It’s been a few months now can’t stay well keep getting sick physical pain headaches loss of sleep and difficulty moving. I’m doing my best to write still getting voices taunting it’s too painful … I need to get well to go back to work and may discontinue blogging since everything is so controversial and nothing is good enough therefore nothing I can say can reverse a pain that is being caused by people who don’t like me put my head and body in physical pain. Need to slow down simplify my life focus on working out get strong again not date for another 6 months to a year until I’m mentally strong enough. Goal is to get a job, I can’t do big things in life because of the schizophrenia voices who sabotage me upon doing well or looking nice so I miss a 2nd interview with HR, so my relationship Todd fails, so my relationship Aaron fails, so my relationship with Rob fails, so my first job fails I’m not strong enough to be social share when I have to function focus write 3 oppositions to motion for summary judgment 2 mediation briefs and deposition questions without drafts ready to go final drafts, and got COVID and my Father passed away I’m never allowed anytime to rest everyone hard on me wanting money bills money I don’t have just earned and got sick from stress and stopped going to work to rest on medical leave. I called 911 and the Sheriff to discus my concerns in mistreatment due to shootings and may go to the hospital. And rest for two weeks. Because I’m not feeling well and everything’s too much painful. The medical team is coming to my apartment to check on me yo see if I need to be hospitalized.

10/28/22