A lot of things in life happen that way, for things to be good and for things to be let go of, or not made a big deal of, and that’s how life is supposed to work, learning as you go, all things can be forgiven if this is everyones first time around at living life based on what obstacles have been set before us, then the expectation of people overall should be low, but in a good way, proud of those who can be strong, and nothing too urgent, that anything is an emergency, when considering the good health of others coming before your own, and that’s how life works, keeping you away from people, and based upon your story, either viewed as exposing others to hurt or worry of defects or conditions upon sharing to be wrongfully accused of passing a condition to others, Im almost certain that if anyone ever got an STD or COVID from me that I would be sued and put in jail, Im pretty sure that that would be a punishable offense in the book of others to determine how careful and courteous I am of the conditions of others. Im also not one to complain when put in the hospital or forced to go on 5150 holds for long period of time, by choice, or by taking me to the hospital, and Im sure that everyones stopping points in life are well far behind what I have endured without needing to be in the constant presence of others to prove my wellness, you learn as you go, whats tolerable, and whats intolerable, this you wont figure out until you are asked to leave, or cant work, and hopefully its not too late by then to figure out your challenges and difficulties in life, whatever they may be. Notice how things are well around you when you are well, and how things fall apart upon not doing well, all stickers and hashtags aside, it will be by what youre affected by that intended to serve as a reminder to you or to others, of what you are faced with or represent to take into consideration all the battles that everyone else has fought to be where they are and have respect for the privacy interests of those who do not wish to be punished for your memories in life, or what you think life is like without you, cool by you or uncool by you, I don’t think it was ever intended for me to live in a specialized way by privilege, I think I was always someone who could function and make it in life, just being who I was and living the lifestyle that I chose, to be alone. That was a no brainer, having had a few experiences drinking and experimenting with drugs to know that life was much worse, and that addiction is a very stupid and painful way to recognize what health is about and why its important to stay well and not do anything that causes one harm, or causes people to have difficulty caring for, it’s the fastest way downhill to any life story, addiction, it’s the thing that you are told not to do, and do, is what makes you stupid, or pitiful and helpless, and maybe that’s the lesson in failure, are you doing something that’s inhibiting your ability to do well in life, and if so, what are you doing that is getting in the way between your ability to focus and do well and stay connected what is keeping you well, in the event that you are not well, think what is keeping me well and why, and think why am I not functioning or having difficulty, and then try again at life without complaint, its really no ones fault, when you lose steam or stop performing, always be in control of the choices you make in life, nothing can set you further away from your goals in life, other than to not have a head to function with and goal set with, where does your heart wander when you are not feeling well, nowhere, that’s called being lost, when you start failing at what you were good at, when you cant manage to make happen what you were working hard for “relationship” and when things go wrong in reality, whats the constant system of identifying something is wrong, well to someone who does not feel like they belong, and feels lost, then it would be the person who feels most lost, to remove themselves from any situation in which others are more put together, that would be a tell tale sign that you should stay home, if you are not feeling well, so that’s what my life looks like from a historical perspective between the time it takes to not feeling well to getting strong, to trying again to be loved or to apply again, every experience in life serves as a different lesson to you in life. And you cant keep going in life, if others are harmed that’s the lesson in sharing a historical overview of what went right and who is strong now (ex) #jaycarney), it will be by their choices, not by a similar story or comradere of connections online political, eventually none of that will matter, if connecting to you doesn’t help. So that’s the lesson in things occurring in spite of you being well, or to be blamed in the event things are not going well, to be designated at what point in time, the person being fought to say that being strong was in defiance or defense of self and should have been a knowing of dislike triggered by who I am in pirvate or online not liked to wrongfully accuse me of being known and to have wavered any chance of being known in the positive given up on myself, so that’s the difference between decisions, made when well, such as a blog or website, versus worse showings of your identity, in which for every positive a negative occurs, which I think is to undo the respect of things looking right, then how will one feel or look when things are not right, at what point does life stop looking beautiful, it will be when nothing from the past matters, and if you consistently don’t feel well, that should immediately alert you that (1) if you don’t feel well the chances of (2) someone else not feeling well is great, and that’s the main lesson for prevention, that if I am not feeling well you will not feel well the basic rules for any audience, and if I am not well then I cannot attend AA, and if I am not well and safe from harm, then I cannot date and make another feel well and safe from harm, and by the time all your pet peeves and sensitivities have been evaluated, what will matter most is how you are when you don’t feel well, whether you continue on and pretend to be well (which would be wrong if you were or are in danger or a failure or not on medications in the right way or drink alcohol or try drugs) then you will be deemed as being at fault for not feeling good because you are not living up to your own rules, it cannot be determined why you are not feeling good, to see who you blame in the event you are not feeling good, and worse case scenario to see who is or isn’t affected by you not doing well, to see whether you lie or try to convince people that you are not well because of or whether there is something in error on your part that can be explained by meds or writing to accuse you of not being well and to continue on knowing that you are not well, and to wrongfully accuse you of not being well and holding guilts that you expose other to, is how you don’t matter in life, and cannnot be helped.