to make you feel good about yourself, or to make you feel included or to figure out whats wrong with you, and to help you by talking to others about you like you need help or representation, thats why people with problems are hard to help, they seem like they dont need help around people, then on their own they are less stable, and no one understands why anyone who sounds well, is not well physically, or why anyone gets sick, based upon when they are doing well how people are and if they dont stay well, what the causes for anyone being mean to them are, no one can explain to you why you are not favored or easily turned on people dont want to waste their time talking to anyone who is not well and cannot sound well or interact and socialize, if its something youre thinking off topic, just learn to write or journal is my current task, its not necessary to explain to someone who thinks less of me, then it will be everything said to figure out what they know or think and think that how they are is because of what they know about you, or by what they have read, people can learn from you, but that doesnt mean that you will be stronger opening up, thats how the reverse happens they know how to treat you differently based on how you see things, to see whether if you are someone who then becomes someone who doesnt feel well or sound stable, how that affects you or others, and who is there for you, usually people are there for you when well, and if you look like you dont care, then they think youre more well that you are, and that can also be a cause for people putting you down, thinking that you are “full of $hit,” or hypocritical, or embracing a side of you that doesnt exists, or not helping any problems, or considered part of a problem, I dont think I represent any apps, but I do think that by what happens to me, is never to help myself, its usually doing something so that others dont get hurt or say something so that no one feels bad or allows for anything bad to happen in terms of who has done well and who has not done well, whether that be a company or a person.