Be someone who others can be proud of. It doesn’t matter who you are we are all capable of either being a life force in life, or someone who others feel let down by. Trust me Ive been there it is just as painful to be the person who others feel hurt by or disappointed by, then to be on the other end, which is rare for me, to be disappointed by others or critical. What my blog functions as is to describe that although you may be in pain, although things may be impossible, and although you may be feeling sick, these are conditions that can be fixed, either with meds (just took a Geodone) and not give into pain (not relapse and messaged people) and try your best to get back to the lighter side of life. It may take some convincing on your part but like many of us, such as myself you don’t have a fight left in you, what to do then.

If you ever get to top 22,000s website online, like me, then you will consider other options at that time, what would make people feel good, to be entertained, you would expect for someone such as myself successful online, money doesn’t matter, that I would have something to sell like a book, but I did not choose that option when it first arised, and I think waiting is best, and low and behold I improved as a writer. So that is why singing became an option, had I not been popular as a writer I would not sing, because I became popular as a writer, sang. 

Where I stand in terms of female empowerment? I think everyone is doing well, it doesn’t matter what its about or where it is coming from, we each fight our own battles in life, to become successful or to stand out and become known for positive attributes, and its for no one to judge who is in alignment or in response to the others, the best thing you can do as an audience member would not require women to play off eachother so much and to accept those demonstrating uniqueness, that much we owe to women, to be unique and to not be influenced by one another made to feel bad about themselves, jealous, or competitive with one another, over men, women, or friendships, that I think we can each fair on our own, attract what we give out and give back to world, all relationships take time, between women, between men, and in platonic relationships between sexes, that’s not a difficult subject just takes some maturity, I don’t think if I were uncomfortable by either would be speaking with confidence. Then there are selective groups of people, I neither see myself as one of them or deserving to be among famous people, its only through writing that I qualified to be invited to a ceremony, which I will not be attending this November because I have not been feeling well not strong enough to sit for the duration of the ceremony at this condition, due to overreacting to a situation in the news, that I did not need to take personally. The top is not a fight, the more friends you can make the better, it’s a field you enter into with respect for others, and if you cant find respect among audience members, then it starts there, before you can come up in life, you will fair no better, respect starts from within, if you feel deficient or insecure, you will find it difficult to have things to talk about with others, and not come out clear, that’s what happens when you are not fit to be around people in life, you improve until you are able to sit among. 

Everyones different, my best advice if in “pain” for whatever reasons, would be to call a hotline, I call 911 or hotlines, or therapy or psychiatry, to discuss what is causing you “pain” to adjust meds, its not a trending phenomenon, its only of curiosity because of a recent death in music, considering who are life forces in life and my physical or mental condition being considered of influence in the positive or the negative for others suffering. As far as Im concerned I have not been isolating, Ive been sharing effectively online, Ive not been spreading rumor or making up pop culture stories on sensitive subjects, Ive not been self-harming or enduring pain created by myself, I have been reaching out to others and not isolating, and have been attending AA meetings and staying sober and taking meds as prescribed, and not presently self-harming or suicidal, not even after a “breakup” with #toddspitzer initiated by his office for reasons I do not know why, and now locked out of my account, so can’t remove myself from his hashtag. I’m always doing my best to keep people out of harms way and to make good decisions for myself, I don’t come across as desperate or needy, but maybe too opinionated, which is a product of the schizophrenia when people think you have a big head or “know it all” I think I speak my mind and share what I think well in a way that makes sense to others, and when the time allows for it talk about love and life coaching, otherwise its more important to talk about problems in lif until problems and voices go away. Writing helps prevent voices that is why I write, not writing results in pain or more voices, that is when the voice inside you is not writing or explaining how you feel, why writing is important, to visually represent what is going on inside you in your heart, which sometimes by thinking in your mind, is hard to do therapy doing nothing, why it is suggested to reach out to people, write, and journal, so you can reflect see what you think. And when you see what you think you feel better, than just sitting with a feeling, and not beginning at all. It’s helpful to reach out if people can help you, given the times, things are so intense, or everyone has finally come out of a pain or realization in life, that they don’t have the energy to micromanage your problems in life, so its better to talk to a therapist at those times in life. That’s my best advice if youre struggling, trust me I struggle to to perform online blogging, its not all rosey pink empowerment, sometimes, it takes time and going out of my way to put in the effort to get to a state of peace with the voices I hear which I am sure is a product of blogging. I can tell you one thing, if you are ever connected to something unwanted, that can affect your sixth sense about things, so I have done my best to disclose where I am coming from who I know, who I date, who I like, so you know what is going on within me, what to protect and what is gearing discussions or affecting what is going on within me, hearing myself, trust me I don’t hear my audience when Im talking and Im not anticipating what you think, my goal is always to reduce the noise and chaos that can occur within, by teaching others how to get through their thoughts and feelings with meds, so that they can reach center again. It is recommended for people with schizophrenia to meditate, as a writer I spend a lot of quiet time thinking out what to write about, taking notes, spiral notebook, keeping track of my train of thought and thinking what the best thing to say would be. Recently I have thought about branching out and attending public speaking meetups to learn more about how to address the public through a blog and how to speak to a big audience, approach subjects more clear, without creating a frustration or an unwanted opening of issues, pried into, others alike too.