Forgetfulness happens, you could be in over your head, you could be processing, you could be unprepared, you could be out of your league, you could have low self esteem, you could be in a down, you could be mid comeback, you could be overwhelmed, it happens. Multi-tasking is one step after being put together, where if you don’t manage well what’s going on within, it can affect your decision making skills moving forward, and this is what affects your punctuality, your attention to detail, your ability to forgive, your moods, and your ability to overcome. So come up with a system and stick to it. This life is everything worth being grateful for.

Gratitude is the key to success, it means you’re being mindful, your being thoughtful, you’re at ease, you’re at peace, you’re thankful, and you recognize not only how far you’ve come but also credit the progress of others, there for others, not just stuck in your own head sifting through problems in life, and it’s your clarity that shines.

I just started a new book today, “Empty Out the Negative” by Joel Osteen, he’s one of my favorite speakers, I found him on the mini kitchen TV one day on a random channel, he’s great, has great energy and delivery I wouldn’t even wonder for which religion he seemed to speak my language. I’m half Filipino (Asian/Pacific Islander) so half Catholic by blood and half Jewish, raised Jewish & Bat-Mitzvah’d at a Country Club, we had to hire a rent-a-rabbi to tutor us at my dining room table and would rehearse by voicemail machine, that’s how I was taught Hebrew and Bat-Mitzvah’d. -My family is a Matriarch and my Mom reads the Bible. She would always try to hand me the Bible when I’d be stuck in my car running on my phone writing. She didn’t like me out at night alone or running.

I’m part Israeli, Ukrainian, Russian, and half Filipino (w/Spanish, Indian, Native American). My Grandma and Grandpa met in WWII, my Grandma was a Secretary and met my Grandpa who was married at the time, I saw him in a photo with an in-an-out style hat. My Grandma wrote a book in Yiddish, I wrote my name on top in pen, I was young when I got a copy of her book. She was a Professor at NYU, and had a stroke at one point, she drove a blue Mercedes station wagon, diesel, I remember how loud the engine was, it had a special noise. My Grandpa is Russian, my Grandma is Israeli/Ukrainian.

I’m only bringing this up because recently I checked my website similar sites and was compared to Nixon tapes website and a Bible website, and thought that was funny. Fitting I guess since it seems like I’m a very spiritual person, have attended AA for years and improved through their program, I love to write and read books, I’ve been journaling since I was 5 with a Sanrio hello kitty lock diary I bought probably while attending Kumon for speed math as a child. My Mom keeps everything, and so did my Grandpa, he had a loft on Barrington and it was full of piles of paper, he was an Accountant. -And I’ve been praying since college with Bodhi Tree Bookstore candles on Pennsylvania Ave and they would all melt together the “peace, serenity, love” etc candles.

So back to forgetfulness. There’s a great Lady Gaga song about forgetfulness, for me a pop-star ideological take on forgetfulness might occur upon being recognized or standing out if you’re not used to being looked at or noticed, and in the exchange of seemingly wellness occurring upon recognition of you become sensitive to any responses you might get, while still awaiting for feedbacks, this is when more people know you than you know them, so don’t dim your light and try not to fidget too much, don’t mind #toddspitzer, he’s a public figure but this is a much different energy circle, you’re either with it and confident or you get upset over little things, which could mean you’re not ready to be viewed or going through something that inhibits your ability to see the beauty in communications standing out to you, it could be you or it could be others trying to be noticed so don’t mind the energy this is a very new way of standing out to one another, call it wellness.

Today I’m back to normal, I’m learning that if I off speak or have a bad day this affects the voices created in my head either expecting for negatives then hear negatives. Or as I review what’s been said get an ulcer so a stress, that’s usually how I know whether to redact or edit out things, I mostly try to keep things perfect upon publishing with review and editing only because I’m being back linked now and sometimes people re-blog or re-post with my work and rewrite bits and pieces if it’s for a different audience I guess that’s okay so long as it doesn’t make me look bad. Can probably contact them to inquire, at least I got a shout out, not really sure how online communities are built yet, but I’m sure that’s something we are all still figuring out by referrals and likes, seems to be a booming profession.

Just looked up “forgetfulness” on Google: When it comes to forgetfulness it’s recommended to: “Follow a daily routine. Plan tasks, make to-do lists, and use memory tools such as calendars and notes. Put your wallet or purse, keys, phone, and glasses in the same place each day. Stay involved in activities that can help both the mind and body.” [1] -Organization is crucial, when you know where everything is you can function that much quicker and with clarity. As a blogger early on I used to save everything and print and had plastic filing bins in my studio apartment in Westwood, I would bind my Twitter or bind my word documents and first free writing tries, and kept a folder for everything all through law school everything was in marked folders and binders all my writing and school work. To get my Masters I completely hand wrote drafts of my papers and never checked my grades because it was too stressful to go by GPA and ended up with a 3.2 I even got As some semesters I had no idea. So I’m someone who is very organized despite my diagnosis I’m not sure where I went wrong with others or what seemed not put together about me maybe I just don’t have the same energy as everyone and nap a lot I’ve been this way since college I “power nap.” I don’t think life was stressful for me I think it was very lonely for me I used to cry in college and all the way up until now I used to cry everyday to #toddspitzer I’m doing much better now, I started taking Prozac. So whatever it is that’s keeping you from putting yourself together take it one day at a time just like doing chores and keeping up with tasks then eventually things start to feel better and your decision making and fluidity of your speech and how you talk becomes more clear and upbeat and you begin to walk faster on the treadmill each day and you leave those moments of fog, or nostalgia, or backtracking on yourself or others, that’s moving forward. It doesn’t happen all at once but eventually you can just keep going.

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[1] https://www.nia.nih.gov/health/memory-forgetfulness-and-aging-whats-normal-and-whats-not